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Unexpected Affirmation


JenniferB

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This Monday I went to work as Jennifer, and therefore living full time, for the first time. I took a chance and something happened I did not expect.

It's not something you can really describe without feeling it yourself. The best way I can describe it is a feeling of my soul filled with joy. The happiness I feel is indescribable. It's not an overpowering feeling, more like an inner comfort that radiates all over. I read it as telling me that it likes who I've become.

It's true I actually like myself now. I do not ever remember feeling this way. Others have noticed too. I've had a couple comments already this week on how much more confident I look. I feel confident. Even though the restrooms are a big annoyance, it seems like a small problem now in comparison to all the worry and fear.

All the self-doubt and lack of self-esteem is disappearing. I go to work in full makeup and will go tomorrow in some of my favorite female clothes. I'm living now how I've needed to live, and willing to take the lumps that go with it. Even if there is discrimination, it's amazing how light that load is when I am able to live as me. I'm actually taking a stand, for the first time, and consequently finding my courage. :) I told the policy makers what I felt, that I am a woman, and that there is no way I will do anything that feels contrary to this. At the end of our conversation I was told that the company might have to reexamine their policy on transgender guidelines. :) I didn't know I had the power to make a difference alone, especially at higher levels.

The wisdom I'm finding is when you are true to yourself, the fiery darts thrown your way may be smaller than you realize.

Is it worth it? YES! YES! YES! To put it another way. I find It far better to live true to myself with all its struggles and discrimination, and have to fight for my rights, than to live in fear and have to live a lie. The price of living in fear is too high.

With Love,

Jenny

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Guest Krisina

Jennifer.

It is nice for me to read your success as you move forward out of fear and doubt and have growing confidence. I know you had wanted to transition around December/January but that wasn't possible.

I am so glad that the company has to re evaluate their policies. You are making them realize how they are making people like yourself feel. If the policies don't work change is on its way.

I am very happy for you Jennifer :)

Krisina

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Guest Lacey Lynne

Jenny:

Permit me to chime in with Krisina and offer you hale and hearty approbation aplenty!

You're exactly right about everything you say, in my experience anyway. Most likely, you'll be okay at work. The bathroom issue will actually settle down once you become "old news" with everything. I've yet to have a single problem with using the ladies' restrooms, and, as you know, nobody on here was more concerned about that than me. It's been a non-brainer.

Carolyn Marie always said most of what we fear never happens, and, of course, she's right.

That joy you're talking about? That deep, visceral and spiritual joy? THAT'S the real deal! If you're feeling that, and you ARE, then this is right for you ... totally! That REALLY rocks!

Many of us on here know EXACTLY what you're feeling, and we can so relate!

Jenny, you're really rocking! Like you say, it IS worthe it! We're elated for you, girl!

Congrats, Jenny :friends::thumbsup::friends: Lacey Lynne

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Yay for Jenny!!!

It warms my heart to read such things, Jenny, you have come so far, you deserve this joy...

Drink it all in, girl, this is your new life beginning!

YAY!!!

:) Svenna

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Guest rikkicd64

Jenny, your the greatest, I am so happy for you, I wish you all the happiness in the world,for you have overcome Yea!!!

Rikki...

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Guest Risu

Jenny,

This is incredibly good news! I am thrilled to hear how things turned out! Eventually the bathrooms probably won't even be an issue! And I totally agree with you that living true to yourself with the discrimination and struggle is so much easier, happier and just plain better than living a lie. Living a lie is not living at all.

Now you are finally living.

I knew you could do it! Keep up the good work!

*Hugs*

~Jade.

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What a wonderful feeling you have given me. I'm so glad for you. The chance you took only brought peace and an inner comfort. wow, it can't but will get better. I've begun to experience the same thing as i travel in a world i used to dread.

HAPPY< HAPPY>

Hugs, Charlie

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