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An Inch Point Five Beneath Your Wig Cap-- +/- (Found in My Older Posts)


VickySGV

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I made this post which I am linking in here while looking for another one.  We have a new wave of people asking about what I call the "P word".  I posted this nearly 9 years ago, but it is still some of my ongoing observations of my life.  Enjoy.

 

 

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Thanks for that reminder, Vicky.  Things haven't changed for either of us, I think, and I also believe neither of us would change anything.

 

Carolyn Marie

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Thank you Vicky
That is some sage advice and as some one early on in the transition journey I will need to go back to that to remind myself.

 

Billie.

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OMG, Vicky, for anyone trans, your words are more than sage advice, they actually border on "nirvana," a state of being that really matters.  I have experienced similar jealousies when I see drop dead gorgeous trans girls.  Why can't I be that beautiful?  But then reality sets in and I realize I shouldn't be jealous at all.  What's most important is how I feel about myself, not about how others might perceive me.  Love thyself, it's truly liberating and it's the path to inner peace! 

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34 minutes ago, Sally Stone said:

I realize I shouldn't be jealous at all.  What's most important is how I feel about myself, not about how others might perceive me.  Love thyself, it's truly liberating and it's the path to inner peace! 

Sally this is it!  You have to love who you are to be happy!  

 

Jani

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   When i was first experimenting with moving in the world passing was always on my mind.  I simply couldn't get comfortable in the world.  I almost forced myself to have as many social interactions with strangers to get past my fears.  I don't know when the change came but over time i've simply forgotten that my presentation is any different that it was pre transition.  

As Vicky says the change came more in my own head than in my presentation.  

   I doubt there is any outfit, wig, makeover or padding that could have come close to acceptance that time has brought.  

I am learning to enjoy the journey today.  Self acceptance has followed as has acceptance by others.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Thank you Vicky & all you other wonderfully beautiful ladies for your encouraging wisdom. In my short time strolling on this path I find the most peaceful times are those away from the mirror just going about my day.

 

Hugs!

Delcina

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Thanks for re-sharing Vicky I really enjoyed re-reading your post, as someone who is constantly assessing their interactions with others it is a lesson I hope to learn properly as time goes on. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other women, but I was doing it with men as I tried to pass as one of them for almost 40 years - it's a hard habit to break!

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