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Kia Ora Gentle Folk,

I’ve been pretty laidback over the last few months, charging up my bio batteries meditating…No not meditation 27/7 -- Umm well yeah sort of… :rolleyes:

Now I know many of you are aware of what the ‘present moment’ is…But how many of you actually make a point to spend time in the “Here & Now” ?

When I go for a bush walk it’s as if my mind acts as a sounding board for the universal consciousness - the sound of cicadas stridulating and birds singing resonates through my mind – The mind becomes consciously aware of the surroundings – the body feels the vibrations of every step that it take on Mother Earth-the crack of a twig under foot-the bustle of the leaves as the gentle breeze makes its presence felt amongst the trees and to both body and mind… The body and mind are as one in the ‘present moment’

When illusions in the form of past or future thoughts make their presence felt, the mind observes them without attachment and they quickly dissolve, all the while the sound of the cicadas and birds continue to resonate peacefully through the mind…

Researchers believe the average adult has around fifty thousand thoughts per day-the vast majority of thoughts are either reminiscing past events or worrying about the future ie, a reality dissolved and one yet to materialise…

Physically one can only live in the ‘present moment’ - outside this ‘moment’ ones life is just an illusion…A pseudo reality…

When reading ‘this’ you are ‘almost’ in the ‘present moment’[your mind is receptive to what your eyes perceive-but you might be unaware of your body’s actions – SMILE BREATHE YOU ARE ‘NOW’!]…But for me writing this, it’s ‘now’ just an illusion-my ‘present moment’ is ‘now’ elsewhere…

‘Reality’ can only be found in the ‘present moment’ all else is just delusion…

The mind’s true nature is peaceful and still-The consciousness’s true nature is to maintain that peace-but sadly it often gets sidetrack with illusions…

To find true inner peace one must become more aware of the ‘present moment’ by seeing thoughts of past and future for what they really are - just illusions…

Remembering the past is not always a bad thing and hoping for a better future is a good, but one must remember reality is the ‘present moment’ and how ones feels in the ‘present moment’ is how ones ‘immediate’ future will unfold and continue to unfold…

Are you in the ‘present moment’ ? Or is your life just made up of re-runs of intangible pasts and futures ?

In a Nutshell - The more one becomes aware of the present moment [being in the now] the less room anxiety and stress[caused by thoughts of intangible pasts and future] will have when trying to occupy your mind…

“It’s easy to stay ‘present ‘ when unpleasant thoughts try to break through…

Just become more ‘aware’ of your 'present' surrounding that’s all you have to do!”

Some helpful info on how to be become more mindful…

http://buddhismtaoism.suite101.com/article...ars_and_worries

http://www.urbandharma.org/udharma4/mpe14.html

:rolleyes: It’s Buddhist stuff but good for non Buddhist too…

Happy Mindfulness –May this ‘present moment’ be a long and happy one…

:rolleyes: Just ask yourself "Am I in the 'present moment'?" and an amazing thing will happen...

Metta Sati :)

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Kia Ora Gentle Folk,

I’ve been pretty laidback over the last few months, charging up my bio batteries meditating…No not meditation 27/7 -- Umm well yeah sort of… :rolleyes:

Now I know many of you are aware of what the ‘present moment’ is…But how many of you actually make a point to spend time in the “Here & Now” ?

When I go for a bush walk it’s as if my mind acts as a sounding board for the universal consciousness - the sound of cicadas stridulating and birds singing resonates through my mind – The mind becomes consciously aware of the surroundings – the body feels the vibrations of every step that it take on Mother Earth-the crack of a twig under foot-the bustle of the leaves as the gentle breeze makes its presence felt amongst the trees and to both body and mind… The body and mind are as one in the ‘present moment’

When illusions in the form of past or future thoughts make their presence felt, the mind observes them without attachment and they quickly dissolve, all the while the sound of the cicadas and birds continue to resonate peacefully through the mind…

Researchers believe the average adult has around fifty thousand thoughts per day-the vast majority of thoughts are either reminiscing past events or worrying about the future ie, a reality dissolved and one yet to materialise…

Physically one can only live in the ‘present moment’ - outside this ‘moment’ ones life is just an illusion…A pseudo reality…

When reading ‘this’ you are ‘almost’ in the ‘present moment’[your mind is receptive to what your eyes perceive-but you might be unaware of your body’s actions – SMILE BREATHE YOU ARE ‘NOW’!]…But for me writing this, it’s ‘now’ just an illusion-my ‘present moment’ is ‘now’ elsewhere…

‘Reality’ can only be found in the ‘present moment’ all else is just delusion…

The mind’s true nature is peaceful and still-The consciousness’s true nature is to maintain that peace-but sadly it often gets sidetrack with illusions…

To find true inner peace one must become more aware of the ‘present moment’ by seeing thoughts of past and future for what they really are - just illusions…

Remembering the past is not always a bad thing and hoping for a better future is a good, but one must remember reality is the ‘present moment’ and how ones feels in the ‘present moment’ is how ones ‘immediate’ future will unfold and continue to unfold…

Are you in the ‘present moment’ ? Or is your life just made up of re-runs of intangible pasts and futures ?

