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Hey there, I am new here and I am 18 (male) turning 19 at 15th feb 2018. My main reason why I am here is that I don't know what is going on with me since long time ago. The first thing and important thing is that I've mental disorder because of my childhood and following even depression and post-traumatic stress disorder. If I am not wrong, I am often thinking about to import estrogen from internet. Sometimes I feel comfortable as guy but sometimes I feel not to be what I am and again sometimes I feel absolutely wrong. I also asked my psychiatrist 1 year ago where I was in clinic due of my mental illness (because of suicide prevention at age of 16-17). The psychiatrist said, it could be due of an sexual assault maybe? - Because of my trauma she thinks. But even everything I did was unsuccessfully, also importing meds too, I did it sometime for 1 week or such but I canceled because of side effects. The other thing is I want this for sure but I am afraid of 'point of no return' where the changes aren't reversible anymore. (I'm amazed this is possible) Thank you for replying

I have a few questions to ask. I went to a doctor's appointment today and asked if I can go to therapy. My doctor said she has a therapist she thinks will be good for me. So I'm going to be seeing a therapist soon. I want to tell the therapist about being questioning. How could I bring up the topic of gender in the sessions? What could I say to the therapist? I am extremely anxious and scared. My mom is against LGBT people. I'm afraid of her being angry at me , never speaking to me again , hating me forever or not letting me explore my identity or transition whenever I come out to the therapist. How can I make my mom accepting of LGBT people? So she won't hate me or be angry when I bring it up in therapy? I'm afraid that my mom will just dismiss my feelings and just say I'm confused. Because last year around Christmas time I had mentioned something about questioning my gender and even showed her information about nonbinary genders. She got really angry at me and kept saying that we need to go to church more and she kept calling me a girl and her daughter. I'm so scared and miserable. Please help me.