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Nik or Nikki

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Ok, so my first message on this forum and the main reason I am here is because I am not sure what I am. A few facts........


1) I was born male

2) I love wearing women's underwear, it just feels more natural to me. Yes, I know it is not made for my bits (and they slip out occasionally) but it just feels right

3) I have also recently started sleeping in night wear designed for women, again, this simply makes me happier (although I am still trying to get fully used to it!)

4) I have no real desire to fully dress as a woman or shave my body etc to make myself look more feminine.

5) I do not get sexually turned on wearing women's underwear and nightwear.

6) I do consider myself bi-curious


I just don't really know where I fit into this community!

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Hi Nik, nice to meet you. I think it's a bit too soon, based on what you've told us, to be putting you into any particular category, and that is totally okay. Many of us come to TransPulse confused and not knowing quite where we fit in. That said, at this stage I'd say crossdresser is the only label I could really see fitting, though it does sound like a very specific type of crossdressing. And remember, labels can change as our understanding of ourselves evolves.


One thing I think is important to note: sexuality and gender are independent of each other, so whether you are turned on by wearing women's clothing or not, and whether you are bi-curious or not, makes no difference to where you sit on the gender spectrum. Gender non-conforming people come in all shades of sexuality. The important question is how do you feel deep down about your gender? I know, it's a hard question, but it's a question only you can answer. Even the habit of wearing women's clothing doesn't tell us much; it's really nothing more than a clue to what lies deeper inside.


I hope you find what you are looking for here. Browsing the forums and reading other people's stories can really help you to understand your own.


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Welcome Niki.

  I don't believe labels or categories are static or even necessary.   If you insist on one i'd say you were a cross dresser.  Spending some time here expressing yourself and reading about others certainly can help in accepting and understanding your issues.





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Hi guys


Thanks for your responses, maybe I am simply a cross dresser then!


I just see so many beautiful cross dressers who make so much effort, and then look at myself and don't really relate to them, maybe I am just being too fussy!

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Welcome to TransPulseForums Nik or Nikki,


 I hope you find this form as helpful as I do.


Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated



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14 hours ago, Ivy said:

Welcome Niki

A question: Do you go out dressed Fem?  I don't know if it really matters, but it might be something to think about.

Hi Ivy


No, I don't go out fully fem, but I often go out wearing women's underwear, even a bra or a bodysuit in the winter when clothes get a little bulkier!


I have no particular desire to go out fully fem to be honest x

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