Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

hey *waves*


Recommended Posts

hi i guess this is where i tell you about myself and some goings on.
my quick and dirty trans history about 20 off years ago I confessed to my best friend about wanting to be a girl she was super supportive said she'd get everyone to use whatever name I want and treat me like one of the girls at the time I didn't know transitioning really existed the LGBT was really just an LG so I didn't think it was actually possible to more than cross dress and dismissed the idea and forgot about until 6 years ago I met a transwoman in a Discord community which and awoken 20 year old memories, a few years later after self debate I admitted to myself that I was trans eventually came out to a few people and in October of last year started taking hormones. The actually transitioning is taking time I duelmode mainly being my true self at home for right now.

How I ended up here: I wasn't prepare for the hormones which have been a struggle wild mood swings and just constant anxiety attacks, I've only recently been able to clear my head and quell my anxiety with medication enough to function. I had some bad moment and alienated myself from some people dear to me and I'm questioning whether to keep going or not. I've been doing a lot to improve my situation picking myself up doing self care but I realize I can't do this on my own so I've been adding to my support network, people in my circles, support groups and communities like here. From what I read so far this feels like a wonderful community and I look forward to being apart of it.

Thank you


Link to comment
  • Admin

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Sarah.  I think this site will live up to your expectations as a friendly, supportive and knowledgeable place.  I know that transition can be stressful and daunting and we've all been where you are now at some point.  I do hope that you are seeing, or have seen, a gender therapist or at least and M.D. to ensure that your hormone use is safe and appropriate.  We want everyone to be safe, because hormones can be dangerous if not done correctly with good supervision.  If you don;t have a gender therapist, that would be help to add to your tool kit, too.


Please ask any questions that come to mind.  The only thing we can't answer is about hormone dosages.  Please have a look around and enjoy your time here.




Carolyn Marie

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator

Welcome Sarah,

I'm so glad you are here and you are among amazing people who will answer any question honestly and with love.

Link to comment

Hi Sarah, welcome. I had a terrible time on t-blockers at first and struggled to get the dose right for about a year. I tried spironolactone, cyproterone acetate, bicalutamide -- all caused severe depression. Eventually my doctor and I found a solution: an increased dose of estrogen and a reduced dose of spiro. Some people swear by estrogen monotherapy, though I understand some doctors can be wary of trying it. My point is it may take some experimentation to find your sweet spot, and that t-blockers may be the culprit. Since getting my dose right about six months ago I feel so much better. I hope that with some experimentation (with the help of a doctor, of course) you will too.

Link to comment

Hi Sarah,


I'm glad you found us and yes this is by far the best forum for trans people. I should know because I have tried them all. Feel free to say your opinion on other posts. Don't be afraid to speak your mind as long as the rules are followed of course. Take care and looking forward to seeing more posts from you!

Link to comment

Thank you for the warm welcomes
some days are harder than other and these days have been extra hard
it's nice to know I'm not alone.
Thank you

Link to comment

Welcome, Sarah!! You'll find lots of info and wonderful people here. Ask questions or just use us as a shoulder to lean on. We are all here to help each other.

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   6 Members, 0 Anonymous, 107 Guests (See full list)

    • VickySGV
    • Carolyn Marie
    • Abigail Genevieve
    • Susie
    • SamC
    • EasyE
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
    • Total Posts
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
    • Most Online

    Newest Member
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. Amanda May
      Amanda May
      (75 years old)
    2. bleep
    3. onaquest
      (59 years old)
  • Posts

