Feeling A Bit Depressed

[Guest Sandy]

Hi everyone....Just want to air out a little. I came out to my wife about two and a half years ago. [we have been married almost 30 years] She accepted who I am, but has completly not wanted to talk about it. I keep my clothes in the closet, out of sight, towards the end. The only time I can dress is if I get home for work early and my daughter is taking a nap. [Older daughter 25yrs] She has seen me a couple of times and has even told me that I look nice. I so wish I could talk with my wife some more. I kept this a secret for so long that I thought I would explode. Now that I have told her and now that we still can't talk about it. I'm feeling as depressed as when it was a secret. When she gets home and with a cry of relief,she removes her bra. With a cry of relief,I wish I could put one on. I daydream all the time about us going shopping and hope

just one time she would ask me if she could help me pick out something. I so want her to understand that I can be all man, because the best part of my life is her. But I have that other person that wants to come out more and more. I'm so much more relaxed when I dress as Sandy. Everyone says to take it slow, sometimes I feel like I'm going backwards. Why does life have to be so confusing?

Thanks for listening

Sandy

[Guest Steveanna]

Hi everyone....Just want to air out a little. I came out to my wife about two and a half years ago. [we have been married almost 30 years] She accepted who I am, but has completly not wanted to talk about it. I keep my clothes in the closet, out of sight, towards the end. The only time I can dress is if I get home for work early and my daughter is taking a nap. [Older daughter 25yrs] She has seen me a couple of times and has even told me that I look nice. I so wish I could talk with my wife some more. I kept this a secret for so long that I thought I would explode. Now that I have told her and now that we still can't talk about it. I'm feeling as depressed as when it was a secret. When she gets home and with a cry of relief,she removes her bra. With a cry of relief,I wish I could put one on. I daydream all the time about us going shopping and hope

just one time she would ask me if she could help me pick out something. I so want her to understand that I can be all man, because the best part of my life is her. But I have that other person that wants to come out more and more. I'm so much more relaxed when I dress as Sandy. Everyone says to take it slow, sometimes I feel like I'm going backwards. Why does life have to be so confusing?

Thanks for listening

Sandy

[Guest Steveanna]

Hi everyone....Just want to air out a little. I came out to my wife about two and a half years ago. [we have been married almost 30 years] She accepted who I am, but has completly not wanted to talk about it. I keep my clothes in the closet, out of sight, towards the end. The only time I can dress is if I get home for work early and my daughter is taking a nap. [Older daughter 25yrs] She has seen me a couple of times and has even told me that I look nice. I so wish I could talk with my wife some more. I kept this a secret for so long that I thought I would explode. Now that I have told her and now that we still can't talk about it. I'm feeling as depressed as when it was a secret. When she gets home and with a cry of relief,she removes her bra. With a cry of relief,I wish I could put one on. I daydream all the time about us going shopping and hope

just one time she would ask me if she could help me pick out something. I so want her to understand that I can be all man, because the best part of my life is her. But I have that other person that wants to come out more and more. I'm so much more relaxed when I dress as Sandy. Everyone says to take it slow, sometimes I feel like I'm going backwards. Why does life have to be so confusing?

Thanks for listening

Sandy

Sandy,

You and I have a few things in common. I have been married for 29 years, we have two daughters, but, I am in the closet. I know my wife will be just like yours if I come out.

Here's what I do:

Back in the 60"s there was a song "Secret Agent Man" I think it was sang by Johnny Rivers. One verse said "they've given me a number and taken away my name. Secret agent man, secret agent man."

I am just that, oo secret agent man.

I keep my femme clothes locked up in my mechanics boxes and am planning on expanding by purchasing an new gun cabinet and keep every thing under lock and key. Secret agent man.

Maybe you might want to think about this awhile and see if something like this could help you out. ?

Steveanna

[Guest Sandy]

Thanks for responding Steveanna....Agent man won't work. I already came out of the closet to her. My frustration is that I want it to go much further and its like I haven't gone any further than when I told her 2 and a half years ago. I tried to be honest, I thought that was the right thing to do. Now I don't know anymore.

[Guest Steveanna]

Thanks for responding Steveanna....Agent man won't work. I already came out of the closet to her. My frustration is that I want it to go much further and its like I haven't gone any further than when I told her 2 and a half years ago. I tried to be honest, I thought that was the right thing to do. Now I don't know anymore.

Sandy,

I think you need to create a secret about this, and let her think you have given up doing your femme side. Without a doubt, she does not want to accept what you have shared with her. I tell you the truth, I have the same situation. If you try secret agent man style, you will be more free, less doubts,and gain esteem. Our wives will do anything to stop our CD activity. The sad thing is, I can't even remember the last time my wife has even been in a dress. She usually is in pant suits. Kinda like Hillary Clinton. It's not lying, no more than being a real life agent, they too have to protect identity and secrets. I know my wife doesn't tell me everything that goes on in her days at the offices, etc.

Don't give in or up.

Brothers in America.

Steveanna