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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

So today was an interesting day. It started by me over sleeping. That's never a good thing. I wake up, respond to dispatch who was expecting me to be ready at 5am. Well here it is 8a and I have 25 messages on my in-truck computer and 3 voice mails wondering where the hell I am. I can't believe I slept that late, too. wow!

I get dressed and ready and drive over to Steak n Shake for breakfast. As they're making brekkie (I think that's a British term?) I scoot inside the bathroom and brush my teeth. Eat breakfast, head over to the terminal, get my paperwork. Load doesn't deliver until 9pm tonight. 300 miles away. Well I have a little time to kill. I go into the office and do my rounds of talking to office people that I know. I go back outside to the smoker's area and there's a trucker friend who I've met a few times before.

Now let me preface this by saying he knew me while I was only living part-time and one particular evening I was sitting outside with a few guys, and me in guy clothes, and a friend of mine pulls up and she goes "Liz!....Liz!" I didn't hear her but someone else did and they're like "Who's Liz?" So I try to play it off and say "I dunno but I see a pretty girl so I'm gonna go check it out!" Well one guy saw right through that..this guy who I'm talking about with today's event. He knows I'm transitioning.

Well today he saw me walking up to the smoker's area and he says "Hey there! How ya been?" We got to talking and he told me that when he first saw me, he didn't recognize me at first and he admitted he was checking me out. Then he realized it was me and he thought "Aw s***!" He asked if anyone around here knew about me and I told him no, and that I plan to keep it that way. He told me (and I believe him) that he will not tell anyone as it's none of his business. :)

I was telling him about the waitress at the truck stop in Santa Rosa and how she said I don't look like a truck driver. Well he confirmed that, no, I really don't. I told him I do that on purpose but it could also be why I have such a hard time getting anyone's attention for my pick ups or deliveries: they probably think I work in the office!

So my time at the terminal was filled with being referred to as she and her so of course I'm happy as a lark. I honestly cannot believe passing as a woman has been this easy for me. It makes me smile every day.

Later today I was in Napoleon OH at a truck stop that also has an Indian menu. Being how rare that it is I get to try the stuff, I stopped here for dinner. I was talking to the waitress (who was this cute little thing but I still contend she was wearing too much blush, but I digress) I was asking her about some of the menu items and what the differences are. She didn't know so she went to the back to ask the lady who actually cooks it. I over heard her say "(whatever the woman's name is)..there's this lady...." that's all I heard really. After I heard "there's this lady" I tuned out and went to my happy place to do a little victory dance in my head.

The rest of the day could have been lousy and it wouldn't matter based on those few events that happened earlier today. Actually part of the rest of my day was lousy but hearing I was referred to as "this lady" was the last happy moment in my head so I just replayed that a few times tonight.

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SMILES!!!!

From ear to ear, too!!

Thanks for uplifting report from the road. You simply amaze me...

Love and respect for you, m'lady!

:) S

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Guest Shari

I don't think I was wearing too much blush...

Ha ha, just kidding Liz.

You're adventures are so cool...driving around the country looking pretty.

Hugs,

Shari

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Lizzie

I absolutely love hearing about your adventures and experiences on the road. Please keep them coming. Stay safe on the road and if you ever head west on I-70 and are traveling through Columbia Mo, give me a shout. Katheryn

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Lizzie

I absolutely love hearing about your adventures and experiences on the road. Please keep them coming. Stay safe on the road and if you ever head west on I-70 and are traveling through Columbia Mo, give me a shout. Katheryn

Ya know...that was about 2-3 days ago.

I don't stop there because I think the closest truck stop is the one that has it's own show on Travel Channel that shows all the weird people that stop at the truck stop, so I'm not giving them the pleasure of getting me on that show.

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:)

We work so hard, worry so much and when it becomes a reality we wonder how it could possibly be that easy and fast

:D

Perception is a funny thing. But is is so worth it when we do get there! Glad you have reached that point

Johnny

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Guest LizMarie

Lizzie, your posts always make me smile. And they make me think forward to someday when I'll eventually be out full time. I plan to keep asking myself "What would Lizzie McTrucker do?" when faced with a tough spot, and then grin and do it! :D

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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

I plan to keep asking myself "What would Lizzie McTrucker do?" when faced with a tough spot, and then grin and do it! :D

That's pretty much it! Either grin and do it or grit your teeth and do it. Either way, the important thing is: just do it!

...uh, do I have to pay Nike for saying that?

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