Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

Just do it


Recommended Posts

First a little background...


The first time I was asked if I was a girl it was at 8 years old. At this time I was not understanding my gender identity at all so I based my self-perception on the one (Male) I was told to be and actually did until around my 30s. So I was that "boy" not male enough to be a real man toward girls and bullied said as a girly feminine person toward boys. So no girl every wanted me lol and boys were just always making fun of me. As I tried hard to be manly it never worked and ended up stuck with my conflict.


After a while still wearing male clothing I started to wear shirts that would be good tailoring and a bit stretching to realize that I love a slim curvy shape! It was my first realization. After hating for being a failed boy I discovered that I actually love my feminine attribute and felt so good. I had a good pass which made my first healing even if mild and superficial. So it is only around 25 that I started to have serious awakening of the girl I am and started to idealize attributes of it more which was the beginning of my journey. I really wanted a child but my absence of success with ladies that want a boy not another girl made it a bit of extra time. For sure as I was in interests of acceptance so I stop rejecting myself as a Female and raise her instead of unsuccessful masculinization. After initial research about the possibilities with medical intervention to alter my biological vessel to conceal and finding out it cause infertility; I really played boy the hardest I could to find a girl I could love so we have a child.


I found someone very interesting. We have a cool story and go in same followings about many ideal. She always knew I have a very feminine soul, we actually talked about it, had female clothing living with her and she is the first one suggesting treatments and surgeries. I had my child with a girl being a girl. Not to go in detail but the male experience I needed to procreate was a struggle. We are good parents together but we were not meant to maintain relationship. So after I moved from Eastern Canada to Western Canada, I had a baby then I broke up and we separated. Some story. People asking if you can find what you are looking for on the internet: Yes for me!


When I moved to Ablerta I knew nobody would know me and my Woman label. At this time I needed to be known as a boy because I wanted to keep my ex until we give each other our child. I took the opportunity to make it double. This time wearing more baggy clothing or shape breakers like business suit which also stereotype masculinity for many people. Let my beard grow quite long and had shaved head with the trimmer. I made it a guy and nobody would have guess! I had a fresh start being boyish and they saw nothing coming believe me. It has been fun to come out sweet universe of beauty. ♥


Then after breaking up I slowly prepared myself having a kit to start wearing female clothing and planned something. I freaked out the psychiatrist telling him what is going on about the aliens I talk to so I found myself hospitalized for Delusion. I made my switch at the hospital in Edmonton because there is no psych ward in the Community Hospital in town. To the perspective of people here the way I managed it is they saw a boy going out of town for a month and a girl coming back! The shock it has been in town...


I simply straight up switched and nobody saw it coming. My wellness is so much better and I finally start my life! I am about 33 and I finally live alive and feel like it. I am popular and watched. I have apparently severe problems that qualify me for Provincial Disability Fund so all I do is walk around town, being seen and helping people on my way. I volunteer for a Church and planning to apply at the Homeless Shelter and soon the hospital. I volunteered in a hospital before I moved and that is a good trick to get allies in town, be involved and never fear having a role in your community. Town can't really have hate or despite for me because even that Trans-Trigger they have will not take from me what I give of my effort to them. I have been giving around made allies and good friends before I came out. 


For me after the shock wave of coming out very blunt, it became that it is people causing me problem that get wrecked here. I have way too many people loving me and the greater health I have is appreciated by everyone that enjoy me more than they already did. I walk, people smile and respectfully wave at me. They pay attention to me and more confident I am better they like it.


Humans feel fear and confidence. Have it and you will show that no one is living your life! Accept to be scared and trust yourself that you can do it. It is so very much good how life is way more pleasing for just how I feel to myself. I am free. Finally free... Free to be happy and healthy. 


I don't know how to find the words....


Coming out? You mean starting to live as yourself? 


Just do it!


Whatever you try and keep trying...


Just do it. ♥





Link to comment
  • 2 weeks later...

