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Hello everyone,

my preferred name is Stephanie even though I havnt really adopted it yet :S. I guess I should start off by saying I have been to this site numerous times over the past few years, and finnally decided to make an account. So about me hmmm, well I am 22 and I guess I have had a difficult life, in my opinion anyways. I guess the first time I really knew that I might be transexual, I think I was like ummm 18. I ended up researching everything I could find, including lots of personal stories alot from this site. I went through the whole denial thing, and out of all things decided to join the military. Thought it would give me all those "masculine traits" I was lacking, that backfired horribly. I think basic might of the worst experiences in my life :(. I was always the emotional kid in my family, though I am not going to get into that here way too complicated lol, but needless to say I broke down alot in basic. In basic is when I finnally accepted it, I even confided to a friend I had made there, she was rather supportive. I continued on in the military, it wasn't smooth by any means but I made it through. I started seeing a psychologist which didn't help, rather contorted viewpoints. I ended up getting posted and finnally got to see a gender therapist, he was good. But I ended up having problems with military life that couldn't be ignored anymore and got out I guess at the end of October. Kinda a mixed blessing, I get to grow my hair out :) but I am now without a therapist and kinda stuck :( its really starting to get to me. Like I am on Spiro, been on it since July but ya. Which I guess brings me back to making this account, I am getting so down on life right now and just need an out. Maybe meet some interesting people in the process :).

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Hi Stephanie, welcome to the Playground! You have come to a good place, and we have some neighbors of yours here that post about the Canadian health care system and their successes and pratfalls in it regularly. Please read the Rules and Guidelines forum if you have not done so. We do moderate the forum to protect the members, and the R&G, also known as the Terms and Conditions which you can link to from the bottom right hand corner of every forum page are the standards we use to approve the posts. The members here are from age 13 ot 65+ but we try and keep it so its OK for the teen's parents to read. You can reply to a post anywhere in the forums, and post your own topics in the best suited forums, you have two more years you can start a post in the Teens Forum, so that one is open to you too. Enjoy and make use of this place.

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Guest chngnwnd

Welcome, Stephanie. You can get a lot of support here - it is not the same as a therapist - but it helps. It was a lifeboat for me when I lived in an area that wzs not TG friendly and had no community resources for us. I hope it can be as big a blessing for you as it was for me.


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Guest rita63

Welcome Stephanie Its good to see another Ontarian here there are a few of us. I have posted this link here befor, its for a trans group in S.W. Ont. and they may be able to help you find someone in your neighbourhood.

Nuts it doesn't want to copy, anyhow google the Alphabet Community and you should find it. If not try Pride in a city near you.

Have fun growing you'r hair out, I got my ears pierced too, makes me feel so femme.

Have fun hon

hugs rita

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Guest StephanieG

Thanks everyone :).

Also thanks for the info Rita, I looked it up. I will have to stop by there at some point :), used to live there and might be moving back soon. Was kinda having a problem finding any resources there. Ummm just a question do you happen to know if there at any GTs there?

O I'll definately enjoy growing out my hair I just wish it would grow quicker :). Ya I bet I used to have my ear pierced I loved it but it ended up healing :(. Well I'll fix that at some point, but ya thanks again :)

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Guest Mia J

Hello Stephanie and welcome to Laura's. We are happy to have you here with us.

Thanks for the great intro. You have come to the right place to be among others who feel like you do.

Looking forward to seeing your posts.


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Guest miss kindheart

Welcome Stephanie

<<< hug >>>

:wub: vanna

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