Another Setback

[Guest therisa]

This morning, I heard news, which I did not want to hear, when I inquired about day-programs to help deal with my anxiety issues, at a local hospital. Should have realized that it would act, as a stresser for me, and my glucose reading for this afternoon. Boosting the test results into uncomfortable levels for me, after nearly a week of fighting to get them back down to normal range. Faced with the news, i have to deal with my doctor on this issue, has my body tied up in knots and I do not like this, one bit.

I know, he will write the referral letter that I need for my admittance in these day-programs, but the thought of facing him, against, is not something, which I relish doing on September 1st. It is like having to beg from the bully, who has been beating you up for the past year, a favour, which will given, but a cost to you. Is the price worth and justify the cost, of the end product for me? Not sure, but I need know first, before placing myself, at his mercy of transphobia, again.

Have been through too much to snare myself, into another trap that I could have prevented, from happening. Grr. Just my freaking rotten luck, and it stinks, to high heaven.

[Carolyn Marie]

Therisa, if I understand you correctly, the news you didn't want to hear is that you must go back to your doctor for your referral letter into the day-care program.

Hon, I know that every setback is a huge stressor for you. But you said yourself that you're sure he will write the referral, so you should have at least a degree of confidence that you will get that which you need. Its just one more hoop, hon. You can do this.

Is seeing him and asking him for the referral worth the cost? I don't know the answer, hon. You obviously want to get into this program, and if this is the only way to get what you want and need, then you have to gather your strength and your resolve and just do it.

We have to jump through so many hoops. Some are so hard, its tough to even think about them. Coming out to loved ones is one, coming out at work another, getting those first appointments with therapists and doctors another. I know its very hard for you, but we are here to help you find the strength you need.

Please PM me if you want to, and lets talk about it.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[JJ]

Theria,

I am so sorry that this has come up for you but since it has look at it this way-every time his attitude prevents you from doing or getting what you need his transphobia and bigoted ways win. He wins.

Don't let that happen. He is in the wrong. Not you. So hold your head up and look the creep in the eye. I know that is hard for you. But I also know it will make you feel much better and stronger.

Refuse to be victim any longer. You are making real progress-it shows-and you can handle this too. Each thing you do makes you stronger, opens up more doors in your life. Thre will be some setbacks but the important thing is to keep moving forward and getting what you need to make the life you want-and deerve!!

Love

JohnJ

[Guest Opal]

Hi Therisa,

Just wanted to let you know I have you in my thoughts, and thank you for your support with my recent issue. Maybe a miracle will happen and he will actually act somewhat decent this time.

Huggs,

Opal

[Guest Donna Jean]

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Therisa....

Listen, Honey.....

It's all about goals....

You have a goal that you want to achieve ...the center...

We all have to do things that are unpleasant or that we just don't want to do to reach our goals...

If I want that new Corvette, I'll have to go and work in some job everyday...and I may hate that job...but, it will help me get that 'Vette...

Just like transitioning...all of the things that we have to do to get where we want/need to go..

And, like JJ said...you don't have to cave to that guy...look him in the eye and make your wishes known..bigot, homophobe or not!

Honey...I've seen you grow stronger....put it to use.....OK?

(what is it with Corvettes today?)

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest therisa]

Sigh.

[Guest therisa]

Just an update here, my nurse won't be back until September 7th, almost a week after I have to my doc. Grr. Somewhere, someone is laughing at me, right now.