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One of the great things about our large community is that we can spot trends quickly. We then try to scramble to meet the need. Recently in chat we discovered that the amount of Transsexual Transgender users that are cutters or self abusers has skyrocketed. While the problem has always been there it is epidemic in our teens. Obviously something has to be done. As we discovered in our suicide prevention crisis rooms it's up to our community to help ourselves as no one is going to do it for us. I have started a support group for cutters to be held online in the chat rooms starting next week Saturday at 8PM EST time.

This explains it some but doesn't include transgendered. It is just general info. “I Keep Cutting Myself and I Can't Stop!” http://www.coolnurse.com/self-injury.htm .

One 20 year old FTM did find a solution that worked for him. He takes a LOOSE FITTING rubber band and places it on his wrist. Then when he feels the urge to cut himself he snaps the rubber band. It works for him. Some use it to quit smoking and other addictions. I'm not endorsing this just presenting it as is.

Laura

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pennyjane

thank you laura. i, too, have heard some pretty good ancedotal evidence that this can be an effective distraction from the actual cutting. this is not uncommon behavior among people who have been seriously abused in their childhoods. but psychoanalysis does present a reasonably good prognosis for long them treatment. talking is almost always good therapy so i applaud your new feature in chat. God bless us all. lotsa love and hope, pj

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Guest Eliot

One thing that helped me stop cutting/doing other forms of si was holding on to ice cubes. They're cold enough to give that pain that one gets addicted to, but don't scar, just melt. Plus, as long as one holds on to something, it's not possible to pick up something else. In the time that it takes the cube to melt, the impulse usually goes away.

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Guest SharleahLynn
One thing that helped me stop cutting/doing other forms of si was holding on to ice cubes. They're cold enough to give that pain that one gets addicted to, but don't scar, just melt. Plus, as long as one holds on to something, it's not possible to pick up something else. In the time that it takes the cube to melt, the impulse usually goes away.

A nice remedy if it would work for everyone , but as we all know , everyone has different levels and it takes different ways to squash the urge. As it is said , what works for you may not work for another . All remedies are worth trying.

SharleahLynn

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Guest SharleahLynn

Boss ,

This is a great addition to the site. We now have to try and get the people that cut , to open up enough to come join in . Just maybe we can reduce the amount of cutting . Count me in on trying to help on this.

SharleahLynn

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A nice remedy if it would work for everyone , but as we all know , everyone has different levels and it takes different ways to squash the urge. As it is said , what works for you may not work for another . All remedies are worth trying.

SharleahLynn

The methods are certainly worth trying though for those who are cutters. They cause no harm. I'd bet they will benefit many. Therapists suggest these kinds of methods as well as others.

Laura

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One 20 year old FTM did find a solution that worked for him. He takes a LOOSE FITTING rubber band and places it on his wrist. Then when he feels the urge to cut himself he snaps the rubber band. It works for him. Some use it to quit smoking and other addictions. I'm not endorsing this just presenting it as is.

Laura

My sis tried that with her cutting, and she found that it chaffed up her arm pretty bad (or something like that). Though I think that happened because she would pull it all the way back and then snap it, probably until the rubberband broke or something.

When I had the urge to cut myself (I never actaully cut myself, so maybe my methods work <.<), I cut up a pencil instead. That actually worked pretty well because I pretty much channeled all my emotions into that pencil. I guess cut up is an understatement, by the end of that pencil (which took a few nights/incidents if i remember right) it was in two or more pieces that looked like bark or something.

~Mani

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Guest karen_h

this addition to the room has been long needed we have discussed this before laura and i'm glad that we have a mod for it and the room is now open

hugs karen

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Nick J

Channeling your frustration into other objects is how I managed to stop myself for doing it, and what's funny is that I have cut up many a pencil too.

Congrats on the addition of the new room - fantastic idea!

-Nick

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Guest x-Steph-x

I applaud this idea. (a rare occasion) It's unfortunate that many transgendered people, or anyone for that matter, would mutilate themselves.

I, too, used to cut myself. (for only one year, thank God)

I was put in therapy for a few months and on anti-depressants. (Even on a-d's, I would still hurt myself.)

