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I hear this is the place to make introductions!

 

I've been on A journey of self discovery, through that journey I took on everything that has been weighing me down my entire life, confronted my parental abandonment issues, the mountain of lies I grew up believing and move forward past it in a new positive direction. But after getting past all of that something still wasn't right. I had to look at myself. I'm usually closed off and reserved, stoic, and antisocial. I don't go places I don't do things. I hate being in pictures and I had secrets that brought me shame. I was a closet crossdresser, i had been one my entire life, i was caught a few times and riduculed horendously. I thought it was transvestic tendencies due to enjoying wearing lingerie during intercourse. And kept it at a kink, but I obsessed about wearing panties. I would buy them wear them driving home from work and hide them away as if it never happened. The thing is, I didn't need to hide them. I felt shame about it, and embarrassment, because it was not behavior I was raised to believe was appropriate. And i came clean to my wife about it. About the guilt the shame, the many purges of my panty collection. Thinking I could control it.

And we decided to switch my boring male underpants with exciting panties permanently. Initially this excited me, as I thought a kink. But it wasn't that. I just genuinely enjoyed having an aspect of femininity as part of my every day life. I thought about it further, and I don't think I ever had transvestic tendencies. I just think I was happy wearing the lingerie and that just made intercourse better. After coming to this realization I realized that I wanted to wear womens cloths, the cute outfits I saw them wear, the femininity while wearing them I wanted that for myself. And so we expanded my wardrobe to be more feminine. Woman's jeans, shirts, makeup. The more we added the happier I was. And then I realized. I'm not just a crossdresser, crossdressers are happy dressing like a woman and turning it off. Crossdressers don't look at other women and think, man, I wish I looked like that. Crossdressers don't dream of the bedsheets sliding off their womanly curves in the morning. That's not something a simple crossdresser does. So I sat down with my wife one more time and we talked about how I'm more than likely transfeminine. And I've kept it locked away for soo long even I didn't realize it right away. I just chocked it up to "feeling off". She supports me all the way, being bisexuality it really doesn't matter to her if I'm male or female, she fell in love with me, not my gender.

 

So now we get to explore this new journey on our 4th year of marriage. As I work through what exactly it means to go from husband to wife, and father to other parent.

 

So hello everyone! That is my story so far!

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, hon.  Thank you for your expressive and well thought out introduction.  It's great to hear that you have such wonderful support from your wife.  Enjoy the time you spend here, and please ask any questions that  come to mind.  We'll be here to support you if you need it.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Thank you for your introduction.  I am glad that you have joined us.

 

Robin.

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Welcome StarryNight

 

13 hours ago, StarryNight said:

I just genuinely enjoyed having an aspect of femininity as part of my every day life.

I get this.  Pretty much my whole life I would have some feminine thing on, usually inconspicuous jewelry or something.  But I just liked it so much.  Women's clothing has never been a sexual turn-on as such for me though.

 

hate wearing male clothing.  I haven't for a long time.  (excepting foot wear - I have unfortunately large feets)

 

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Hi Summer,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf🐾

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Welcome - glad you are here.

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Hey there Summer,

 

Welcome to TransPulseForums, I'm sure you'll be pleased with the way people here share idea's and support.

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

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Thanks for the warm welcome everyone! I found this place while searching for people who have gone through or are going through similar experiences to help assure me that there is a light at the end of a very confusing tunnel. 

 

You have all been amazing and I thank you so very much.

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21 minutes ago, StarryNight said:

I found this place while searching for people who have gone through or are going through similar experiences to help assure me that there is a light at the end of a very confusing tunnel.

 

Well, you hit the jackpot then, didn't you?

 

Hugs!

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Welcome friend!   So happy to hear that you are in a supportive and safe environment! 

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Welcome Summer! Glad you are here & have a supportive spouse! I hope you find the wonderful support, advice & acceptance here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina 

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Welcome!

 

I haven't been here long, but I can tell you that you're blessed to have a supportive spouse.  This forum recently gave me the courage to open up to my husband about what I'm experiencing...knowing that his love is still there for me is changing my life. 

 

Good luck on your journey 🙂

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Welcome, Summer! And so glad to hear about the positive interactions you’ve had with your wife. I imagine it’s wonderful to have her by your side as you figure these things out. ❤️

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Hi Summer and welcome. I cross dressed for many years but that in itself was never enough. I accepted that I am transgender a few years ago and have very slowly been moving out of the closet since them. My wife of 41 years has slowly begun to accept me as me. I only wear woman’s cloths and feel very comfortable doing so.

 

I have learned so much by being on this site and I know you will as well.

 

Enjoy and hugs.

 

Sandra

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I hope it feels really good to know that your wife supports you as she does. That she sees you as more than a collection of body parts and as a person who desires to be more themselves.

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On 6/8/2022 at 3:09 PM, StarryNight said:

I hear this is the place to make introductions!

 

I've been on A journey of self discovery, through that journey I took on everything that has been weighing me down my entire life, confronted my parental abandonment issues, the mountain of lies I grew up believing and move forward past it in a new positive direction. But after getting past all of that something still wasn't right. I had to look at myself. I'm usually closed off and reserved, stoic, and antisocial. I don't go places I don't do things. I hate being in pictures and I had secrets that brought me shame. I was a closet crossdresser, i had been one my entire life, i was caught a few times and riduculed horendously. I thought it was transvestic tendencies due to enjoying wearing lingerie during intercourse. And kept it at a kink, but I obsessed about wearing panties. I would buy them wear them driving home from work and hide them away as if it never happened. The thing is, I didn't need to hide them. I felt shame about it, and embarrassment, because it was not behavior I was raised to believe was appropriate. And i came clean to my wife about it. About the guilt the shame, the many purges of my panty collection. Thinking I could control it.

And we decided to switch my boring male underpants with exciting panties permanently. Initially this excited me, as I thought a kink. But it wasn't that. I just genuinely enjoyed having an aspect of femininity as part of my every day life. I thought about it further, and I don't think I ever had transvestic tendencies. I just think I was happy wearing the lingerie and that just made intercourse better. After coming to this realization I realized that I wanted to wear womens cloths, the cute outfits I saw them wear, the femininity while wearing them I wanted that for myself. And so we expanded my wardrobe to be more feminine. Woman's jeans, shirts, makeup. The more we added the happier I was. And then I realized. I'm not just a crossdresser, crossdressers are happy dressing like a woman and turning it off. Crossdressers don't look at other women and think, man, I wish I looked like that. Crossdressers don't dream of the bedsheets sliding off their womanly curves in the morning. That's not something a simple crossdresser does. So I sat down with my wife one more time and we talked about how I'm more than likely transfeminine. And I've kept it locked away for soo long even I didn't realize it right away. I just chocked it up to "feeling off". She supports me all the way, being bisexuality it really doesn't matter to her if I'm male or female, she fell in love with me, not my gender.

 

So now we get to explore this new journey on our 4th year of marriage. As I work through what exactly it means to go from husband to wife, and father to other parent.

 

So hello everyone! That is my story so far!

Welcome

 We share so many similarities 🤗

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