I stopped hiding my breasts and let myself come out.

[Birdie]

I was born intersex, and my parents decided since I had testicles that I would be raised as a boy. I do have some of the other attributes and plumbing, also a very small micro-penis (less than 1")

My teens saw breast development and curves, I started looking very feminine.

I have had breasts my entire life and currently support natural DD's pushing F cups. When I had short hair, most people just assumed I was gay, now with my hair much longer I am accepted as female everywhere I go even without makeup.

Just yesterday I returned a bra I had outgrew back to Torrid and told the SA why. She said, "Those growing spurts we have can be bittersweet, strange how our bodies change". She had no idea I was assigned male AB and I was wearing sweatpants and a very plain blouse. I had no makeup or nails done at all; I just look like a woman.  

I look like a female, feel like a female, and identify as a female. 

At my age I have no intention of changing anything via surgery, that should have been done at birth. 

I am not transitioning really, I simply acknowledged what my body is, and I am not male. I am intersex, and I have some plumbing for both sexes.

 

I don't know if this site is really where I need to be, I am just testing the water so to speak. I am a member of a Gynecomastia site where I participate a little more than other members would like I assume. My posts are very womanly, and most there are just suffering breast growth only. I really have to censor myself to keep from running off the members there still trying to just "hide" their breasts. 

[Birdie]

Update:

I just rolled across the parking lot to the burger joint for breakfast.

I'm wearing athletic shorts and a men's tshirt. No makeup, nails, or nothing other than my large breasts and my purse. 

I was addressed as ma'am.

 

Like I said, I look very much like 100% female. Identifying as female is just being true to myself. 

 

[Vidanjali]

Hi & welcome @Birdie . Nice to virtually meet you. I hope you'll find some meaningful community here. We have a few intersex members here (disclosing, I am not intersex, myself), yet all of us share the (often ongoing) experience of learning to integrate our gender & genuine spirit with the bodies we have to work with. Obviously there are unique challenges and nuances inhabiting an intersex body which only other intersex folks can really understand. Just know there are so many kind people here who are supportive and happy to listen and affirm you. I hope you're having a great weekend so far. P.S. I have a great grandmother whose name was Birdie. I've always found that a lovely name. 

[awkward-yet-sweet]

Being intersex is kind of a strange feeling.  I'm AFAB and raised as a girl, but it never really fit me.  Being traditionally masculine doesn't fit me either, so I'm sort of androgynous.  Kind of the opposite of you, I was supposed to get breasts and never got even the slightest growth.  Washboard flat.  I found out last summer that while I look female-ish on the outside and I have normal female chromosomes, my plumbing is unique and I have a prostate.  Go figure.  🙄

 

Like you, I'm not seeking surgery.  Nor would it be a realistic option, according to my doctors.  You can be yourself just as you are, and do some minor changes when you want to.  I've found that thought very freeing, and I've been blessed with partners who understand that I'm different.  Hopefully you find folks on this site you click with 💜

[Birdie]

58 minutes ago, awkward-yet-sweet said:

Being intersex is kind of a strange feeling.  I'm AFAB and raised as a girl, but it never really fit me.  Being traditionally masculine doesn't fit me either, so I'm sort of androgynous.  Kind of the opposite of you, I was supposed to get breasts and never got even the slightest growth.  Washboard flat.  I found out last summer that while I look female-ish on the outside and I have normal female chromosomes, my plumbing is unique and I have a prostate.  Go figure.  🙄

 

Like you, I'm not seeking surgery.  Nor would it be a realistic option, according to my doctors.  You can be yourself just as you are, and do some minor changes when you want to.  I've found that thought very freeing, and I've been blessed with partners who understand that I'm different.  Hopefully you find folks on this site you click with 💜

Being intersex in my teens was tough, very tough.

Kids can be cruel, and they really hit those they see as different. Having a micro-penis that looks like a clitoris is not easy to hide during locker-room showers. My wide hips and breasts left kids joking that I was in the wrong locker-room, they were right. 

 

My adult life I lived as a male and hid my breasts and curves. I was doing a great job at it, and all my peers just assumed I was gay until about 18 months ago. 