    • Davie
      Good news about Iowa! "Iowa Attacks On Trans And LGBTQ+ People Fail: 20 Bills Die As Legislature Adjourns Iowa becomes the latest state to adjourn Sine Die without passing a single piece of explicitly anti-LGBTQ+ legislation. The only bill to pass was a broad religious freedom bill." — ERIN REED  April 22.  
    • Mmindy
      You look wonderful, I hope you had a great time with the makeup artist. Now tell us about the bridle shower... How did that go? I hope you were accepted by everyone and felt welcomed.   Hugs,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • Abigail Genevieve
      I think my Mom wore makeup until her death. 
    • Vidanjali
      You're very welcome. Btw I was just looking at their bookstore & wanted to specify you'll find the books I recommended under the "mystical insight" tab. https://shop.yrf.org/yoga/books/books-mystical-insight/   And if you want a very brief and impactful primer on Vedanta philosophy, this little book is awesome.  https://shop.yrf.org/items/books/waking-dream-and-deep-sleep/  
    • RaineOnYourParade
      @Vidanjali Thank you! I'll take a look at the books and ask you if I have more questions <3
    • Vidanjali
      Such synchronicity - I also just posted in the Hinduism forum. My guru, Swami Jyotirmayananda, has written many enjoyable books which provide accessible insight into Hinduism and the mystical meaning of dieties and their doings. I recommend his books "Mysticism of the Ramayana" to learn about Rama, Hanuman, and others; his "Mysticism of Srimad Bhaghavatam" to learn about Krishna and other incarnations of Vishnu; and his "Worship of God as Mother" to learn about aspects of the Devi or goddesses for starters. You are also welcome to ask questions in this thread or DM me with any questions you have as it is my pleasure to discuss aspects of Hinduism. I have been a devout aspirant and student of Vedanta for several years now and have begun to work on developing some educational materials on behalf of Swamiji's Yoga Research Foundation.    Here's a link to their bookstore. They do ship rather promptly. https://shop.yrf.org/
    • Mmindy
      Good morning everyone,   It’s Monday for those that work, and a day of continued recovery for me. I feel a little bit better today however I’m going to continue self medicating.    I slept most of the day yesterday, as well as all night. Yesterday my wife went to the store and bought me several cans of chicken soup, which was really nice of her since she had already completed the weekly grocery shopping Saturday.    @Willow I hope and continue to pray for your health, and understand your concerns about progressive loss of speech.    Hugs,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋    
    • RaineOnYourParade
      I'm very much not an expert in Hinduism, but the things I have read were very intriguing to me   That being said, I recently got a story idea involving Hindu deities. It's really only a bare idea right now and not anything solid worth sharing, so I'll skip over that part to the point. If I do end up writing it, I would want to make sure to get things right even if I never share it, so if anyone has good places to get good research on the topic at large done for said story idea, I'm all ears
    • Vidanjali
      This morning I was watching my guru's daily livestream on twitch. We're watching Hindu scriptures depicted via an Indian TV show from the early oughts & Swamiji provides commentary giving spiritual insight into the events and characters in the storyline.    If you're reading this and know little to nothing about Hinduism, here's a very brief primer. Vedanta is the mystical philosophy of Hinduism. Vedanta purports that Truth is One and is spoken of in countless ways. Hindus believe God is One - absolute, indivisible & all-pervading. That Absolute is called Brahman and is also refered to as The Self. The many Hindu dieties represent various aspects of God and are meant to help the spiritual aspirant to learn, reflect, and be inspired to emulate. The demons depicted in Hindu scriptures represent various negative qualities present in the personality - impurities which the aspirant endeavors to sublimate by self-effort and surrender to God's grace.    That said, in the series we've come to the story of demons, Shumbha and Nishumbha. They represent "me" and "mine", respectively. I've heard Swamiji tell the story of Shumbha and Nishumbha many times as they also appear in the scripture devoted to worship of God as Mother & each year in October, the 9 day festival of Mother worship, called Navaratri, is celebrated at Swamiji's ashram.   Me & mine relate to ego and attachment. Today, Swamiji framed me & mine in the context of self-doubt and doubting the world. Egoism or self-doubt means you are identified with the mortal personality and body, whereas your true identity is The Divine indwelling all.   In terms of doubting the world, Swamiji humorously said, you think God got a headache one day and didn't create the right way. I found this quite fascinating, to think of mine-ness or attachment in terms of doubting the world. When you assign the label "mine" to anything, you imply that there is also "not mine". That which you call mine is dear to you; you identity with it. Conversely for not mine - at best you are indifferent about it & at worst you hate it. Such is the trap of attachment - attachment and hatred go hand in hand as you also develop hatred to some degree towards whatever you perceive as a threat to that you've identified as "mine".   Broadly speaking, the label "mine" is assigned to parts of creation. Conversely, "not mine" is assigned to other parts of creation. Every being does this all the time to some degree unless you are enlightened. And there are those who assign "mine" to parts of creation they consider acceptable, and "not mine" to parts they consider unacceptable. Certainly this is related to points of view which consider certain groups of people, including transgender people, as inferior, wrong, or evil. This is due to ignorance.   In today's message, Swamiji imparted that those free of ignorance see all of creation expressing the glory of God. God is all-pervading or omnipresent. That is easily said, but deeply profound and not so simple a point of view to attain because in so doing one must also see all seemingly adverse situations also as God's glory. This is accomplished progressively by spiritual practice - by learning, deep reflection, developing trust and faith, and constant surrender by seeing your body-mind-personality as God's instrument.   I am sharing this message as I am aware many trans folk struggle, internally and/or externally, with the idea of God having made a mistake. Here are some clips from today's livestream in case you're interested.   About "me-ness" called ahamta: https://www.twitch.tv/1391ijimaws/clip/ProtectiveBetterSpaghettiHassanChop-CycVSKmub2HU9XKJ?tt_medium=mobile_web_share&tt_content=clip   About "mine-ness" called mamata: https://www.twitch.tv/1391ijimaws/clip/FantasticBlueNostrilPeanutButterJellyTime-b3Bmo10LmukqGi_X?tt_medium=mobile_web_share&tt_content=clip   God doesn't make mistakes: https://www.twitch.tv/1391ijimaws/clip/AnimatedRelievedLadiesOMGScoots-Ojk5Y-rPndUS7AWX?tt_medium=mobile_web_share&tt_content=clip    
    • Mmindy
      Good morning @Birdie   I hope you're feeling better today. What will it take for them to understand you are an intersex person fully capable of being the woman you always were? You don't have to answer that because I know the state you live in and the troubles you face. I wish they could get over themselves and accept you for you.   Hugs,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • Ashley0616
    • April Marie
      Perhaps I'm in the minority but I generally put on light make-up unless I'm just working around the house. Foundation, darken my eye brows a bit, gel eye pencil along the bottom of my eyes (normally blue), mascara, a bit of rouge on my cheeks to add a little color and then lipstick.   Each of us is different and going with some make-up helps tamp down my dysphoria so that's the way I ride. :-)
    • Ashley0616
      Depression is gone at the moment
    • Ashley0616
      gleeful: full of glee : MERRY
    • Ashley0616
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.


Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules


Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.


Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
  • Create New...