My earliest memories

[Guest Dominique11]

Good day all

I was thinking back the other day trying to descover when my transgender issue started.

I remember when I was in grade 5 I got my first pair of stockings and loved wearing them.

Then I bought makeup when I was 13 and used to hide it in my secret place under the stairs.

When The normal age for puberty came all the other boys I knew went through voice breaking and normal guy stuff, but I was different my voice only started to go deeper at 18 I went through alot of other mixed emotions and developed small AA cup breasts which i still have today I went to clothing stores and bought bras pantys etc...

I went to a psycologist and he helped me hide my feeling but now I am 35 and relize my real gender must be Female i am a male now and feel trapped

hugs

Dominique

[Guest Guest_SL]

Hi,

Good place to get untrapped. Do you see a therapist now? A good second move after Laura's. Come to terms with your identity and live the way you choose. Folks here will be here for you 24/7.

Best of luck,

Sara

[Guest Dominique11]

Thank you sara

I feel so special now that I can find out more and dont have to worry about discrimination thanx for making me feel at home

hugs

Dominique

[Guest HeatherAnne]

Going to a Gender Therapist is something I cannot recommend enough. I have been to several therapists and almost all of them had me more depressed going out than I came in. Except for the GTs. It was so extremely liberating being able to freely be me in those sessions!

Gender therapy broke down my masks. I learned I could still be myself in real life, and that feeling is absolutely worth reaching for. Now that I know how to break my masks down, I can be myself with my close friends. Your mileage may vary, of course.

[Guest Donna Jean]

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I was in your place...and I was 58.

I broke down and went to a gender therapist and I am now the happiest that I've ever been in my life....

Try it, Hon....

Dee Jay

[Guest Dominique11]

I am definately going to try i am still trying to find one in south africa

thanx for being there for me

hugs

Dominique

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Dominque,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

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Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.

We all look forward to seeing you.

vanna

[Guest Dominique11]

Just a small update,

i contacted a company here in sa and they are great and are trying to help find a social worker and help me through all my steps and decisions

thank you all

you are my inspiration

hugs

Dominique

[Charlize]

So glad your here and that i found your post. Like Donna Jean i got started late after hiding all my life. Every step i take brings new freedoms and new responsibilities. I am getting to really look at this thing called Charlie and try to figure which way it will go. He or she or both? don't know and that's confusing but a lot better than hiding.

Hugs and welcome to Laura's

Charlie

[Guest Chrissy's Out]

It all starts around 5th grade! I did the same thing, sneaking in the bathroom when my mother was drying her pantyhose. It was so exciting and such a turn on wearing them. I remember skipping school, not to have fun with the guys, no to spend the day dressed as a girl! I'm forty now and the sneaking around has finally caught up with me. I'm out of the closet, my wife knows and I am a mental wreak. God I wished I was back in the 5th grade!

Good luck,

Chrissy

[Guest RobertaLonely]

I am new to Laura;s site and I started about the same age with a slip and stockings! I went to a psychologist for years and still do but some things can't be repressed, like who we really are as a person!

No other person can feel what you feel and each of our circumstances are unique but I can relate to what you have been facing. Most around us know nothing about how we feel and that it is OK because it pleases US!

Love you and stay well!