Mattie says hello :)

[Mattie Michele]

Hello everyone, my name is Mattie Michele. I am a current active duty soldier that is transitioning from male to female. I came the this discovery back in 2020 during the lockdown. I was deployed away from home during that time frame and had plenty of time to think and reflect on self. 

Im my early 20s i was bisexual and experimenting with both male and females. I was attracted to females but enjoyed the physical intercourse from males. During this time period i was still really trying to figure myself out. I was very shy and timid during these years and had issues with relationships. I was content with the little bit of interaction i was able to get.

As the years went on i realized i was getting more envious of females with the outfits they could wear and the attention they were receiving. I was jealous and envious of them and i guess secretly i was really wanting to be them. But all of those thoughts were pushed and buried as i tried to maintain the male presentation while i continued to serve in the military. Majority of the time i was just forcing myself to be the image of the person that everyone wanted me to be. 

 

Years later i finally met my wife and got married. We have two daughters together. It wasnt until a year after my last daughter was born when i was on my latest development during the covid lockdown, that i decided to try wearing womens clothes. 

I was envious of the outfits and selections they had whenever i went shopping and would always be checking out the female styles and debating which looked better. During my deployment i dabbled first in the undergarments then everything just went from there. That was about when o discovered that I was Transfemenne. 

 

Now i am slowly going through the process of changing everything and becoming more feminine by the day.

 

[Jackie C.]

Welcome Mattie! Lovely to meet you!

 

Hugs!

[Heather Shay]

Greetings Mattie - glad you are here. You will meet lots of wonderful people like Jackie. 

[Mmindy]

Hey there Mattie,

 

Welcome to TransPulseForums, I hope you find this place as helpful as I have. There's even a section for Military Personnel and Veterans. You're not alone here and always welcome to engage with others in conversation. 

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and safe,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[Delcina B]

Welcome Mattie! Glad you're here! Thank you for your service! I hope you find the wonderful support, advice & acceptance here as I have.

 

Hugs!

Delcina 

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Mattie Michelle,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf🐾

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Mattie.  Thank you for your service, and for your courage, which is considerable.  I hope you find the information and support that you need here.  I wish you all the best.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Bri2020]

welcome Mattie Michelle.

This is such a supportive and informative place so I know you will get answers and support here. Plenty of vets here as well (Go Army). 

Hugs

Bri

[Susan R]

Hello @Mattie Michele…Welcome to our support forum. I’m glad you found us.

On 9/27/2022 at 10:28 AM, Mattie Michele said:

Now i am slowly going through the process of changing everything and becoming more feminine by the day.

I bet you’re starting to feel some of the freedom that comes with starting to live more authentically. For me, that freedom from fear, shame and disgust has been the best part of my journey. I originally thought the difficulties fitting in as the women I wanted to be would reduce the joy in living as myself. Surprisingly, it hasn’t had that kind of impact at all. Sure, there were some bumps along the journey but waking up each day and seeing progress makes it all worthwhile.

 

I hope you begin to experience more and more of that freedom as you test these new waters. I wish you the best as you incrementally change into the woman you want to be.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R🌷

[Jasperthecrystal]

On 9/27/2022 at 6:28 PM, Mattie Michele said:

Hello everyone, my name is Mattie Michele. I am a current active duty soldier that is transitioning from male to female. I came the this discovery back in 2020 during the lockdown. I was deployed away from home during that time frame and had plenty of time to think and reflect on self. 

Im my early 20s i was bisexual and experimenting with both male and females. I was attracted to females but enjoyed the physical intercourse from males. During this time period i was still really trying to figure myself out. I was very shy and timid during these years and had issues with relationships. I was content with the little bit of interaction i was able to get.

As the years went on i realized i was getting more envious of females with the outfits they could wear and the attention they were receiving. I was jealous and envious of them and i guess secretly i was really wanting to be them. But all of those thoughts were pushed and buried as i tried to maintain the male presentation while i continued to serve in the military. Majority of the time i was just forcing myself to be the image of the person that everyone wanted me to be. 

 

Years later i finally met my wife and got married. We have two daughters together. It wasnt until a year after my last daughter was born when i was on my latest development during the covid lockdown, that i decided to try wearing womens clothes. 

I was envious of the outfits and selections they had whenever i went shopping and would always be checking out the female styles and debating which looked better. During my deployment i dabbled first in the undergarments then everything just went from there. That was about when o discovered that I was Transfemenne. 

 

Now i am slowly going through the process of changing everything and becoming more feminine by the day.

 

Well done on finding yourself.