Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

Opiate withdrawal


StephieGurl

Recommended Posts

Day 15 and my body feels normal. I was in psychological crisis. I had taken the last of the xanax which is not usual to be perfectly okay, but I think I ended up taking more gabapentin double dose maybe triple. At some point I couldn't walk straight and fell down twice. Oddly I had no opiate craving (I have had very little of it). But, mentally I wanted to die and stated so tp my partner. Then I fell back to bed. Woke up an nothing but curiosity. All see what my therapist on Wednesday she what she thinks. How did I go to deeply depressed to completely fine.

Link to comment

As the day has wore on it gets harder to think straight. I guess my brain needs to learn to keep attentive. I just start thinking straight.

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator

There is a wonderful saying in recovery rooms which made no sense to me early in recovery: "Time takes time".   It gets better and there is nothing that using again won't make worse.

Congratulations on your days!

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

Link to comment

Thanks Chalize,

 

Having issues. It winds up that the clonidine doesn't mix with my gabapentin. I was wobbly and highly emotional, plus foggy thinking. I chose the gaba because of neck pain. The clonidine I am assuming has worn off because it's like I felt 5 or 6 days ago. I have  no resource for relief as it is the weekend. I don't even know if there is something uncontrolled that can replace. Will message my psych nurse in the morning and see. I might just have to hang on for a few days, unless it gets worse I think it is doable.

Link to comment

So this is day something or other and after my clonidine and gabapentin interaction. I feel I am close to where I was with the clonidine. That interaction was horrible. Wobbly, brain fog, and extremely emotional.

 

So, now comes the time once again to concentrate on my mental. I have no doubt that I will return to the me before the opiates. My main tool for this will be cognitive behavioral therapy type thinking. I am pretty skilled at it after 8 years of trying it. It help to eliminate my bipolar depression and anxiety. And, I have used it throughout my transition and beyond.

 

I fear to start them. And I was right. It ended badly. I hope others have an easier time if they are on opiates prescribed or not. 

Link to comment

Hi all, It's been 4 says since my last entry.

 

I almost free. But, my body will not let me. It screams for opiates, which it is not going to get. We psych nurse and I have stop the xanax, I seem to have slight addiction, but would grow if kept taking them. Monday, I had what to me was a panic attack or at least at times I was panicky. Nurse sent a script for 3 xanax (the last). She also sent in a clonidine 0.1 mg twice a day. Frightened of another incident, I didn't take any until yesterday after discussing with my nurse. The chance of interaction again is not very likely. She said they only work for about 3 to 4 hours. And, just make sure I have a clear pathway when walking. Still scared I took a half when I started to feel anxious again. It did it's job, And I did not need one for sleep last night. She also thought they might help me sleep. My body is still missing the drugs, but I am calmer then yesterday for now. This is harder then I thought, but I definitely got addicted to the opiates. My mind feels clearer. And it seems that the body is wanting them, more then my mind. I suppose that is hopeful. Maybe I won't have to go through emotional withdrawal. Not sure about that. I keep my estimate of 2 to 3 months.

 

Thanks for being here everyone.

Link to comment

One thing you can try is eating dessert.  Sounds crazy, but alcohol counselors use that to get recovering alcoholics through rough patches.  Refined sugar acts somewhat like a drug in the brain.  Making dessert from scratch also gives your mind a task to focus on for a while, and something to look forward to.  My GF makes tons of cookies for the kids when she needs to.  

 

If you want a dessert that packs a punch, try making gooey butter cake.  Its a classic in the South USA, and a 9x13 pan of it uses no less than 4 cups of powdered sugar!  

Link to comment
1 hour ago, awkward-yet-sweet said:

One thing you can try is eating dessert.  Sounds crazy, but alcohol counselors use that to get recovering alcoholics through rough patches.  Refined sugar acts somewhat like a drug in the brain.  Making dessert from scratch also gives your mind a task to focus on for a while, and something to look forward to.  My GF makes tons of cookies for the kids when she needs to.  

 

If you want a dessert that packs a punch, try making gooey butter cake.  Its a classic in the South USA, and a 9x13 pan of it uses no less than 4 cups of powdered sugar!  

Never heard of that, but it makes sense. I have a North Carolina Lemon Pie that have been planning on making, but I have been cooking. Thanks

 

PS - I snack on candy at night 

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   1 Member, 0 Anonymous, 53 Guests (See full list)

    • Colleen Henderson
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      77.1k
    • Total Posts
      725.2k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      9,949
    • Most Online
      8,356

    Sef
    Newest Member
    Sef
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. Andi Shay
      Andi Shay
      (52 years old)
    2. Fabiola
      Fabiola
      (45 years old)
    3. ghost
      ghost
      (59 years old)
    4. Julia Marie
      Julia Marie
      (31 years old)
    5. juliasvw
      juliasvw
      (51 years old)
  • Posts

