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Are you living your authentic life?


Heather Shay

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@ZelaireYour friend gives such good advice. As long as you have other people who are okay with you, or even a safe space-with just you, if that's the case- then you can live your life as authentically as possible. And this thing about "demanding" everyone to live their authentic lives, I can understand your friend's frustration. I've heard someone say the same thing once about living your life no matter what other people think. That's the thing: you may feel good about it, but there's always someone else who won't honor it. Really, in order to be authentic in the real world is to do so safely and ambiguously so as not to draw the ire of others. Perhaps this is due to my outlook on the world, but as of right now, it can be tough to be who you want to be. Unconsciously, there are still things done that make it hard to move forward.

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I'm getting there.  I am a woman at work.  My wife's family all know who I am and I'm going to a wedding in a dress next month.  I'm also coming out to my doctor next month and I'm planning to talk to him about HRT.

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I am living more as my authentic self now than any other time in my life. I do what makes me happy, and stopped doing what others wanted. It has taken many years, but I am very comfortable now in who I am, I am open to my few friends about who I am, and I am just true to that and try not to worry any more about what others think about it. For years I had to hide how I felt in myself gender-wise, my sexuality and romantic orientation, and now I embrace it all.

 

As I continue on my journey through life, I fully intend to continue to embrace who I am and continue to do what makes me happiest.

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I am not living my authentic life. I am living my only life.

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From my experience when on HRT it has changed your interests and likes beyond how I thought it would.  It’s incredible to think how strong and powerful the change of hormones in your body align to your mind. 
 

like others have said your goals and wishes do change throughout the journey.

 

anyway I’m new here so hello to everyone 😊👋🏻

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8 hours ago, Bridget said:

From my experience when on HRT it has changed your interests and likes beyond how I thought it would.  It’s incredible to think how strong and powerful the change of hormones in your body align to your mind. 
 

like others have said your goals and wishes do change throughout the journey.

 

anyway I’m new here so hello to everyone 😊👋🏻

Hrt has been amazing for me, far far better than I ever thought before. 

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Since I came out fully to everyone the day that I started HRT in October of last year, I have only found that by living my true life that I have been happier and more pleased with myself and things around me. I give in to no one as I am now me.

My birth certificate, name change and appearance now says what and who I am.

My only curse is facial hair still. :(

I shall overcome that too.

 

Have a nice day all.

 

Big Canadian Hug

JoniSteph

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1 hour ago, JoniSteph said:

Since I came out fully to everyone the day that I started HRT in October of last year, I have only found that by living my true life that I have been happier and more pleased with myself and things around me. I give in to no one as I am now me.

My birth certificate, name change and appearance now says what and who I am.

My only curse is facial hair still. :(

I shall overcome that too.

 

Have a nice day all.

 

Big Canadian Hug

JoniSteph

Yes we can overcome. We can find it difficult, even hurtful, but every problem has a solution unless it theoretically or physically impossible. There are even organization who gives grants for electrolysis. I am not sure how much they give, but it's a start. And some things just take time 

 (https://www.pointofpride.org/electrolysis-support-fund

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I'm getting closer to it every day. Even me a year ago was not living nearly as authentically as I am now, it's crazy to look back on. Finally using my name and pronouns in all aspects, which is even crazier. Still working on starting my medical transition, started talking with my therapist about starting HRT eventually & also got a dysphoria diagnosis (required for my insurance to cover anything). Hoping to maybe start t sometime in the summer, but we'll see

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On 9/4/2022 at 10:12 AM, Davie said:

Yesterday I told two of my male cis friends I was going on an Audubon hike with my trans group. They asked to come along. I said: "Sure, but you'll have to look trans." One second they looked appalled, the next they were competing with each other to outline which dress they'd wear with what hat and shoes—and wigs! So funny!

Totally good natured, if a little stereotypical, but liberated, open.

— Davie

Your friends are very silly, it's adorable. Honestly, they can just dress normal for comfort. Just let them get their nails done and try some modest make-up w. sparkles. Hope you all have fun.

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It's something that is still falling into place bit by bit. I've grown in so many ways since I decided to transition, I'm still being surprised by what my authentic life looks like.

 

The old me struggled and was constantly weighed down by poor mental health. Now I've got a career and stuff I never thought I was good enough for. It's overwhelming at times. I'm not used to being 'normal'!

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1 hour ago, Girl From Mars said:

It's something that is still falling into place bit by bit. I've grown in so many ways since I decided to transition, I'm still being surprised by what my authentic life looks like.

 

The old me struggled and was constantly weighed down by poor mental health. Now I've got a career and stuff I never thought I was good enough for. It's overwhelming at times. I'm not used to being 'normal'!

Yes, there are surprises.

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I think I probably am without any real restrictions. It would have be nice to have been able to have the freedom I have now 30 years ago though, but you can't have everything. 

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