All of a sudden, my B cups started blooming and I have had a growing spree ever since. I always looked feminine, but I think I started changing in that department as well. I can really notice the changes in my hands and face. Hiding my breasts and curves is now impossible, so I grew my hair out and started living my true self.  I always felt misgendered all those years anyways, now my body decided to chime in as well. 

 

I am now seen as just another 60-year-old lady in a wheelchair by strangers, and my peers gladly accepted my new name as "Birdie". I have always been one of the girls in conversation, so my peers haven't changed at all. My family is mixed on things, some are in agreement that I can't hide the obvious while others would like me to try hiding things a bit longer. My wife is gone, and she moved back in with family. 

 

I know the doctor gendered me as male AB, but I was tired of living that lie. My body since puberty is much more female than it is anything else, I even have some of the plumbing. My name is Birdie, and I am intersex identifying as female.  I guess there are several of us here on this site as well. 

[Birdie]

Thanks Vidanjali and awkward-yet-sweet, y'all are so sweet 😍

Have a wonderful weekend. 

[Birdie]

Ultrasound went well, and I was told to follow up with my doctor. I guess that will be tomorrow. 

Doctor is examining to what extent I am intersex and why my hormones are behaving the way they are. 

I most likely have more than what's visible. 

Ultrasound tech refused to divulge any information at all, that I just have to wait. 

[Tilly]

Hi Birdie,

 

I just wanted as a co-newbie on here to say a big welcome and that having navigated around this site I'd say you are definitely welcome here. There are so many different types of members and shades of expression.

 

I have an intersex friend who did decide to go ahead with surgery in the end.

 

I'm not intersex but one thing I would say, which is different but does at least slightly touch on your space, is that I and many many others on here knew we were in the wrong body in our teens. I even sent off for estrogen hormones at the age of 15 and I knew from before then that I identified female. So it's not just about which physical bits appear on the outside but a myriad other dimensions to sex and gender, including chromosomes, hormones, brain wiring, identity, orientation etc.

 

Please know there's a space and place for you here and elsewhere. We are a kaleidoscope of colour which enriches life.

 

xx

[Birdie]

16 minutes ago, Tilly said:

Please know there's a space and place for you here and elsewhere. We are a kaleidoscope of colour which enriches life.

Thank you Tilly, you are so kind and I have felt very welcome here in this forum so far. 

[natalianatalia]

Hi there I am Natalie and I have similarly experience I was a boy but in my deep inside me feeling girl  my body my feelings maybe i hasnt the power inside me to get out this and now i am in feminization process and also not only feel girl but lesbian girl this i am sure that all of you maybe you hear it for fisrt time i just take me many many years to realize that fact and now on my 50 years i take my life and i left my job and all my life behind me to start a new life! the risk? is huge i have the power to take it so i "pay the risk"! cause i want it more than my all my life!

[Birdie]

1 hour ago, natalianatalia said:

Hi there I am Natalie and I have similarly experience I was a boy but in my deep inside me feeling girl  my body my feelings maybe i hasnt the power inside me to get out this and now i am in feminization process and also not only feel girl but lesbian girl this i am sure that all of you maybe you hear it for fisrt time i just take me many many years to realize that fact and now on my 50 years i take my life and i left my job and all my life behind me to start a new life! the risk? is huge i have the power to take it so i "pay the risk"! cause i want it more than my all my life!

Hello Natalie! I can understand that struggling with your inter-feelings are difficult because I have done that all my life as well. The medical diagnosis of a condition doesn't change the personal struggle that a person must go through when they feel they are living the wrong life. You don't have to be intersex or any other diagnosis to have those feelings. 

It is so good that you came to terms with it and are moving in the direction that your persona desires. 

I'm sure I speak for everyone here that you have our full support. 

[natalianatalia]

thank you my dear birdie i am in a bad potition? i can say yes! that i borned here in greece and the fact here is that people not even a little friendly to us but i can say to you and all that this fact doesn't affect me at all! whatever, anyone can even a lot change my feelings and stop me and this is the real prove to all and my self that i am 50 years old i loose my job friends i left behind me a 25 years relationship but i am happy and i have the power to pass through all the necessary surgeries even i know that maybe some of these failed i raise my head and i will continue until they succeed