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Guest Kallum

Back to an old habit...

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Guest Kallum

I know i shouldnt have cut...

but i did

I know that cutting is not the answer...

but it helps

I know it will hurt my family...

but at the moment i dont care

It had been a very long time...

set the days back to zero

I hate my body...

it deserves this

It doesnt hurt...

but it leaves scars

I can deal with physical injuries...

so i use them to replace the emotional ones

Thes cuts werent deep...

but they can be

I HATE MY BODY AND MY LIFE

I DONT KNOW HOW LONG I CAN GO ON LIKE THIS

I THOUGHT I COULD WAIT 2 YEARS TO TRANSITION...

BUT NOW IM NOT SURE

:hairpull: Kal

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Guest Donna Jean

.AWwwwww, Kal....

And you were doing so good.......

Let me ask you ....have you ever been over to chat?

There are people there to talk to you in real time when you feel this way....give it a try, ok?

Huggs

Dee Jay

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Guest Krisina

Kallum, I'm sorry to hear you are feeling depressed. If you need someone to talk to like Dee Jay said there is the chat room. You can talk to people in live time. There are crisis rooms for just that whenyou need help and need to talk in real time in chat. It involves a separate sign up process but it is really helpful.

I hope you feel better soon today Kallum.

Krisina

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Guest Kallum

Thanks for the advice iw ent on the chat directly after i finished writing this post and got some help.

Next time hopefully i'll remember to try it before i cut!

:friends: Everyone on this site are brilliant and amazing people.

Kal

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Guest Amethyst_Redemption

Okay, so the clean slate timer started over, but just think, in the last.... you have only cut once. In twice that it will still only be once. Look at you go. You are doing so great. Amazing.

April

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Guest Irielle

Kallum - thanks for reaching out and telling us what you are going through. You have many people here who have gone and are going through the same thing so you are NOT alone! I cut myself tonight but stopped. I don't have the urge as much anymore but sometimes I just have the urge. I started coming back to Laura's after a long time away and I'm really glad I did. Be well and take good care of yourself because it WILL get better!

Iri

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Guest Kallum

Amethyst: 3 days without cutting :thumbsup:

Irielle: thanks for the support! i used to cut a lot more than i do now and the urge is not as strong. Occasionally though I slip up, but now I have friends i can talk to and the awesome advice for everyone on Laura's

:friends: thanks everyone

Kal

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~Nova~

:)

Let's shoot for 101 years

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Guest angels wings

Yeah gd on u mate :) u can do this . U surely have friends here at Laura's . I'm so glad u went to chat gd on you. You can always count on a friend here .keep up the gd work 101 days yeahhhhhh like ~Nova~ said lets go for 101 years woooohooooo u can do it mate

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