Its coming back

[ithinkjenny]

So when i was younger i would get to points in my life where i would hate the way i looked which i know most of us do but it got bad. 

I always start by eating less till I'm soo hungry i shake and feel week so then i drink plenty of water to bloat or i binge and then its toilet visit time. 

(i also habe taken strong laxatives for obvious reasons) 

 

Basically its starting again and i don't want to get back there but my head wants me to. 

 

I don't know what replies to expect but i do know its stupid and dumb and i'm just hurting myself but that doesn't help. 

 

Much love miss idk. Xxx

 

 

[stveee]

So this sounds like an eating disorder, but that really has nothing to do much with food. It's about self-acceptance.

You may want to contact a professional and work with another person who has suffered the same affliction but found a way to stop.

If you want to stop, that is.

[Artpetal]

I really am not a professional, but I wanted to offer you support. Maybe treating yourself to a snack or a meal you really, really love would help you want to eat other things like them. As for me, I know I only eat when I get hungry and that's twice a day, not three times. If I'm NOT hungry, I just don't eat anything even if it's the time of day to eat, because I know I usually wouldn't be able to finish up. I often dislike things they add in at fast food places - eggs, any kind of cheese, way too much salt - so I wonder if it could help you to cook your food in your kitchen. Sometimes, it's very relaxing for me to prepare a meal and I think a lot of women feel that way.