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Random Thoughts of a Part-time Woman


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@Sally StoneI think that's great introspection. My mind is always pondering and wandering, especially when I go for my walks. Sometimes it even comes up with good stuff like you have. Then, when I get home, it fails me and I can't put together a single coherent thought. Maybe I should figure out how to do voice input on this cr****y phone and record stuff. Except I hate hearing my recorded voice.

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On 5/17/2022 at 9:52 PM, Hannah Renee said:

Except I hate hearing my recorded voice.

Yeah, that is a thing.

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On 5/17/2022 at 6:52 PM, Hannah Renee said:

I think that's great introspection.

Hannah Renee, I agree. How many of us at some point have had these [trans]gender identity related thoughts come to mind? Whether you’re living on both extremes of the binary genders off and on, living somewhere else on the gender spectrum, or in that ‘difficult in-between’ stage a half year or so into your transition, I think many of us here have had thoughts about the statements on Sally’s list.

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On 5/20/2022 at 10:30 PM, Susan R said:

Hannah Renee, I agree. How many of us at some point have had these [trans]gender identity related thoughts come to mind? Whether you’re living on both extremes of the binary genders off and on, living somewhere else on the gender spectrum, or in that ‘difficult in-between’ stage a half year or so into your transition, I think many of us here have had thoughts about the statements on Sally’s list.

I’ve had a lot of those thoughts.  But then again I just had my first therapy appointment last week.  I like the thought..

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On 5/17/2022 at 3:21 PM, Sally Stone said:
  • Am I really part-time?
  • When I'm in boy mode do people know why I don't have hair on my legs?
  • Body hair sucks!
  • I should have had facial electrolysis years ago 
  • Am I trans, or is this just my sense of fashion?
  • Well groomed eyebrows aren't just for women
  • Expressing the female side of my personality is therapeutic
  • If I couldn't express my female side, I'd go bonkers
  • Why can't I have it both ways?
  • Do I prefer boy mode or girl mode?
  • I cling to boy mode because he is paying the bills.
  • Would I transition if I didn't enjoy being a dad and a husband so much?
  • I could be a woman all the time, if I really wanted to
  • My feminine side makes me a better person
  • I wish my features were more androgynous
  • Women are jealous of my legs
  • I'm really good at being a woman - it's so easy for me

 

I know there are more, but these are enough for now.

 

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On 5/20/2022 at 7:30 PM, Susan R said:

Hannah Renee, I agree. How many of us at some point have had these [trans]gender identity related thoughts come to mind? Whether you’re living on both extremes of the binary genders off and on, living somewhere else on the gender spectrum, or in that ‘difficult in-between’ stage a half year or so into your transition, I think many of us here have had thoughts about the statements on Sally’s list.

YES!

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