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  2. Kirsten

    Reaching my target weight

    It’s all water weight and an unbalanced system. Losing 2 pounds overnight doesn’t mean you lost 2 pounds. Although it is a nice scale moment. Lol. As far as blowing everything, I don’t agree. You had a cheat. Cheats are fine. The issue I see is that it’s directly linked to an emotional issue. That’s a tough link to break, but one that everyone should do. Emotional eating is the worst kind of eating habit to carry. Try separating the alcohol and the food from the emotions. But don’t beat yourself up over a bad day. The bad day isn’t what matters. It’s what you do the next day that matters. You get back on that exercise train, and fuel it with healthy habits. I have been pushing my Monday workouts to the afternoon myself. GOT is Sunday nights at 9 so I’m up past 10 every Sunday. There’s no way I’m waking up at 4 if I can’t get to bed till 1020 or so. It kills me all day. I’m tired. I’m grumpy. I am incessantly yawning. It’s awful. I don’t have my shake if I don’t exercise, so I end up with something less than healthy (dunks power breakfast sandwich and a coffee today). But it’s a sacrifice I choose to make for my television show. I have 8+ years invested so I make an exception. And it’s okay to not be perfect. Like I say all the time Amy it’s not about being on a diet. It’s not about working out every day. It’s not about that number the scale flashes in our faces either. It’s about finding your place. It’s about loving yourself. It’s about keeping yourself strong and healthy. It’s about being proud of your work that you do for you! These battles aren’t won in public. They’re won inside ourselves. They are won at 4am deciding to push yourself out of bed to do something good for your body. They are created in the dark when we are alone. THATS when we are created. THATS when we are our strongest. THATS the times that are the most important. And you are doing a great job!!! Bad days or not, you are awesome!
  3. Timber Wolf

    Newbie here

    Hi fphamm45, Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here! Lots of love, Timber Wolf 🐺🐾
  4. michelle_kitten

    Grateful for the Challengers

    I am thankful for all those who say trans people are foolish, crazy, evil, misguided, or whatever. Here is why: I've always been self-educated, and above average intelligence though far from genius. I've always attracted educated and intelligent people to myself. Many of my friends have been atheist and agnostic, or some flavor thereof. A lot of educated people tend to lean the direction of shying away from God. Often challenges to my faith have been given. Sometimes the challenges are out of mischief and other times out of authentic doubts. Either way, at some point I realized some of the common challenges to my faith were good questions for which I had no answers. The criticisms were often stinging. Rather than sitting by and allowing my faith to be shaken, I chose to dig deep and find answers. In the end, it has lead to a great deal of spiritual development, and a confidence in my faith I would not otherwise have. I am grateful for my atheist and agnostic friends and all the people who have challenged me. I think they have shaped me as much or more than anything from the pulpit. There is good reason why I am putting off labeling myself as trans, and starting a transition (for at least 6 months). I am look for people to tell me I am wrong. Sure, I am a bit scared. Being told you are wrong is never comfortable. Being opposed can be embarrassing and humiliating. The more intellectual you believe you are, the more a challenge bites at you. I am not so scared as to not see the good which comes from being faced with good questions. I want the growth which comes with challenge, just as in my Christian walk. I also want the confidence in the end (assuming I do transition) coming from having been challenged and having weathered the storm. There is a hidden benefit of having had my faith challenged. The blessing is being able to help others, which is deeply rewarding. I fully expect the same beautiful experience awaits me on the other end of my current journey. Touching the lives of others with gentleness and kindness is the best this world can offer. Today, I choose to be thankful for the trans detractors and critics. The nay-sayers are causing me to grow, to dig deep within myself, and preparing me for a life ahead (whatever it might look like). Blessings!
  5. Will do! ❤️ I am also massaging every day. I'll also take the next set of measurements soon, too!
  6. Today
  7. michelle_kitten

    Identity

    Janae, I recently had my first experience with a gender therapist. It was very relieving to just throw up on someone about how I feel without judgement. The gender therapist I am seeing has helped a lot of folks with the same issues. There is no surprise, shock, nor judgement. It was a great experience. You'll do fine in gender therapy. You're already beginning to get in touch with how you feel.
  8. Janeshannon

