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Hi, this is my transition from MtF; Scott to Heather


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Just now, Timi said:

I recently learned that probably the best way to share a picture is to set up a gallery under your profile for that purpose. As I understand it (and moderators, please correct me if I'm wrong), only members can view gallery pictures, while non-member visitors can view posts. The gallery gives you a bit more privacy protection. 

Hello Timi, that makes purrfect sense. Thanks

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On 1/20/2025 at 7:27 PM, HeatherK said:

I'm going to buy some bracelets that are androgynous. Not to tip off anyone. I'm definitely in stealth mode and in the earliest stages of transitioning.

It's nice to meet you! I've done this as well, delicate bangles and bold stone beads, it feels great! 

 

I hope you find Heather and find peace of mind. It is a tremendously uplifting feeling finally being able to stretch out and be who you really are.

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Just now, HeatherK said:

There's 2 Sephora's at Khols not that far away from me. Is that the same as Sephora?

Yes, exactly. They are many times associated with a Kohl's - maybe always?

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Just now, Centered_Self89 said:

It's nice to meet you! I've done this as well, delicate bangles and bold stone beads, it feels great! 

 

I hope you find Heather and find peace of mind. It is a tremendously uplifting feeling finally being able to stretch out and be who you really are.

Hi, thank you. I have yet to buy them. I do have a purple comb I'm carrying in my back pocket now, plus I'm letting my hair grow long again. It's been a year since my last haircut....

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Just now, April Marie said:

Yes, exactly. They are many times associated with a Kohl's - maybe always?

Ok, awesome!! I'll have to get my courage up to go in one of them.... 

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Just now, HeatherK said:

Hello Timi, that makes purrfect sense. Thanks

Timing, I figured out how to create a album. Thanks for suggesting doing so.

 

I added a picture of my outer self(Scott) from 2 weeks ago. I also added 2 pictures of Scott's face on a app that have been feminized. My god I'm gorgeous!!! I really love the picture with red hair and curves....  

If anyone is interested please check them out..

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Just now, HeatherK said:

Timi, sorry my phone auto corrected your name. My apologies 

Problem! And yes, you are gorgeous!

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Those apps really do give us a sense of what we might become. I used a similar one several years ago and seeing myself as a woman was the final straw that cracked my egg. I have an album in gallery 2 that documents my journey in finding my style over the past two years, including going from wearing a wig to going with my natural hair after it grew out sufficiently. 

 

Just as a note, remember that we have minors here on the forum so watch that your pictures are appropriate for all ages. You can find those things that are specifically prohibited in the Community Rules (Rule #8)

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On 1/25/2025 at 4:54 PM, April Marie said:

Those apps really do give us a sense of what we might become. I used a similar one several years ago and seeing myself as a woman was the final straw that cracked my egg. I have an album in gallery 2 that documents my journey in finding my style over the past two years, including going from wearing a wig to going with my natural hair after it grew out sufficiently. 

 

Just as a note, remember that we have minors here on the forum so watch that your pictures are appropriate for all ages. You can find those things that are specifically prohibited in the Community Rules (Rule #8)

I definitely don't want to post anything that is considered too adult oriented.

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Is it normal to have feelings of sadness knowing that you will be losing one identity to become another? I've been sad knowing things will change and I'm not sure exactly what the outcome will be, But I'm excited as well..... I'm confused 

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Just now, HeatherK said:

Is it normal to have feelings of sadness knowing that you will be losing one identity to become another? I've been sad knowing things will change and I'm not sure exactly what the outcome will be, But I'm excited as well..... I'm confused 

I think it's totally normal, especially when you are unsure of the outcome. I began about two years ago totally questioning who I was, looking in the mirror and being unhappy with the image I saw but not with the "person" I was. As I began to work thru therapy and found the truth, I also feared what I might look like. A man posing as a woman? Able to pass? Attractive? Endless questions.

 

And then, having been this male version of myself for almost 70 years what would happen to "him?" In the end, I realized that "he" didn't go away. I've always been me just presenting in another version. The real me wasn't lost. I just became a different (maybe better) version of me.

 

And, finally, I began to accept the woman I saw in the mirror. Subtle changes - earrings, longer hair, a bit of make up - and then grew to find self-love. Still far from beautiful in society's eyes, but the real me. A happy version of me who grows and becomes every day.

 

You'll get there. 

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8 minutes ago, April Marie said:

I think it's totally normal, especially when you are unsure of the outcome. I began about two years ago totally questioning who I was, looking in the mirror and being unhappy with the image I saw but not with the "person" I was. As I began to work thru therapy and found the truth, I also feared what I might look like. A man posing as a woman? Able to pass? Attractive? Endless questions.

 

And then, having been this male version of myself for almost 70 years what would happen to "him?" In the end, I realized that "he" didn't go away. I've always been me just presenting in another version. The real me wasn't lost. I just became a different (maybe better) version of me.

 

And, finally, I began to accept the woman I saw in the mirror. Subtle changes - earrings, longer hair, a bit of make up - and then grew to find self-love. Still far from beautiful in society's eyes, but the real me. A happy version of me who grows and becomes every day.

 

You'll get there. 

Very well said! Thank you!!

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Apparently I misheard the lady that made my appointment with the gender therapist. My appointment is for this Friday at 2.

The receptionist called me today inquiring about my insurance info as i didn't have my wallet to give her my policy numbers.

I asked several times about how the bill would come to me and if anything would be sent to my house. I explained to her that I am not out and my wife is not aware of my feelings of being transgender. 

My questions and concerns were answered with professionalism and reassurance.

 

I'm scared yet excited to begin this journey!