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   6 Members, 0 Anonymous, 88 Guests (See full list)

    • Yuuki
    • Ivy
    • Ay-la
    • Kasumi63
    • Monique Fish
    • KathyLauren
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
    • Total Posts
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
    • Most Online

    Claudia Kysivics
    Newest Member
    Claudia Kysivics
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. AnddyWillBeOkay
    2. GrowinPains
      (46 years old)
    3. Joolz
    4. sheedikhan
      (41 years old)
    5. Stephaniew
      (56 years old)
  • Posts

    • Ivy
      Welcome Ay-la 
    • KathyLauren
      Welcome, @Ay-la!  It's a good group of people around here.   I lived in BC for a few years.  Now I am at the other side of the country.  Nice that your partner is supportive!   Regards, Kathy
    • Hannah Renee
      Anecdotally, things morning my daughter used her Snapchat app to see what I would look like with a couple of different hairstyles and makeup. I showed the screenshots to o couple of ladies at work, one of whom knows I'm transgender. Not sure if the other one does (typical at my work). They both said I look prettier the way I am. Other than that, out in public - in stores or other interactions - being addressed as ma'am, men going out of their way to hold a door open for me, any number of little things go a long way towards knowing that I'm passing. Nobody has ever overtly made a reference to whether or not I'm passing.   As has been said, self-confidence in the way you present yourself goes a long way. How you dress, walk, gesture - sure. But like in the movies, act like you belong. Own it.
    • VickySGV
      Welcome to the Forums.  We try to keep it a good friendly place, so feel at home and comment on others topics to give or get advice and some friendship.
    • Ay-la
      Hi all, 49 and based in BC, Canada, I’m finally pursuing my transition overcoming decades of barriers and minimizing my own needs. Trans feminine and genderqueer, I’m lucky to have a supportive partner and kids at home, but a small social circle otherwise, because, introvert… So, quiet and prone to lurking, but I’m trying to break out of my shell a bit as I am craving some community.    looking forward to meeting folks here.   -A.
    • Abigail Eleanor
      Bumping this old thread because this caught my eye. This is pretty much my strategy and I'm hoping it'll work.   @tesla1026 if you spot this did you try this idea? How did it go?   Would love to hear from anyone who's tried this gradual progression technique rather that make an announcement.
    • Ivy
      Better than nothing 
    • Kasumi63
      Living in Japan, I have a very different experience, so I'm curious how you guys know whether you are "passing" or not. In other words, do people overtly tell you? Or is it something more subtle? Over here, people never say anything, and to be honest, I sometimes find this frustrating because I would like a little bit of feedback about how I'm doing. Or even just tips on where I could improve. Part of the problem is language, I guess. In Japanese, pronouns are rarely used, so it's easy to avoid referring to someone's gender. People also are extremely reluctant to say anything unpleasant or mean to others. So are there any ways to get some objective feedback? (Disclaimer:  I agree that we tend to put too much emphasis on "passing," but I do want to keep improving.)
    • Kasumi63
      As a non-Christian living in a heathen land (the Japanese have a very long history of rejecting Christianity), I thoroughly enjoy smashing these Christmas lights. LOL. Of course, Christmas isn't nearly as depressing now that I'm living here, but even with all the distance, the holidays usually get me down. Now if only I had some lights to smash in person!
    • Kasumi63
      Thank you, guys, for all the positive comments. Japan has a long way to go, especially with updating its backward laws, but it's great to see people changing their attitudes. Over a dozen students and a handful of teachers have come up to me to tell my they saw me on TV and to voice their support. I'm as happy as I look in the video!
    • VickySGV
      I just read an announcement from the Los Angeles LGBT Center that describes the victim as one of their employees, and does mention fears of violence against people.  LALGBT Canter stuff is being circulated to all regional Centers it seems.  The woman was popular and loved.
    • KathyLauren
      Got the letter today.  Yes, they officially recognize that my hearing loss was caused by my military service, and I will be getting a small monthly payment as compensation.  Nice!  Well, not nice that I am losing my hearing, but nice to get compensated.
    • miz miranda
      Black Sabbath in a jazz motif    
    • Billie75B
      Hi @Heather Nicole I too was on patches and a month ago switched to weekly injections so far, no wild swings but I have noticed that by injection day I am a little grumpy. After my injection say 20 minutes or so I am back to being happy as a clam.
    • StephieGurl
      I agree things would be different if I did not carry the self-confidence that I do.  
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.


Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules


Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.


Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
  • Create New...