5 months HRT

[Guest HeatherAnne]

So. On a scale of 1 'guy in a dress' to 10 'normal girl'...?

I'm having a hard time telling how much is wishful thinking and how much is actual reality there.

[VickySGV]

Well--- I won't use a scale number, but grumpy and nervous potential girl is what I get from the shot. Smile and you go up 8 points!!

[Guest crissy_oakley]

Heather,

I think you look good but it really comes down to what you think. I know I have posted pictures here and asked, what everybody thought. While I received generally positive feedback, the only opinion that mattered was mine. Until recently, I didn't have a lot of confidence and really didn't believe the compliments of my family and friends.

When you find that confidence, you won't have to ask the question.

I think passing and looking feminine come more from the confidence and the happiness we exude, than make-up, HRT, and clothing combined.

crissy

[Kyla666]

I would say a 8/10. Much better then me at about the same month on hrt I feel like my progress has come to a stop

[Guest HeatherAnne]

Kyla, your Oct 7th (and avatar) pics are great! Totally pass, I wouldn't even question it..

[Kyla666]

My biggest problem right now is no money for laser so it takes 5lbs of makeup on to look good in pictures, trust me without makeup I am a 1 out of 10 ... been down on myself here in the past few days because of what I look like and its been 5 months on hrt yet it looks like 5 weeks.

[Guest Julie_Mason]

Well--- I won't use a scale number, but grumpy and nervous potential girl is what I get from the shot. Smile and you go up 8 points!!

I would have to agree with this. You look fabulous. Just remember what Louis Armstrong said,

"When you're smilin'....keep on smilin'

The whole world smiles with you

And when you're laughin'....keep on laughin'

The sun comes shinin' through"

My biggest problem right now is no money for laser so it takes 5lbs of makeup on to look good in pictures, trust me without makeup I am a 1 out of 10 ... been down on myself here in the past few days because of what I look like and its been 5 months on hrt yet it looks like 5 weeks.

Kyla,

First of all, you look great. Secondly, I know how you feel about being "down" on yourself. We all succomb to self deprecating thoughts occaisionally, me especially. I havent even been able to start my HRT yet, so there are many times (especially recently) that I have felt bad about the way I look. Ive even gone as far as putting all the (movable) mirrors in my house into a storage room that I dont frequent at one point. I have the hope that HRT will feminize my face enough that I no longer will look like a man wearing women's clothing, but fear sometimes that it will have little effect on me. But regardless of the eventual outcome of my HRT, I will persevere, because I know who I am on the inside, wheather or not it matches completely whats on the outside. We all have to eventually find the strength to be comfortable in our own bodies. It just takes a little confidence and a lot of love for ourselves.

The way I deal with it is to remember that, regardless of the fact that I may have an "ugly mug", I have a beautiful soul and that is what really counts. I have to "reel myself in" sometimes, remembering what I told myself when I decided to transition... That being, "Id rather be an ugly woman, then live a lie as a pretend man any longer".

Finding beauty in ones self is hard to do sometimes, especially for those of us who have always hated the way we look, regardless of what loved ones say. Getting over the whole "ugly-duck-syndrome" may be tough, but it is possible.

Stay Strong and Be Proud, Kyla, and remember that you are beautiful, even if you fail to see it sometimes.

Hugs,

-Julie M.<3