2009-year In Review

[gennee]

Every year I set goals rather than make resolutions. I put a time table as to when I will achieve a specific goal. This past year events happened in my life that was unplanned for. I am the better for it.

I identified as a cross dresser at the beginning of the year. In May I sensed a migration away from the cross dresser spectrum. It was always my contention that my gender issues ran deeper than just wearing women’s clothing. I have crossed many roads in my journey but this marked the first time that I hesitated going across.

In June I identified myself as a transgenderist. I wear women’s clothing all the time at home. I viewed myself being between a crossdresser and transsexual. A year before I researched what a transgenderist is. I sensed that I may be headed in this direction and it did happen. I was comfortable as a transgenderist. I also shared transgender issues with my bible study group in June. It helped others understand what it is to be transgender.

In September I attended a veterans meeting where I am a member. I was dressed as a male. The president of the group asked why I didn’t come dressed as Gennee. I had thought about a few days before. From that moment on I said that I would go dressed as a female. It was confirmation to me that I am viewed as a transgender woman.

In November I marched in the Veteran’s Day parade. The spectators cheered and clapped and thanked us for our service to our country. It didn’t matter how I identified. I also attended a Transgender Day of Remembrance ceremony nine days later. I shared a few words to the one hundred plus people in the audience. I encouraged them to be themselves.

Another shift occurred in early December. I migrated off the middle ground to where I now view myself as a transsexual. I have maintained that I’m not going to have reassignment surgery or take hormones. Felt that way when I first came out and still feel that way now. I always felt a kinship to transsexuals and now I know that I am one.

I would sum up 2009 as a year that more of my real identity came out. Being transgender is more complex than just how society sees me. I pray that in 2010 more people will understand that.

Gennee

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Genee hon,

I have always considered you a friend. I too identified as a crossdresser in the beginning of this year. I always considered myself a crossdresser all of these years until I realized that did not accurately describe me. Like you, I went through some changes and realizations as to who I really was. Spending so much time perfecting shaving my legs. Always appear gender ambiguous. No hair on my arms, out in the open. Loose tops so that the sleeves can drop behind my shoulders so that everyone can see that I shave my underarms. Crossdresser? No, I do not see myself as a crossdresser. I am as I am... a woman.

Thanks for sharing your evolution hon.

I have always respected you.

Love

Brenda

[Guest Donna Jean]

Gennee......

The gender spectrum is wide and varied!

It goes from one end to the other with many places in between....

And the most important part is that there are almost no rules in Transgenderism...

You go whever it makes you comfortable...what works for one might not be right for another...

You are exploring and finding out where you fit in...you've had one heck of a year, Gennee...

I wish you continued success and happiness in your endevors......

You are doing wonderful, Honey...keep it up!

LOVE

Donna Jean

[Sally]

What a wonderful year you have had.

I am so happy for you, Gennee.

Remember like Donna Jean said there are no rules we are who we are and it is different for each of us just like fingerprints.

My therapist has always said that it isn't important what others think you should do, you must find your comfort zone and live there.

I think that you are finding yours, have a wonderful 2010 my beautiful sister.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Gennee

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GREAT!!!

Well - for me:

........................2009..................................

..........*....................*....................*...........MY STARS!

.......*.....*.............*.....*.............*.....*........OH MY

....*..........*.........*.........*........*...........*.....Whewww

..*...............*....*.............*....*...............*...OH NO

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........................HOPE FOR 2010.....................

*........*........*........*.........*........*.........*.........*sigh - just right!

Lizzy

[Guest sarah f]

It sounds like you made a wonderful breakthrough this year. I hope your 2010 can be even better for you.

Love,

Sarah f

[gennee]

Thank you ladies for you wonderful comments. I pray that in 2010 all your dreams will come true.

Gennee