I got the orange "stick" two or three years ago back in Athens and the funny thing is at the immigration in Atlanta, an officer stopped me because I had some food in my suitcase and the dog sniffed it, When she opened it and was searching my luggage, the orange "cucumber" popped and caressed her hand, I then turn to her and said "oh dear, that is my toy I play with".
She closed my suitcase at once and even said to me, welcome to USA.
I'm impressed. They didn't even GIVE me an orange one. The doctor said, "Too many patients were injuring themselves with it." My set only goes to green.
I do know where my crate of SurgiLube is though. 😋
What a bliss today for me. On the front porch, a parcel was waiting for me to open. I had ordered a Halston blouse, tried it on and I look like a French model (eat your heart out Amelie Honore) 😀
Also, today is July the 15th and guess, I must exercise with dilation. I cannot find my KY cream but oh well, I went to the shower and started my "exercise" with the color orange thingy.
I am back in my room now, I am enjoying a lovely cup of Godiva coffee with cream and please ladies and gents, please have a great, safe and healthy day from your e-friend Dina. 😚
I agree with Tori M, and I enjoy reading as well, one book I really enjoyed early in my transition was "She's not there" by Jennifer Boylan. The one story in the book about how this creep followed/stalked her after the gig (she was in a band), really hit home. I journaled my thoughts during the time period of reading this book in an old fashioned spiral bound note book, still have it.
I agree with SydneyBlue by staying busy, such as listening to or playing music is a great distraction from GD, do things, make things, apply yourself. Get your mind out of "Genderland". Consider this, non trans people don't dwell on these topics to the details we do, it can be very taxing. The faster you can get out of genderland the better, just living your life. Identify your own personal triggers, what initiates such thoughts, if Dysphoria rears it's ugly head, think how can you prevent this from happening again ?
Good luck, it's not easy, reminders can be anywhere..
I live in disphoria full time and can say doing constructive things you are good at. For example i try as hard as i can at my Job that makes me feel good. I also think feeling bad can be good because when you achieve your goal makes the victory worth it.
100% Can confirm this happens. Due to being weak willed when it comes to ruining myself I am trying a 3 pronged attack of: incentives, exercise and food changes.
I have a summer dress I want to fit into that hangs prominently in "that" closet. A picture of me running at a parkrun up on the sweet treats cupboard (that I try my best not to fill too often)
I am currently kickstarting myself with the couch to 5k app, I felt great at the beginning of the year when I could complete a 10km ( Doing c25k again, but this time I'm being chased by zombies)
I have ordered a 3wk meal replacement plan that worked in the past until I started feeling good enough about myself to start ordering pizza and fell back to where I am now.
The problem when you do not like yourself is that stodgy comfort foods offer that temporary hit of endorphins and nostalgia before kicking you back to the curb. They're also so much cheaper and easier to get hold of than good tasting healthy alternatives. Also for me personally it is a form of subconsious self sabotage and self loathing/transphobia - If I finally start to look how I want to look in the mirror it removes the excuse to stay safely as I am. You just have to keep trying. 💛
I totally understand about the hospital thing I am the same way.
I had to get an ultra sound done earlier this month and going to the diagnostic center was like going to the hospital. They did have things all set up well because there were very few people there.