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Know me

But know me not

For I am the will you have

But this will you have brought to dross

As I am of light

But as I am the dark

As life is to death

Death is to all life

Know this I say:

"My ways are not your ways,

And your ways are not my ways,

And neither can you understand"

But you will not know what I have said

You will know me

But you will know me not

For I am you

But you I am not

As I am the man

But man is the woman

As I did give life to you

So did I condemn you to death

Know this I say:

"Do not judge, or you too will be judged.

For in the same way you judge others,

You will be judged, and with the same measure you use,"

But you will not know what I have said

For even as all men sin

Yet as those that sin become saints

Just as the fool can be wise

Would the wise become a fool.

And the feeble be strong

As the strong be made feeble

Know this I say:

“This above all: To thine own self be true,

And it must follow, as the night the day,

Thou canst not then be false to any man.”

But you will not know what I have said!

For my works are yet so mysterious

As the Devil is my design

Did I command of him to be refused

In your complicit temptation

As would carrion breed the maggots

So does his mouth breathe the lie

Know this I say:

"But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil,

thou shalt not eat of it:

for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die."

But you will not know what I have said

For the fruit you thought good

Did but bring you great evil

And ousted from Eden by your sin

Did you take him as your father

And relegated as his concubine

When you, and the serpent, come to blame

You will see my good as evil

But evil I will use for good

Would you not know the serpent

Being as I had made the dragon

And will he, you blame for the lie

Tho the lie did you accept for truth!

Know this I say:

"Ye are of your father the Devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do.

He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth,

because there is no truth in him."

But you will not know what I have said

You will bed with the tempters

But tempters would leave your bed cold

Would you cast the Devil from Heaven

But know that he is in my great court.

And you would make war against him

But by war would you slake his thirst!

You will bend your minds against me

But you will learn that minds you have not

As you would rather cast me aside

So will I aside cast you in like

And riddle your brains with my puzzle

But my riddle is more than a game

Know this I say:

"Therefore, since brevity is the soul of wit,

and tediousness the limbs and outward flourishes,

I will be brief."

But you will not know what I have said.

You will make to, long lectures

But lectures so long breed nothing

And you will call to false idols

But to you I have made known of no gods

You will challenge me at every course

But I will make them to you as vanity

Know this I say:

“Then shalt thou enquire, and make search, and ask diligently;

and, behold, if it be truth, and the thing certain,

that such abomination is wrought among you”

But you will not know what I have said!

Since those with greed in heart

Turn to fire the hearts they hold

For their souls are meant to burn

Should you know the better of them

And you lay of stone a foundation sound

Nor partake with salvationless whores

Know this I say:

"My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,

And do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

Because the Lord disciplines those he loves…"

But you will not know what I have said

You will know me

But you will know me not

For I am the all

But all is not me

As I did mend you in life

Will I rend you in death

As I did give myself life

So did I succumb to death!

Know this I say:

"Nothing is neither good nor bad,

But thinking makes it so

And this will be a prison to all of you"

But you will not know what I have said

Know me

But know me not

I am your intellect

But intelligence you have not

As I am to order

So chaos I rule

As death is to life

Life is to death

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