Burden

[Guest Kallum]

Looking into the abyss that once was my soul,

Drowning in the secrets that nobody knows.

I try to speak but they cannot hear,

For I am a person thats no longer there.

The fights in my mind can go on for hours,

I wish they would stop they're making me powerless.

I sit in the dark and stare at myself,

Trapped and alone there is no one else.

I scream and I scream to the endless abyss that I am still here,

Though I am not missed.

A solitary tear rolls down my face,

On the inside I'm burning my life's a disgrace.

It cannot go on, it can't stay like this,

But they do not listen to what they can't see.

The pride that was felt has all drained away,

Some days I just wish that they hadn't lain.

For I would not be here,

They wouldn't blame, themselves for what is not in their control.

But

Together, in love a baby became,

The joy that they felt the smiles that they had.

Are long gone and all that is left,

Is the doubt, the worry, the grief, the questions, the end of the world.

So if all is quiet it cannot hurt,

Right, but the agony inside is tourment itself.

I am afraid,

That I have made irreprible damage to the ones I love most.

I wish that we had the courage to talk,

The silence is deafening.

Yet I fear the tears and the anguish that shows in there face,

I wish that I never existed and came into their lives.

I know I don't tell them so they cannot see,

That I feel like a burden, for just being me.

Kal

[Guest Tamar]

Wow. Deep. Thanks for sharing Kal.

[Guest Maria_B]

Kal, I read a great deal of pain. I know it well.

Sincerest love from me to you.

*hugs*

[Charlize]

Kal, I'm so sorry you feel that way as i know it too well. We all have times of hurt and pain as we feel we hurt others. While at the same time we have to be ourselves Things change dear person. Your tears will turn to smiles if you give them some time. In the meantime please keep us in the loop and know you are not alone.

Hugs,

Charlie

[Guest miss kindheart]

Dear Kai,

<<< hug >>>

The courage you seek is right inside of you

But then It always has been

The ones you love the most surly love you unconditionally

Don't ever give up on that

Instead trust in it, with your whole heart

Your words have the power of poetry

Don't be afraid to share them with the ones dearest to you

vanna