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I think it's only natural for you to feel some fear. You're making a big step into something new. But, you're doing it. You CAN do it. You've got this!

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1 hour ago, April Marie said:

I think it's only natural for you to feel some fear. You're making a big step into something new. But, you're doing it. You CAN do it. You've got this!

You are right, I got this!! 

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Well I received a phone call from the therapist's office today. My insurance has a 6k deductible. I have to pay $154.00 each visit until I hit the 6k mark before insurance kicks in. I'm still going on Friday for my 1st session. 

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Ok so tonight I'm sitting with my Wife in the living room on the couch. We are watching TV, she is on her phone scrolling through Facebook I assume. She comes across a young guy that is obviously LGBTQIA2S+ she shows me the picture of this young person and says let me guess he probably thinks he's a girl in a boy's body. Not more than a few minutes later out comes another derogatory remark about another Transgender person. I just sat there with no reply to her remarks, but inside it pissed me off..... I thought what if I told her right then and there I'm Transgender.

 

I'm hurt and not sure about coming out to her in the future. 

Has anyone here dealt with a spouse with the same situation? 

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17 hours ago, HeatherK said:

I'm hurt and not sure about coming out to her in the future. 

Has anyone here dealt with a spouse with the same situation? 

Good evening Heather.

 

My coming out to my wife experience was a total crash and burn. We were both caught off guard by the other's reaction. My wife claimed to be a total supporter of the LBGTQIA+ community, and even remarked about how much she liked Lavern Cox in the show "Orange is the new black". So I asked her to watch a couple of documentaries with me about the coming out, and transition experience. Then I told her that I was going to a therapist for gender guidance and possible transition. WOW! To say she went scorched earth angry, is an understatement. She immediately outed me to our grown children and their spouses, claiming that I killed our marriage. She was so angry that I trapped her in a financial dead end and gave her no way to remain retired and live with me. In my favor our grown children and their spouses were understanding and mostly supportive of my situation. For the next two weeks I lived on eggshells wondering what would set her off again. So while my wife still claimed to be supportive of the LBGTQIA+ community, there were conditions on where we fit. This was three years ago and we're still married and she is semi-supportive. So if your wife is blatantly speaking in a negative tone about strangers who have transitioned. I can only imagine there would be fireworks like you've never seen, if you didn't proceed very cautiously. There will be others chime in here about there experience coming out to their significant others.

 

Best wishes, stay positive and motivated.

 

Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

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1 hour ago, Mmindy said:

Good evening Heather.

 

My coming out to my wife experience was a total crash and burn. We were both caught off guard by the other's reaction. My wife claimed to be a total supporter of the LBGTQIA+ community, and even remarked about how much she liked Lavern Cox in the show "Orange is the new black". So I asked her to watch a couple of documentaries with me about the coming out, and transition experience. Then I told her that I was going to a therapist for gender guidance and possible transition. WOW! To say she went scorched earth angry, is an understatement. She immediately outed me to our grown children and their spouses, claiming that I killed our marriage. She was so angry that I trapped her in a financial dead end and gave her no way to remain retired and live with me. In my favor our grown children and their spouses were understanding and mostly supportive of my situation. For the next two weeks I lived on eggshells wondering what would set her off again. So while my wife still claimed to be supportive of the LBGTQIA+ community, there were conditions on where we fit. This was three years ago and we're still married and she is semi-supportive. So if your wife is blatantly speaking in a negative tone about strangers who have transitioned. I can only imagine there would be fireworks like you've never seen, if you didn't proceed very cautiously. There will be others chime in here about there experience coming out to their significant others.

 

Best wishes, stay positive and motivated.

 

Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

Hi Mindy, I'm pretty sure she would have a complete meltdown and definitely out me to her closest of friends and family. Some of her friends are related to some of co-workers which definitely would lead to me quitting my job of 18 years. I work in the agriculture industry ( grain elevator ) most guys here are farmer types with narrow minds towards the LBGTQIA+ community. 

I do know I'm definitely going to come out as it's in the foremost part of my mind/thoughts and definitely will become divorced a 2nd time. I'm finally admitting I actually want that as my sexual preference has increasingly changed to males and transgender women over the last 20 years.  So her finding out will put me towards those types of relationships and discovery of myself in a new light. I'm just not ready yet...

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Today I met with the gender therapist. Her name is Lisa. She was a complete sweetie!! I luv her!! She had me laughing and smiling. I felt like I knew her my entire life. She gave me the phone number to Howard Brown service in Chicago to inquire about taking HRT. I'll be contacting them on Monday. My next appointment with her is in 3 weeks. At the moment I can't do weekly sessions due to financial issues but I'd be glad to see her weekly when money is better. I'm super stoked!

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Oh I bought a hat with pink on it and some socks with pink smiley faces on them. I will be no longer using men's deodorant and will buy women's instead. Today I put just a smidge of perfume on. Found a bottle from my wife's vast collection that I liked. 

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Just now, HeatherK said:

Today I met with the gender therapist. Her name is Lisa. She was a complete sweetie!!

 

Yay!  I am glad you are seeing a therapist and that you have found one you relate well to.

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Just now, KathyLauren said:

 

Yay!  I am glad you are seeing a therapist and that you have found one you relate well to.

Thanks, she was awesome. So easy to open up without holding back anything. She suggested that I am Pansexual. I never gave that a thought but it fits. She told me to work on my voice as I didn't try to speak to her in a more feminine tone. I was too nervous to do so. I also came in with stubble on my face, she also said to start shaving daily.

 

She said since I have extra weight it won't take much for the HRT to fill in my hips, thighs and breasts. I plan on losing a bunch of weight and tone up. 

 

 

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