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:rolleyes: Kia Ora,

What about you???

Sometime we are focus too much on 'oneself'...

:D Happy Mindfulness :)

Metta Zenda :)

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Carolyn Marie

Kia Ora, Zenda.

Yes, you are back, and as always, your message is one of peace and love and being thoughtful.

All of us who spend time on this site, offering support and friendship to others, are saying "what about you." I think that's why

I like this place so much.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Puppy Girl

Zenda,

LOVE this! It made my day. We all need more love in our lives. :)

Thank you for making me smile. :D

-Puppy

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Guest Zenda

Kia Ora Puppy,

You're welcome!

"Om Mani Padma Hum!

What we 'seek' we are! And always have been !

Happy Mindfulness ^_^

Metta Zenda :)

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Michelle 2010

Kia Ora Puppy,

You're welcome!

"Om Mani Padma Hum!

What we 'seek' we are! And always have been !

Happy Mindfulness ^_^

Metta Zenda :)

Just got around to listening to this. Very cool! Thanks for sharing.

Michelle

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Guest Zenda

Kia Ora Michelle,

You're welcome!

:rolleyes:

It does make one 'think more about what they are thinking about :harhar:' ...

Metta Zenda

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Michelle 2010

Kia Ora Michelle,

You're welcome!

:rolleyes:

It does make one 'think more about what they are thinking about :harhar:' ...

Metta Zenda

I've forwarded it to a number of carefully screened friends and relatives, leaving out only the "terminally self absorbed",

figuring they wouldn't get it anywaydoh1.gif

Peace

Michelle

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Guest lisa49

Entanglement, when two atomic particles communicate instantaneously and complement each other no matter what the distance. The mind is a product of the quantum world where the origin of thought is in harmony with the energy reflection of your entangled quantum.

Those thoughts of anger only bring more of the same back to you.

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Michelle 2010

Kinda like "What goes round comes round"?

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Guest lisa49

Kinda like "What goes round comes round"?

Ancient beliefs such as prayer and karma have some scientific status as the mind is not just inside the brain. Even the string theory suggests information travel in another dimension. These things are a long way from an experiment results but have potential to be researched. Humans have much to learn about how the consciousness works.

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Guest Lacey Lynne

Entanglement, when two atomic particles communicate instantaneously and complement each other no matter what the distance. The mind is a product of the quantum world where the origin of thought is in harmony with the energy reflection of your entangled quantum.

Those thoughts of anger only bring more of the same back to you.

Kia Ora, Zenda!

Our friend, whose quote I've highlighted above, in fact has it EXACTLY right!

They change we so desire to see in the world, to go from greed and grab to care and share, can ONLY happen when people finally say, "Enough!" We must do so peacefully, but unitedly and relentlessly. We must stand up to those ruling and running the world. They do so in secrecy. The politicians and corporate executives are merely their servants and DO NOT REALLY run things. The Ruling & Owning Class does.

The world they've built for centuries is based on The Seven Deadly Sins of antiquity. Only when we remake our word based on The Seven Saintly Virtues will anything REALLY any change and not until then.

The powers that be DELIBERATELY create a hell-hole, law-of-the-jungle, dog-eat-dog world rife with fear for our very survival so as to control us. That's what they all about: Control. We do their work. We buy their junk. We are their slaves and cannon fodder. The exquisitely guilty in the world as we know it now are The Owners and The Enforcers. Activist artist David Dees BRILLIANTLY portrays the world as we know it right here with a single picture:

cabal_chess1.jpg

The Rulers hide their identities, hide their plans and hide much else. Why? Because, they KNOW we, the people, way, way, way outnumber them and that if we ever caught on to what they're doing to us, by dint of sheer numbers, we could stop their evil ways. Make no mistake:

The Ruling Class IS evil. They are satanists. Doubt it not.

We can sing songs for change ... do videos for change ... preach for change; however, until we peacefully confront The Ruling Class and their enforcers peacefully, incessantly and en mass, we will NEVER change a thing.

Have any of you noticed that their control is tightening around us exponentially and ever faster? All those cameras you see everywhere are NOT for your safety. They have cameras and listening devices you cant even see ... zillions of them.

I'm crazy? Oh? Debate anyone?

Metta, Zenda :friends: Lacey Lynne

Postscript:

The Mahatma Ghandi: Did it right!

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Guest Gregg Jameson

Hi Zenda,

Thanks for sharing this video!

"Happiness is the heart being free."

Yes! We've too often conspired to forfeit our own freedom, albeit unconsciously.

We so often imprison ourselves with our thoughts, emotions, habits, our self-doubt.

We must learn to free ourselves and allow ourselves to enjoy this freedom in our lives, our hearts, our souls.

Such joy!

To Our Freedom!

Brad

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