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All this time I've blamed the wrong person, me

when I should blame you

all the worthless hordes come in

treat me like im trash

well I've got news for you

You are quite lucky

I don't kill you

when I make you food,

Slip in that lye

watch you bleed choke and die

when im opening that box

you scream your venom

box cutter in hand,

bloody sliced throat in yours

I didn't

and do you know why?

because I forgive you

for all your trespasses against me

I forgive you

because I hold the one card of win

you are nothing more than vermin

when I step on you to move forward

I feel no remorse

when you crush a bug

do you feel pity?

you don't, nor do I when I stamp you out

when I rise

You better fear

I really do hate people. Here's a word of warning people. When you come in to a store and treat us bad because you feel bad, don't hold out hope we don't snap and kill you. More and more lately im feeling like a caged dog people are poking. Im losing my humanity and my compassion for this lesser species. We hold so much pride in ourselves when we are nothing but trash, a blemish upon the earth. I wish I could erase us all. I hate us.

I feel so angry, so sad, so down and all because human garbage treats me like im some thorn in their side. Oh and when you get offered a plus sell, don't call me an annoying fa ggot. Because its my job you mook. I don't make commission. You know what I get? A peed customer and to keep my job for another damned day..

I wish my life would end already...

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I can sympathize with you, Milly. I've worked in the service industry too and I'm all too familiar with goobers being in your face, cussing you out for no good reason. Treating you like dirt. Why? Just because they can. Not because you did anything wrong. If it's at all possible, Milly, I'd look for another job. You shouldn't have to put up with their crap.


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Guest therisa

MaryEllen speaks the truth, Milly. I could never last in a sale position, just too much anger to deal without a healthy outlet. Hoping you can find a new job which treats you, with respect and dignity, you deserve.


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Dear Milly,

<<<< hug >>>>

Please try and let go of this anger :blink:

It won't help you at all, and it actually might hurt you one day :(

I can understand having such feeling from time to time :unsure:

But I think that sometimes it is best to keep them private -_-

Take care sweet heart :wub:

:wub: vanna

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