im so confused...

[SageOakley]

i had an experience the other day that has me questioning some things and i really wish i had someone to talk to but i really, really, really do not want to make anyone feel uncomfortable. i feel like an alien, like no one in the whole world will understand what im feeling. i just wanna cry. 

 

how do i find someone.. appropriate to talk to? im sorry if this is not okay to post in some way for any reason. i just really wish i had someone to talk to and im not really sure what to do 

[VickySGV]

While I am NOT a Mental Health professional, what you are saying reminds me of how I feel when my bouts of Major Depression Syndrome kicks me around.  To find out for sure for you is going to require seeing a Mental Health professional who can help you at least recognize what is going on and will be available to you.  My MDS is currently in remission but it comes and goes.  Big deal is to know it for what it is, and knowing it can be ridden out. The big thing to think about is that there is NO SHAME in seeking mental health care.  There are Therapists who specialize in Gender related mental health issues and we all on the staff here have used them ourselves and know the benefits.

 

As far as Gender Issues go, the purpose of these forums is to be the safe place you are looking for, we cannot give you a firm diagnosis on anything, but we will talk to you and listen to you until you do get resolution on your own or with help.  If you have something you do not want to post on the open forums here, it is perfectly OK to PM any of the Admins or Moderators with questions, even deeply personal issues.  We listen, talk to YOU and keep it private between us.  You have more friends than you know here. 

[SageOakley]

1 hour ago, VickySGV said:

While I am NOT a Mental Health professional, what you are saying reminds me of how I feel when my bouts of Major Depression Syndrome kicks me around.  To find out for sure for you is going to require seeing a Mental Health professional who can help you at least recognize what is going on and will be available to you.  My MDS is currently in remission but it comes and goes.  Big deal is to know it for what it is, and knowing it can be ridden out. The big thing to think about is that there is NO SHAME in seeking mental health care.  There are Therapists who specialize in Gender related mental health issues and we all on the staff here have used them ourselves and know the benefits.

 

As far as Gender Issues go, the purpose of these forums is to be the safe place you are looking for, we cannot give you a firm diagnosis on anything, but we will talk to you and listen to you until you do get resolution on your own or with help.  If you have something you do not want to post on the open forums here, it is perfectly OK to PM any of the Admins or Moderators with questions, even deeply personal issues.  We listen, talk to YOU and keep it private between us.  You have more friends than you know here. 

thank you. sorry. i had a little cry and went for a walk in the cool air which felt good. 

 

i have not been diagnosed with this, but ive just recently started trying to find a therapist again. i have an appointment lined up soon. i just want to convey that im sorry if this post was worrisome. im doing my best to take care, and will keep doing so. thank you for sharing your experience and kind words. 

 

if it's ok and i can work up the courage i may message someone.. in any case, i just cant say thank you enough. im being goofy maybe but your post means a lot

[VickySGV]

2 hours ago, SageOakley said:

i just want to convey that im sorry if this post was worrisome.

 

Not at all worrisome, the site was created to help prevent tragedies by giving people a place where they could convey that sort of thing to others who do understand the issues of Trans people.

[Vidanjali]

@SageOakley  you're safe here. No shame, no worries. Please don't hesitate to share whatever you wish. I'm confident you'll find folks to relate to here. Peace and love. 

[SageOakley]

8 hours ago, Vidanjali said:

@SageOakley  you're safe here. No shame, no worries. Please don't hesitate to share whatever you wish. I'm confident you'll find folks to relate to here. Peace and love. 

hello Vidanjali,

thank you. i am making discoveries about myself. it can be difficult to get through the not knowing, but each time i do, i feel so much better than ever before. it feels powerful and meaningful and makes life seem beautiful. there's a comfort in feeling like even if some don't understand me, there are still those that love me this way anyway.  im stumbling through it, but im getting somewhere. 

i cant thank people here enough for their patience and support. all the best wishes your way. 

Sage