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Guest Esperanza Xochitl

"finish My Pain"

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Guest Esperanza Xochitl

If my tears fall you've taken too much

You've taken my heart and my touch

Now this time you've walked all the way

No turning around, nothing to say

But I won't let you have my tears

Now that you took my heart

And as the mess clears

I must do my part

My part will be to finish my pain

Leaving the world my blood stain

Something more permenent than salt

And blood can be my fault

You can blame me this time

As blood is easier than tears

And the heart that was mine

Will be forever yours

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Guest ~Brenda~

Dearest,

What a powerful poem.

Love you

Brenda

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Guest Esperanza Xochitl

Depression is a powerful thing. Especially when heavily exacerbated with a break up. I'll probably do even more irrational things than usual, but it's in my nature I guess.

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Guest ~Brenda~

Depression is a powerful thing. Especially when heavily exacerbated with a break up. I'll probably do even more irrational things than usual, but it's in my nature I guess.

I have been though many a breakup. Each time, I think, that I will never find someone that I could ever fall in love with again. I am proven wrong everytime. Without even expecting it, you find new love :)

HUGS

Brenda

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Guest Esperanza Xochitl

Well I was going to do something stupid, reckless, self-destructive and permenent last night but ended up passing out on my living room floor in my apartment that I've turned upside down. Today I'm going to try something positive that involves no substances. I'm going to clean my disaster zone of an apartment.

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Well I was going to do something stupid, reckless, self-destructive and permenent last night but ended up passing out on my living room floor in my apartment that I've turned upside down. Today I'm going to try something positive that involves no substances. I'm going to clean my disaster zone of an apartment.

Honey....

I read your poem and I understood it all too well...

I'm happy that you're here today to clean your apartment.....

LOVE

Donna Jean

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Guest Esperanza Xochitl

Honey....

I read your poem and I understood it all too well...

I'm happy that you're here today to clean your apartment.....

LOVE

Donna Jean

You did understand it. I can tell.

Well, I got almost halfway but I had done quite the job messing it all up. I tend to be self-destructive anyhow but what was not-so-good anyhow was exacerbated by the break up. I often feel that living is more effort than it's worth.

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I often feel that living is more effort than it's worth.

But you know that living is truely worth all of the effort. To feel joy, love, carress, as well as pain is what living is all about.

Not living is nothing. Without life, there is no joy, there is no love.

Breakups are very hard, but you do move on (believe me, I know). The day will come when you are in love again :)

Brenda

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But you know that living is truely worth all of the effort. To feel joy, love, carress, as well as pain is what living is all about.

Not living is nothing. Without life, there is no joy, there is no love.

Breakups are very hard, but you do move on (believe me, I know). The day will come when you are in love again :)

Brenda

I do wish to be inlove again but that is still scaryI don't want my heart to be hurt ever again. I get the feeling she broke up with me because I'm not very easy to deal with. She still thinks I'm "really attractive" and that made me feel more dehumanized like she was dating me for my body. But I really felt she was the one who was going to keep me.

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