    • Davie
      Thank you, @MayaXD The poem is from the viewpoint of an imaginary boy/trans girl who in a novel is the me I never had the chance to be. I'm rewriting my own past.   — Davie
    • Petra Jane
      Please check out our How To… forum, but basically until you have five posts, editing your profile is not available.   
    • debbie jones
      thanks for the message but i dont have a pic on my profile yet and cant see anything on the top left to clck on to upload a pic  thanks  debs
    • MayaXD
      Hi! I'm a questioning afab (It's ok, you can refer to me as a woman or just a person) and I have a large chest, E/F cup. I am searching for a rather cheap and comfortable binder, are the gc2b classical ones good? Do any of you have other recommendations? Thank you in advance.
    • MetaLicious
      I've had many favorites over the years.  My first was Ultima IV, which managed to pack a surprisingly vibrant (and large) world onto my 128k Apple IIc.  Star Control II was the next game to really capture my attention.  Both games managed to convey a story of surpising depth for a video game.   I had a brief affair with Total Annihilation. 4x games aren't usually my thing, but TA had a mod community that kept the game fresh for a few years.  As long as I played against the computer, my weak strategy wasn't a handicap.   Minecraft is my number one game, and is likely to stay that way, given how long it has held the top slot.  I loved Lego when I was a wee child, and Minecraft scratches that itch in a big way.  My daughter is always telling me that the things I build in survival mode are better than what she sees others making in creative mode.
    • Mx.Drago
      4th booster, so far pain everywhere.😞😷🛌
    • Susan R
      Nice to meet you @debbie jones. Take your time and look around. There’s a lot to take in but lots of great information. You can revise your profile pic in your profile. Click on your profile pic (upper left-hand side) and this will enable you to change it.   Warmest Regards, Susan R🌷
    • debbie jones
      hi im debbie mtf from shropshire not realy shure how this site works yet but hoping i can find my way around it eventuly . does anyone know if i can revise my profile or load up a profile pic ? thanks
    • Susan R
      Welcome @Jessicaj! It’s a pleasure to meet you. You’ve already met the criteria for being a member by posting a nicely written intro. Feel free to add on to this intro when or if you feel the desire. There’s absolutely no pressure or judgement here. Like many others here, I would enjoy learning more about you and your struggles and victories during your life’s journey if you ever care to share. Thank you for telling us a little about yourself here today.   Warmest Regards, Susan R🌷
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      When I was a teenager, I was fortunate to have my sister backing me up.  There's less than a year of age difference between us, and we went to school together and played on teams together.  We also look very much alike and had the same style.  It helps to not be alone.   I wear boxers most of the time.  Actually, around the house, that's about all I wear.  I really dislike clothing of any kind in warm weather, so about the only thing my partners can get me to wear is shorts and a t-shirt.  One layer, nothing underneath.  I can be pretty stubborn about things like that.   A lot of the time, I wear basketball shorts.  Silky texture, good at sweat wicking.  If I have to wear a shirt, I often use ones that have the arms cut out.  Anything to stay cool in summer.  Bonus is that it is androgynous looking or even masculine. 
    • Willow
      Good morning  I guess I’m in a rush, software update.     I’m having Mountain Grown coffee this morning. Black please.  I’ll check.back when they are done with the up date   bye for now   Willow
    • Vidanjali
      Hello & welcome @Beginsat43 . Nice to make your virtual acquaintance. I relate to several things you shared. Due to intellectual incompatibility, I also found making friends difficult during the early part of my life. To compound the issue, I was raised in a deeply fearful Irish Catholic family - my mother was afraid of everything and indoctrinated me into that legacy of fear. It took concerted effort on my part to learn the art of friendliness and how to relate to others to realize intimacy on levels other than that of the intellectual. One practical part of this process, which is rather amusing, is that I had to adjust my conversational lexicon because I had spent much more time reading (I also did not own a TV until about 2012) than talking to people that I rendered myself "conversant", but unrelatable - I'd speak words that most folks do not know. (Sometimes I'd get asked in a mocking way, "what are you, a librarian?") To say it's been worth the effort to learn better how to relate is an understatement. I am blessed with many wonderful, beloved and loving friends in my life. Related to that, my study of Eastern religions has taught me in part that the intellect is but a tool and not my identity. This knowledge has deepened my understanding of how my existence is an aspect of a unified oneness, and that truly there is nothing to fear. Also, like you, I began to self-medicate at age 19. And, as I gain insight into my asexuality and gender identity, I realize that, similar to what you describe, my attraction to men has been very much steeped in envy. I am gratified to hear you are feeling positive and eager to realize your genuine identity. It is indeed exhilarating to let go of restraints which have bound us for so long. In many ways, it's like starting a new life. Cheers to you. 
    • Jackie C.
      I'd also add, that a friend of mine does trans yoga through her trans affirming enterprise "My Feminine Heart." She's a sweetheart and I'd be remiss if I didn't point you her way.   Hugs!
    • Heather Shay
      Paul McCartney's brother who was a member of the successful English group The Scaffold - did not want to use his famous family name to help his career and opted to call himself Mike McGear.....  
    • Heather Shay
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...