A Glance Into My Life

[Guest Jessica22450]

My story may be a little bit of an 'oddball' type story but here it goes anyway:

Durin childhood I knew something was wron but not sure what, Like some children I had imaginary playmates and that is basicly where my gender confusion started I always had girls as playmates sometimes even real girls, this persisted through childhood. During childhood though I was like any normal little boy to my family and to outsiders no cross dressing or anything, I had a hard time in school but bullies were not uncommon.

In 5th grade that 'normal little boy' part of me started showing cracks, at a scholastic book fair I bought a diary with a very girly design on it, Not typical for a boy to do. But to me it seemed like no big deal, Also some time when I was around 11 1/2 I had written a diary entry of the desire to be a girl, Again, seeminly to me like just something written for the fun of it I didn't think it had a meaning at the time.

Although at 10 years old I had internet and a male username at 12 I started a female identity on the internet, By 13 this new identity had her own name, personality, and mannerisms in the way she acted and talked, she was mostly a shy type, she still is. This went on without me really understanding it.

By 15 I had watched a transgender/transsexual documentary called 'Born In the wrong body' For once I found out that my actions, and depression might have something to do with a thing called GID. Even though I had made this new discovery I had paid no attention to it, along with that I had created an account on an equestrian game online, Because common belief for girls in childhood and what not was that girls loved horses, I guess I fell into that stereotype without thinking about it.

This kept going until when I was about to turn 17, When I finally did research and came out to my psychiatrist as a girl, he was skeptical about it due to nothing prior being said about it. I'm still 17 and now diagnosed with GID, hopefully may start transition soon, hope you all enjoy reading this and bye for now!

[gennee]

Thank you for sharing your story, Jessica. I pray that your transition will proceed well for you. In the meantime Keep on posting and learning.

Gennee