Partial transition?

[Journey123]

Hi, I'm not sure where I am with all this. I'm a gay/somewhat bi boy. When I was a teenager I felt somewhat trans but all these years later I've settled on being a fem gay man. However, I've always been unhappy with my body. I'm a chub but with a very male shape. Having a more femine shape is something that I've always wanted...  having curves in the right places and being much softer. But I don't want to go further now than being a very fem gay male. I just love being fem but as a guy. Does this outlook fall into the trans space? And would HRT be allowed for this type of identification? 

[Jackie C.]

Salutations @Journey123! Welcome to Transpulse!

 

So what HRT is going to do is soften your skin, thin out your hair by making it finer and make your grow breasts. They might not be very big, but they're going to happen. Mentally, there are a billion and one other changes including increased emotions a softening of your outlook and a bunch of things I can't even describe that vary from person to person. If you stop the HRT, the changes will lessen, but not disappear entirely.

 

Now, while they went the other way, you sound a lot like one of my NB friends. They enjoy some parts of being female and some parts of being male. They like being somewhere in the middle. They took HRT until they got the changes they wanted then they stopped.

 

So with that in mind, yes, you fit under the trans umbrella and I wish you nothing but the best on your journey of discovery.

 

Hugs!

[Cortomaltese]

Have you talked to a therapist who knows about trans about you being unhappy with a body? Maybe that would be a good way to start. They could talk with you about a possible treatment, and if it was the right way for you.

 

Cheers,
Corto