Just Another Day

[Guest therisa]

November is

Fast approaching it’s end

As the flooding of ads

Has started.

Yet for me

The coming holiday season

Means only

Isolation and rejection

From my family.

Oh I know

My mom will try

To phone me

On my cellphone.

Not realizing the charges

I will face

If I answer her call

Even though

I have told her

Repeatedly so.

Although friends

Have made offers

It’s not the same

As sharing it

Surrounded by family.

Yet

I refuse to

Stay in a place

Where I am treated

As a non-entity.

Unable to leave

Because

Her house is

In a rural town

Without any access to

Bus or train routes

Should I need to.

Come December 25th

Venus Squeak and I

Will silently celebrate

Together.

[Flint]

Being on my own at Christmas with just animals sounds like bliss to me.

[Guest therisa]

Yeah, I miss having the family on that day, though, Matthias. Just feel the same, whether you have your dog, or Venus and Squeak, for me.

therisa

[JJ]

Many of us feel the pain of losses in this season for many reasons. I was ambushed and grieving yesterday by a wave of homesickness for my home and family at the holidays. But my parents are dead; my home is inhabited by strangers and I am not strong enough to ever look on it again when it is no longer home.

BUT I will fight to retain the spirit of the season -so like the spirit of love and generosity here-and share my day with those I do have. It's hard-I usually sneak away for a brief cry -but I will not surrender to it or let it lessen the beauty of a season when in addition to all the commercial stuff people do try to bring a little more love and generosity into a world that so badly needs it.

Hugs

John

[Guest therisa]

Christmas used to mean gathering around my Opa and Oma place. Everybody tried to be there, even the family members living out-of-province and country, too. I am talking about 24 other first cousins and my uncles and aunts. There was always food left over from the huge feast assembled there. Sadly, those days are now distant memories for me. I understand, what you are telling me, John, but the ghosts of Christmas Past come bearing too memories for me. As it must for you, John.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

Have to thought about answering her call, and then calling her right back on a regular phone with a calling card, or something like Skype ?

<<<< hug >>>>

vanna

[Guest therisa]

Vanna, my mom doesn't get or want to understand, I am her daughter. To her, I am her eldest son. Besides, talking to her, is very stressful for me. I don't need more stress in my life, it's stressful enough.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

Vanna, my mom doesn't get or want to understand, I am her daughter. To her, I am her eldest son. Besides, talking to her, is very stressful for me. I don't need more stress in my life, it's stressful enough.

therisa

I am sorry to hear that therisa,

<<<< hug >>>>

It seems like it is always hardest for parents to accept us.

Probably because they think they have known us for most all of our life.

The more people think they know you, the more they tend to judge you, and think they know what you are or should be.

vanna

[Guest therisa]

Sadly, that's life for some of us, who are members of the Transcommunity. You don't realize how much I envy you and your wife, having that special bond together.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

Sadly, that's life for some of us, who are members of the Transcommunity. You don't realize how much I envy you and your wife, having that special bond together.

therisa

I wish i could tell you it is all puppies and ice cream

But it isn't

Most of the time i wonder where we are headed

<<<<< hug >>>>>

vanna

[Guest therisa]

But you have that bond, which counts more than you know. You will find a way to make things work out. Have faith in yourself, Vanna. Marriage is, an union of compromises on both sides. Ok, will have to hide Miss "Sunshine", before she ruins my "dark" rep, for writing gloomy poetry.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

I do love her so, and i know she still loves me.

When your married you have to learn about boundaries.

She is what is holding me back.

I am stuck in the middle, and to continue forward will cost me her

I don't think i can pay that price

<<<< hug >>>>>

vanna

[Guest therisa]

Vanna, there is no right or wrong way, in how you transition. Only that you feel comfortable with the changes, to your body. I don't think any less of you, if you never get SRS. For its not for everybody. Dang Vanna, you're starting to rub off on me.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

Dang Vanna, you're starting to rub off on me.

therisa

I hope that is a good thing

of course i want SRS , I want the whole dream

<<<< hug >>>>>

vanna

[Guest therisa]

Vanna, in the very best way, possible. As for the other part in your life, I have faith you will make the right decision, both for your heart and body. Only wish, things were easier for you, a kind-hearted woman, not matter what.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

Vanna, in the very best way, possible. As for the other part in your life, I have faith you will make the right decision, both for your heart and body. Only wish, things were easier for you, a kind-hearted woman, not matter what.

therisa

Thank you

<<<< hug >>>>

I have till i die to get it done

miss kindheart

[Guest therisa]

Your welcome, Vanna.

therisa