more mush (that is what we call poetry sometimes)

[Guest DanD]

i wrote these in 2001.

here is how ya feel when you dont tell them how you feel:

When I lay in bed, I think of you;

Thoughts bounce in my head, things that I should do.

Did I tell you that I always think of you?

Did I say that I hold you so dear?

Did I ever say..

how you always take my breath away,

and bring a smile to my heart

even though we're far apart?

I have been too afraid to dream,

too ashamed to love.

and since that was short, another one similar to it:

Thinking to Her (You) (i think thats the title)

I constantly have these inner dialogs with you inside my brain

Thinking of words for you that would decipher and explain

I long for you all through my days and nights

I feel the lowest lows, and the highest heights

Such a sadness so deep within I cannot show

And still, I feel my heart rejoice

at the promise of the sound of your voice

I reach out my hand to touch the untouchable

and I always feel, what no one else ever seems to be able to feel

I feel such intense immense love, yet I am so unlovable

Like a ghost or shadow who is unreal.

and this one, from the same time period:

As I Watched the Sun Rise

As I watched the sunrise

I felt the sky breathe

even deep within me

and I was part of you.

and this, these were writen on the same day I think.

Untitled… 7/12/2001 (thinking) this one was a song, i have it on tape.

Guess I don’t know just what is real

All I know is how I feel

deep down inside

I 'm someone else

deep down inside

I am myself

I never say or at least convey

all the thoughts I have each day

Words bounce inside

inside my head

But there they hide

and I say something else instead

And I don't know why...

I am always so afraid.

[Guest]

WOW! very nice. The second one identifies me also, The last one spoke to my heart and I enjoyed the tears. Keep writing. Jody---PS, My thoughts don't stay inside much lately cuz I'm a blabber mouth. Giggle.

[Guest DanD]

lol yeh..well sometimes i can blabber too, depends how i'm feeling i guess.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Gosh it made me feel like you wrote it just for me

<<< hug >>>

vanna