    Newbie here

    Welcome and I hope you enjoy the site. Jane Shannon
  9. Janeshannon

    Journey to Jane Shannon

    I have had a good week. Monday was my normal counseling appointment, which leaves me feeling good and that this trans thing is okay. Thursday, I had the day off work for a dermatology appointment. I decided to wear a black skirt with a red cowl neck sweater to the appointment. The appointment is a yearly appointment, and my legal name is still my male name. The clinic was AWESOME! The lady at the counter didn't bat an eye even when I handed her an ID with a male name and photo on it. The med tech looked a little surprised, but recovered quickly and was kind. I had to get undressed, and I loved when she said I'd have to take off my bra for the exam. The PA who did the exam was awesome. She checked my skin including peeking under my panties. Since I was only wearing a gaff and a medical robe, she knew I was early transition transgender. I was tightly tucked, and she made no reaction she was just doing another exam. I was nervous going in, but relaxed departing. After the appointment, I had a bunch of errands to run. I did all if them in that skirt. It was absolutely wonderful to be interacting with society as a woman. I've questioned this for so long. Doubting if I was really transgender. More and more I know the truth. Another interesting highlight was a short stop at a cobbler’s shop. I was stalling going in, sitting in my truck, looking at the shop and wondering about all the horrible things that could happen. When I noticed, in the upper left corner of the shop window was the rainbow flag. That little chunk of clothe, such a small symbol, and it totally lifted my spirits. The cobbler was super sweet, and told me he could fix my shoes for $20, or I could fix them for free with some super glue. After that I headed to the library and a few other stops. It was really a nice day--it felt wonderful not to doubt or to worry so much--to just be.
  10. VickySGV

    Grateful Tonight

    We do in fact have a growing number of churches who fully accept us. They have gotten the idea that Creation is too big for only two set in stone genders. A friend of mine actually had her male Baptismal Name changed during the First Service of Easter to one that now is a better fit and expresses the Divine Image that is in all of us much more openly and makes her a person who is Fully Alive in faith and body.
  11. ToniTone

    Coming out to my ma?

    ❤️ Yeah, totally! I wish she understood. But she loves me regardless. Really she's the only one I was concerned about coming out to. Everyone else has less investment in me, and I feel I can deal with whatever may happen. It's a relief just letting her know and getting that tribulation over with...
  12. Ellora

    Hrt is the best treatment!

    There are plenty of glute exercises that can be done with weak knees. 😀
  13. Jani

    Newbie here

    Welcome! I think you'll find a good community here. Join in! Jani
  14. Jani

    My kids' reaction to my coming out

    Thats good to hear. Sometimes it takes time for those around us to understand. Sounds like you have good kids. Hugs, Jani
  15. Jani

    Hrt is the best treatment!

    My knees aren't good enough for that, but I can ride my bicycle which I should do more now that the weather is turning.
  16. Jani

    Grateful Tonight

    I'm glad to read you feel good. Yes it is a promising time to be oneself, in whatever form that takes. Change takes time and we are slowly getting there as a society. Enjoy life. Be safe. Hugs, Jani
  17. michelle_kitten

    Grateful Tonight

    I am very grateful tonight, as I wrestle with my gender, I live in a time where I don't face being stoned or burned at the stake for considering a path other than that dictated by my anatomy.
  18. Ellora

    Breast growth and body changes

    Sounds promising, keep me posted, and I will as well. Since we are kinda close in time, maybe we could compare notes. I try to massage everyday, especially when I shower and when I apply aloe Vera and lotion. I use the aloe for my ingrown hairs and lotion to keep my skin moist.
  19. Ellora

    Hrt is the best treatment!

    HAve you tried squats?
  20. fphamm45

    Newbie here

    Hi all, I am a new member here, and I hope that I can bring out my inner lady with all your help and support.
  21. Ned

    My kids' reaction to my coming out

    Jordi my two kids are were in their teens and live with their dad also. They were hurt and said some hurtful things and last summer we didnt really get to visit. But last christmas it was a lot easier. They both gave me hugs and " I love you mom". But before they said it they told me they realized Im not a woman now but asked to still call me mom. After they educated themselves it was a lot easier on them.
  22. Jani

    Coming out to my ma?

    Well you got that out of the way and it didn't hurt much, did it? Hugs, Jani
  23. Jani

    Hrt is the best treatment!

    Good for you! My sister commented once (not being mean) that I had a skinny butt. But I can easily find pants that fit well so there must be others like me. I'm envious of you as I'd like just a little more natural padding.
  24. Ashlee

    Hrt is the best treatment!

    Yes. Im not in a hurry for surgery just yet. Im going to wait and see now. Changes are slow but are happening. Actually thinking about it, its faster than I expected. I've been on hrt now for 8 months and am filling out girls clothes. (yaaay) also putting on a few pouns(not Yaay) lol Hrt really is the best thing that gas ever happened to me. I've been a little worried about it effects and it it would work for my dysphoria and Im told (and agree now) that I don't even look like the same person. Its awesome
  25. ToniTone

    Coming out to my ma?

    So I came out to my ma today finally! It was bittersweet, but I feel content about it. We had an awesome day today. We walked around my town (mpls) and listened to 80s rock, it was pretty rad! I shyed up as I was bracing to tell her and she bullied it out of my until I just blabbed. Right away she shrieked "WHHAAAAATTTTTT!!!!!??!?!??", then "No. No, nonono...", all shellshocked. Instead of doing what Tony, would do- retract it and console her delicate sensibilities, I did what Toni gonna do and told her "Yeah, and if you don't like it screw you!" as abrasive, brash and punk rock as ever. Throughout the day when it would come up, she would say "l hope you change your mind and be a guy again", to which I would reply simply that it's highly improbable, I am who I am, and I'm happy this way. She also made it about her of course, and expressed apologetic sentiments for "making me this way". I cooly affirmed to her that this is who I am, that it's MY gender, and that it's not at all something shameful, nay to necessitate sympathy... I don't think she grasps it all, don't know that she ever will. But she accepts me, regardless of her naivete, which I nudgingly accept. And she still loves me and I her. I wish we had that dreamy, familial life, and I could be her daughter. But that's a fantasy, nothing more... Today was ok. And sometimes ok is the best day you can have that day... ❤️ ~Toni
  26. Ned

    Hrt is the best treatment!

