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LOI am a 60 year old male that  Has struggled all of my life about my about my identity and who I truly am inside. It played the male role over the years served in the Marine Corps even was married a few times and had kids. Never could understand why my relationships and marriages with women never worked out until I recently discovered Is who I truly am inside. Is my whole heart and soul This is female and I have such a desire like never before to make that transition and become the woman that I have always Did to be.

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Loren, most of us have shared all of part of your story, and have had the same desires, hopes and dreams.  It is certainly possible to achieve that which you desire.  I started my journey at age 54, and very many here have started later.  I've lived full time as Carolyn for 10 years.  I'm happy, and I hope that you, too, will be happy as the woman you wish to be, if that is what you want.




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10 hours ago, Loren said:

Never could understand why my relationships and marriages with women never worked out until I recently discovered Is who I truly am inside.

Welcome Loren! It is nice to meet you, and I am confident you will find the community here warm and supportive. What you write above about relationships not working out has been a lifelong challenge for me as well. It took me many years to untangle my gender identity and sexual orientation, and I always wondered whether my attraction to women was lust, or was it actually envy? In the midst of the pandemic lockdowns last year, I embraced my true self and moved forward with living an authentic life. I hope you will find happiness too on your path. and I am looking forward to seeing you around on the forums!




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Thank you for that. You nailed it... last or envy. Yes I know that for me I thought it was lust sexually, but it was envy, or even lust in my heart to be them..

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One of the great things i found at 63 when i transitioned is that i not only became and felt new but i was somehow perceived and felt younger.  Hopefully your journey will be as fulfilling, if at times difficult, as mine,  I found great help here. 





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Hi Loren, pleased to meet you. :) Once you open that door and realise what you have been hiding/avoiding it is amazing how much sense the rest of our lives can suddenly make!

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Welcome Loren


9 hours ago, Audrey said:

whether my attraction to women was lust, or was it actually envy

When I understood that I wasn't wanting to be with the women, but be the women, a lot of things began to make sense.

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On 12/13/2021 at 9:39 PM, Jandi said:

When I understood that I wasn't wanting to be with the women, but be the women, a lot of things began to make sense.


Reading this one sentence made me see why I always admire beautiful women. It is my feminine side that wants to be like them. I have never understood this until now!

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