Anatomically Incorrect

[Guest Dandro]

It kinda sucks, but I just felt like writing it...

Anatomically Incorrect

When I look at my reflection

I begin my dissection

of every defect and

the course of my inflection

it never takes direction

just envy male perfection

I'm anatomically incorrect and

I'll never get an erection

Anatomically incorrect

Inadequate, imperfect

Testosterone I inject

and wait for its effect

From my body I disconnect

Into my ideal self I will project

My female side I will neglect

Femininity I reject

And I still don't stand construct

And I don't stand a chance

In this masochistic self romance

So I'll say sorry in advance

if I'm too crippled to dance

and I'll never take a stance

so I'll just slip back into my trance

I'm anatomically incorrect

(Boys with the right parts, something so pleasant)

And I'll never stand construct

(From the future, I speak to myself in the present)

Inadequate, imperfect

(Boys with the right parts, boys with the right parts)

Femininity I reject

(Something so pleasant)

I'm anatomically incorrect

and here's another one I wrote a while back about 'pretending' to be a guy online.

My Sadistic Secret

Break the skin, hide the face

Destroy the face

Taste the blame, live the shame

Burning, turning inside out

Filled with doubt, can't do without

Obsession, addiction

Consumption, conviction

The friction, it's fiction

It's fake, I take and take

Give it back, the face I lack

Don't want it back

Behind the mask is something real

A heart that feels, secrets concealed

Don't know what's real

I feel sick, sick of me

Sick that I'm not me, sick that I have to be

Sick of my voice, of not having a choice

Sick from the power I devour

The pleasure I seek, the truth that makes me weak

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Hi Dandro

I did not have the opportunity to welcome to Laura's so...... WELCOME!!!!

Your poems are seriously intense.

I want to share with you what you can achieve

http://ai.eecs.umich.edu/people/conway/TSs...s/TransMen.html

Love

Brenda

[Guest BrandonIThink]

Please, man, don't sell yourself short. These are very powerful! The first one spoke to me as an FTM because I often feel like I want to do everything I can to distance myself from this body, while at the same time, knowing I'll never fully achieve the one I am seeking. The second one spoke to me as a transsexual because so many of us deal with the problem of when you're on the Internet whether to present as the gender you're 'supposed' to be, or the one you know you really are....I've been having issues with this for years.

Very moving. If you have anything else to show us, it would be more than welcome

[Guest Dandro]

Thanks for the welcome, Brenda. I do go in the chat, but have not been to the forums until now. Thanks, Brandon. I'm glad you liked them. =)

One thing, though. It wasn't supposed to be, "I'll never stand construct". I guess there's some censorship in here? The word begins with an E.

[Sally]

Hi Dandro,

First I would like to say how good the poems are - very intense and so moving.

I agree with Brandon, I would like to see more.

There is an automatic word filter that changes slang terms into acceptable medical terms but I had not seen this particular change before.

Don't worry - it hits us Moderators too!

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Dandro]

Thanks Sally. =)

[Guest Elizabeth K]

It kinda sucks, but I just felt like writing it...

Anatomically Incorrect

When I look at my reflection

I begin my dissection

of every defect and

the course of my inflection

it never takes direction

just envy male perfection

I'm anatomically incorrect and

I'll never get an erection

Anatomically incorrect

Inadequate, imperfect

Testosterone I inject

and wait for its effect

From my body I disconnect

Into my ideal self I will project

My female side I will neglect

Femininity I reject

And I still don't stand construct

And I don't stand a chance

In this masochistic self romance

So I'll say sorry in advance

if I'm too crippled to dance

and I'll never take a stance

so I'll just slip back into my trance

I'm anatomically incorrect

(Boys with the right parts, something so pleasant)

And I'll never stand construct

(From the future, I speak to myself in the present)

Inadequate, imperfect

(Boys with the right parts, boys with the right parts)

Femininity I reject

(Something so pleasant)

I'm anatomically incorrect

and here's another one I wrote a while back about 'pretending' to be a guy online.

My Sadistic Secret

Break the skin, hide the face

Destroy the face

Taste the blame, live the shame

Burning, turning inside out

Filled with doubt, can't do without

Obsession, addiction

Consumption, conviction

The friction, it's fiction

It's fake, I take and take

Give it back, the face I lack

Don't want it back

Behind the mask is something real

A heart that feels, secrets concealed

Don't know what's real

I feel sick, sick of me

Sick that I'm not me, sick that I have to be

Sick of my voice, of not having a choice

Sick from the power I devour

The pleasure I seek, the truth that makes me weak

Very powerful! Where did you come from? You have talent! PLEASE post some more!

Lizzy

[Guest Melanieshaman]

wow! really all i can say. VERY intense and while not ALL of it pertains to me (T shots), it hits very close to home. truly a talented person.

Melanie

Blog Update! 4-9-10

[Guest Sotha]

Not to be completely unhelpful or supportive, but..

Your rhyme scheme makes your poetry seem like it could be a rap song.

[Guest Dandro]

Thank you Lizzy and Melanie. =) and Sotha, I take that as a compliment because I actually want to be an underground rapper, haha.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Hey, Hon!

Welcome to the Playground!

I simply adore the poems! Very good!

And another thing about them is that with the changing of a couple words, it applies to so many of us.

You have a gift....

How 'bout more when you can?

Thanks, Baby....

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest Dandro]

Thanks Donna Jean. I'll share more if I ever get to writing any. I've been kind of unmotivated to write lately. I have other poems, but they aren't really related to transgender issues.

[Guest Alex Blitzen]

Very nice i'm sorry i didn't read this sooner, it is very good.

[Guest Dandro]

Thanks, Alex. =)