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Here on Laura’s Playground

When a moderator cries

When a commentator sighs

When the membership tells lies

Here on Laura’s Playground

Can a moderator ever cope

When that moderator is so sad

Herself - Himself so very sad

When we are so very sad

Here on Laura’s Playground

How’s a moderator gonna cope?

On sucha dang ole slippery slope

Sometimes we can’t, sometimes we don’t

Here on Laura’s Playground

Lizzy

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Aw, Elizabeth, such a sad poem.

Mods are only human, hon. We suffer the same, we have the same needs, we have the same desires,

hopes and dreams as all others here, because we are just like everyone else...

We're trans.

I'll try to talk to you later, sweet lady.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Oh my,

I hope everything ok Lizzy. This poem speaks volumes. As to one who is not able to cope or share there feeling. Moderator or not everyone should be able to share there thoughts and get help as well.

I hope all is well with all the forum and chat moderators as well as everyone here at Laura's. I want to thank each and every member for being here and sharing your thoughts , hopes, fears, dreams and stories of there loves. Most of all I would like to that all the forum and chat moderator,s for not only do all those thong but also working to keep things going smooth. Anyhow I have rambled long enough.

(Hugs)

Love

Kalie

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Guest Donna Jean

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We come here and put on our game face...

We read every single pain, misery and grief of everyone else and try to make it better...

We're human, Lizzy....

We hurt, too....

And like a cup, we can only hold so much and then it spills over...

I understand, Honey.....I really do....

Donna Jean

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Wait, so us moderators don't have superpowers that make us immune to emotion after all? That's disappointing.

I defo know what you mean, even us mods get down. It would be good if we could be immune to emotions sometimes....

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Sometimes when you are the one who is supportive all the time it is hard to then express your own pain and sorrow.

But even so there is love and support and comfort here.

I love you and hope you are not sad!

JohnJ

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Guest Katrina Reann

Elizabeth,

I know the job that all of you mods do is not always easy. We all have our fun and games here and laugh together. But what I love so much about you and all the mods here is that you all care for everyone that comes in here. And all of you make a difference. I know you and others have made a huge difference in my life and I know many other will and can say the same. What many of us don't see is the job you do behind the scenes of these forums. Such as the suicide prevention, major depression cases that are not dealt with in the public forums. I know it must not be easy and I can only imagine what you and the others go through. And I also know some of those cases don't work out for the best or just absolutely heartbreaking. But you and all the staff have prevented a lot of people from taking their own lives, you have helped many to discover and accept themselves, and you have guide many out of depression and into the happiness of transitioning into the man or woman they have been their whole lives. And that is what you need to focus on when you are feeling down. You are a beautiful woman Liz, with a caring and very giving heart. And I don't know where I would be right now if it were not for you and others here at Laura's. And maybe you can't discuss the things that go on behind the scenes but you can draw strength and comfort to carry on from me and all those you help along the way. I hope something I have said here lifts your spirit and gives some strength and courage to carry on...Luv ya' Sis...Huggsss...Katrina

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Elizabeth, it's your display of emotions to all of us, which makes this, a place of healing, for those of us, ready to embrace the next step. You have helped me upon this journey, more than I can express to you. Alogn with the other mods, here.

Merci

therisa

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I can only imagine the stress and responsibility that is put on the moderators, kind of like parenting.

Hope tomorrow (Friday) is better, and a wonderful weekend awaits you.

Huggs,

Opal

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