    Glad for you girl. I know i am coming from the other direction but therapy really started turning things around for me also.
  27. Yesterday
  28. I'll be there if work permits! Lots of love, Timber Wolf 🐺🐾
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      It’s all water weight and an unbalanced system. Losing 2 pounds overnight doesn’t mean you lost 2 pounds. Although it is a nice scale moment. Lol.  As far as blowing everything, I don’t agree. You had a cheat. Cheats are fine. The issue I see is that it’s directly linked to an emotional issue. That’s a tough link to break, but one that everyone should do. Emotional eating is the worst kind of eating habit to carry. Try separating the alcohol and the food from the emotions. But don’t beat yourself up over a bad day. The bad day isn’t what matters. It’s what you do the next day that matters. You get back on that exercise train, and fuel it with healthy habits.  I have been pushing my Monday workouts to the afternoon myself. GOT is Sunday nights at 9 so I’m up past 10 every Sunday. There’s no way I’m waking up at 4 if I can’t get to bed till 1020 or so. It kills me all day. I’m tired. I’m grumpy. I am incessantly yawning. It’s awful. I don’t have my shake if I don’t exercise, so I end up with something less than healthy (dunks power breakfast sandwich and a coffee today). But it’s a sacrifice I choose to make for my television show. I have 8+ years invested so I make an exception. And it’s okay to not be perfect.    Like I say all the time Amy it’s not about being on a diet. It’s not about working out every day. It’s not about that number the scale flashes in our faces either. It’s about finding your place. It’s about loving yourself. It’s about keeping yourself strong and healthy. It’s about being proud of your work that you do for you! These battles aren’t won in public. They’re won inside ourselves. They are won at 4am deciding to push yourself out of bed to do something good for your body. They are created in the dark when we are alone. THATS when we are created. THATS when we are our strongest. THATS the times that are the most important. And you are doing a great job!!! Bad days or not, you are awesome! 
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      Hi fphamm45, Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!   Lots of love, Timber Wolf 🐺🐾
    • michelle_kitten
      I am thankful for all those who say trans people are foolish, crazy, evil, misguided, or whatever.  Here is why:   I've always been self-educated, and above average intelligence though far from genius.  I've always attracted educated and intelligent people to myself.  Many of my friends have been atheist and agnostic, or some flavor thereof.  A lot of educated people tend to lean the direction of shying away from God.  Often challenges to my faith have been given.  Sometimes the challenges are out of mischief and other times out of authentic doubts.  Either way, at some point I realized some of the common challenges to my faith were good questions for which I had no answers.  The criticisms were often stinging.  Rather than sitting by and allowing my faith to be shaken, I chose to dig deep and find answers.  In the end, it has lead to a great deal of spiritual development, and a confidence in my faith I would not otherwise have.  I am grateful for my atheist and agnostic friends and all the people who have challenged me.  I think they have shaped me as much or more than anything from the pulpit.   There is good reason why I am putting off labeling myself as trans, and starting a transition (for at least 6 months).  I am look for people to tell me I am wrong.  Sure, I am a bit scared.  Being told you are wrong is never comfortable.  Being opposed can be embarrassing and humiliating.  The more intellectual you believe you are, the more a challenge bites at you.  I am not so scared as to not see the good which comes from being faced with good questions.  I want the growth which comes with challenge, just as in my Christian walk.  I also want the confidence in the end (assuming I do transition) coming from having been challenged and having weathered the storm.   There is a hidden benefit of having had my faith challenged.  The blessing is being able to help others, which is deeply rewarding.  I fully expect the same beautiful experience awaits me on the other end of my current journey.  Touching the lives of others with gentleness and kindness is the best this world can offer.   Today, I choose to be thankful for the trans detractors and critics.  The nay-sayers are causing me to grow, to dig deep within myself, and preparing me for a life ahead (whatever it might look like).   Blessings!
    • jo_g
      Will do! ❤️ I am also massaging every day. I'll also take the next set of measurements soon, too!  
    • michelle_kitten
      Janae,   I recently had my first experience with a gender therapist.  It was very relieving to just throw up on someone about how I feel without judgement.  The gender therapist I am seeing has helped a lot of folks with the same issues.  There is no surprise, shock, nor judgement.  It was a great experience.  You'll do fine in gender therapy.  You're already beginning to get in touch with how you feel.
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