If there was one thing I learned, it was that cutting myself was a way I expressed my depression. Of course, cutting myself was a bad thing for me, it consumed me. I had to express my depression in another way, before my mother would put me in the mental hospital.

I would draw (I can't draw :P), I would write in a journal, I would talk to a my SO, and other things. (The rubber band thing didn't work for me.)

Hope that helped, even the littlest bit.

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Guest Colleen

Glad we have a chat starting up...I'll try to visit, but I tend to not be home at any of the scheduled times (Saturday night for teenagers is always iffy).

I'll add to our growing list of anti-cutting strategies. Shredding paper or snapping thin pieces of woods sometimes vents the anger or destructive feelings, if that's an issue. As for the longing for pain, buy a can of compressed air (sold in office supply stores to clean keyboards and other hard to reach parts of computers), and just hold down the trigger. The can becomes cold very fast. It's much more painful than ice, but as far as I can tell from my usage, still non harmful (it turns your hand red for a few minutes). It's a bit more expensive than the ice method, but possibly worth your while.

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Guest A Girl

Never cut, but used to bite my lips as a teenager 'til they bled and hurt so bad I couldn't stand it. It really wasn't biting, more a peeling away the skin layer by layer, until they were raw and bleeding. They would hurt for days. Then for some reason, I switched to biting my tongue until it was raw and I could taste blood, but very slowly, the tiniest of little razor sharp bites, over and over. Even now, when I'm really stressed i guess, I'll catch myself starting. Guess it's a distraction for when I'm feeling really overwhelmed.

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Guest RootsRadicals

I myself do not cut myself although I have thought about it and come close a couple of times. I do have friends that do and It worries me. However I shall show them that website and that ice cube Idea sounds great! So I'll tell them about that. I don't like seeing my friends hurt themselves.

I don't like seeing anyone hurt themselves.

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Flint

I've been a self harmer for 3 years now maybe a bit longer, it was hidden for a whlole year till i got rushed to hospital one night and the doctors found the cuts, then i got transfered too a phyciatric ward they suggested the rubber band thing i tried it but it didn't really work with me. In many ways i'm cutting to live i suppose. i'm sure i'd do something much worse if i didn't.

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Guest SharleahLynn

Owning up to having a problem with self harm (cutting) is just half the fight. Being willing to repair the problem is the largest challenge to face.As well as actually making the effort to make it past any and all urges to do self harm (cutting). Any and all remedies are well worth trying just to see what would work for you yourself as long as you can stop the harmfull acts .

SharleahLynn

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Guest Alexander

I self harm and have for 8 years now. But I don't see it as a problem because it doesn't hurt anyone - and before you say it, no it doesn't hurt me. I've tried rubber bands, but it isn't enough. I've never required medical treatment, since I don't cut very deep at all - just shallow surface cuts. I also used to use hot glue or candle wax, but I haven't done that in a few years. I guess what I wanted to say is that I don't have a problem with my own self-abuse. It's a better addiction than any others.

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Guest grein

I've been self-harming myself for almost seven years and i haven't in a couple months. I've tried to stop cold turkey but now I have been wanting to so much lately. The first time I stopped I did it in my sleep, how, I don't know. The rubberband never worked for me, because i would do it until it breaked. I will try the ice cube thing, though. Hopefully I can get help in here and make some new friends :]

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I self harm and have for 8 years now. But I don't see it as a problem because it doesn't hurt anyone - and before you say it, no it doesn't hurt me. I've tried rubber bands, but it isn't enough. I've never required medical treatment, since I don't cut very deep at all - just shallow surface cuts. I also used to use hot glue or candle wax, but I haven't done that in a few years. I guess what I wanted to say is that I don't have a problem with my own self-abuse. It's a better addiction than any others.

sounds similar to me...Nothing else works, but cutting.....altho i have had to have medical treatment for cuts on several occasions, so it would probs eb best i stopped...but to be honest cutting is keeping me alive right now..

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Zufrieden

I had never heard of "cutting" until I read this topic.

The subject is very foreign to me as I get bummed out if I get a paper cut.

There's a young woman, maybe 17, who comes into our business. She wears goth style clothes with short sleeves.

The inside of her left arm from wrist to bicep is criss-crossed with literally hundreds of deep scratches.

It's clear from the limited interaction that I have had with her that she's got major problems.

I've gone out of my way to be extra nice to her, nobody at work likes to deal with her at all.

I don't know whether her parading of her wounds is trying to be ultra-goth or screaming for help.

So, do cutters show off their wounds?

How can you help somebody who you really have nothing to do with?

Z.

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Self Injury

The Scarred Soul: Understanding & Ending Self-Inflicted Violence (1997) - Tracy Alderman * Amazon * Library

A Bright Red Scream: Self-Mutilation and the Language of Pain (1999) - Marilee Strong * Amazon * Library

The complete and up-to-date book list can be found on My Website.

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Flint
I had never heard of "cutting" until I read this topic.

The subject is very foreign to me as I get bummed out if I get a paper cut.

There's a young woman, maybe 17, who comes into our business. She wears goth style clothes with short sleeves.

The inside of her left arm from wrist to bicep is criss-crossed with literally hundreds of deep scratches.

It's clear from the limited interaction that I have had with her that she's got major problems.

I've gone out of my way to be extra nice to her, nobody at work likes to deal with her at all.

I don't know whether her parading of her wounds is trying to be ultra-goth or screaming for help.

So, do cutters show off their wounds?

How can you help somebody who you really have nothing to do with?

Z.

From what i know/heard/ expereinced...cut's are normally hidden....some people do show them....dunno why....sometimes it's because tehy are crying for help sometimes it's a 'fashion statement' i dont see how it can be a fashion statement myself but some people do it for this apparently but often i beleieve tehre is a reason they do it even if it is a fashion statemnt. In alot of cases i know of including myself self harmers tend to go at great lengths to hide it. They only reason i got found out was because i ended up in hospital and they found my cuts...even then i tried to find a way to hide them. i think most people who show them are cyring for help...of some sort........

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I had never heard of "cutting" until I read this topic.

The subject is very foreign to me as I get bummed out if I get a paper cut.

There's a young woman, maybe 17, who comes into our business. She wears goth style clothes with short sleeves.

The inside of her left arm from wrist to bicep is criss-crossed with literally hundreds of deep scratches.

It's clear from the limited interaction that I have had with her that she's got major problems.

I've gone out of my way to be extra nice to her, nobody at work likes to deal with her at all.

I don't know whether her parading of her wounds is trying to be ultra-goth or screaming for help.

So, do cutters show off their wounds?

How can you help somebody who you really have nothing to do with?

Z.

No, I don't believe most do. The ones who do it for some sort of self-gratification hide them.

The people who show them usually want help, attention, friends, or want to be a part of the trend.

And it's on her left, eh?

(Most gothic cutters I knew were left handed. I did my deed with my left hand...at least mostly. It's not easy to hide them sometimes.)

How to help? Someone told on me. And I got therapy. Try to talk to the person, sit with the person. Even if she pushes you away, she will know that someone does somewhat care about her.

Just try. That's all I can say.

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Guest Mr. Fox

Ever since I was a kid, I used to self-injure when I was angry, but I worked out those issues and I haven't felt the desire to self-injure in months. There are still scars, but not very noticeable ones because I couldn't get a knife, I used a seam ripper(those things can actually draw a little blood if you really press hard, but not nearly so much as something sharp).

For me, the action was as important as the pain, so a rubber band method would not work for me. If it doesn't work for you either, switch from a knife to a seam ripper to minimize scarring. Everybody should reflect a lot to get the the root of the problem. Even if you don't SI, go contemplate. You'll be amazed at the things you learn.

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Guest eragon

what I found usefull to stop is some good ole fashioned crayola markers, it makes it feel like Im doing damage by useing them on my skin but dosent have the grand reprocussions of actual si

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For me, the action was as important as the pain, so a rubber band method would not work for me. If it doesn't work for you either, switch from a knife to a seam ripper to minimize scarring.

i managed to rubber band my wrist until i bled :(

i *hope* i'm getting over it now

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