In a Nutshell - The more one becomes aware of the present moment [being in the now] the less room anxiety and stress[caused by thoughts of intangible pasts and future] will have when trying to occupy your mind…

“It’s easy to stay ‘present ‘ when unpleasant thoughts try to break through…

Just become more ‘aware’ of your 'present' surrounding that’s all you have to do!”

Some helpful info on how to be become more mindful…

http://buddhismtaoism.suite101.com/article...ars_and_worries

http://www.urbandharma.org/udharma4/mpe14.html

:rolleyes: It’s Buddhist stuff but good for non Buddhist too…

Happy Mindfulness –May this ‘present moment’ be a long and happy one…

:rolleyes: Just ask yourself "Am I in the 'present moment'?" and an amazing thing will happen...

Metta Sati :)

Kia Ora

:rolleyes: I should have mentioned 'Sati' is a Pali word which means 'Mindfulness' -mind you I do like it as a name...

Metta Jendar :)

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Guest Naomi Stardust

Zen philosophy in a nutshell :D

well said

thank you

although for me, i don't always let those random thought flit away

i'm a writer and the thoughts that form themselves while i'm in the moment

often turn out to be my best poems :lol:

wishing you many happy moments

Naomi

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Zen philosophy in a nutshell :D

well said

thank you

although for me, i don't always let those random thought flit away

i'm a writer and the thoughts that form themselves while i'm in the moment

often turn out to be my best poems :lol:

wishing you many happy moments

Naomi

Kia Ora Naomi,

To observe but not to attach oneself to ones thoughts. can be very beneficial, not only for a writer, but for anyone who truly wants to understand themselves better...

By becoming the observer of ones thoughts instead of being dragged along with them, one remains constantly in the peace of the present moment...

:rolleyes: Are you familar with Thich Nhat Hanh's book "Present Moment Wonderful Moment"...He's a Vietnamese Buddhist monk...

Quote from book...

"Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four brand new hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion!"

"Opening the window, I look out onto the Dharmakaya, How wonderful is life, Attentive to each moment. my mind is clear like a calm river!"

By reciting these simple verses each day, one can train one's mind to focus on better things :)

It may be Buddhist philosophy that been taught for over 2500 years,[which can at times be somewhat off putting especially for those people who see Buddhism as just another religion] but it's a practical way for people to understand life better and get more out of life by learning to go with their natural flow...

Happy Mindfulness

Metta Jendar :)

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Guest Kelly Ann

Hi Jendar...I've enjoyed your posts, you disappeared just as I found this place. Hope it's been peaceful to and for you...your dedication to discovery of self is way beyond what I would ever manage...The here and now is something that many will never experience...well done explaining it as there are many that can benefit from the attempt :) Welcome BACK TOO, Kelly Ann

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Hi Jendar...I've enjoyed your posts, you disappeared just as I found this place. Hope it's been peaceful to and for you...your dedication to discovery of self is way beyond what I would ever manage...The here and now is something that many will never experience...well done explaining it as there are many that can benefit from the attempt :) Welcome BACK TOO, Kelly Ann

Kia Ora Kelly Ann,

Nice to meet you too….

At times we all experience the ‘present moment’ but sadly our minds have been so conditioned by past experiences that we have created a false sense of ‘self’, this self prefer the illusional ‘re-runs’ of the past ‘what was’ or the ‘what ifs’ of the future, to ‘what is’ = reality-the here and now

From a Buddhist perspective it’s what called clinging to ‘self’ self in this case being ones ego…which will do anything to remain in control of the mind- even though it feeds on sensual pleasures, it also feeds on anxiety and fear anything that will make it seem more real…The ‘present moment’ is the enemy of ‘self’…’Being’ in the ‘present moment’ one is free from egotistic self…which causes all the anxiety and suffering…By doing so one is not losing a sense of who they are-they are just being true to their ‘being’…becoming whole=body and mind as one…Or 'true self' as some would say...

To deal with ones anxiety one needs to bring oneself fully into the ‘present moment’

Becoming aware of ones breathing is a common technique used to do this…but by just asking oneself “Am I in the present moment?” will also bring one back into the here & now…When one finds they are being dragged away by thoughts, don’t panic just gently return to the present moment by 'awareness breathing' or just asking the above question…The more one does this the more it will become the norm and the more it becomes the norm the less anxiety will impact upon ones life…

It’s something so easy and simple to do that we tend to overlook it’s importance…

I often find myself saying[to myself that is :) ] things like “I’m opening the fridge!” [ I just had a cool drink] simple statement that brings ‘total’ awareness of the moment…

Just ask yourselves this where your mind at when you open the fridge to get a drink or making a cup of tea?

I hope I've explained what the 'present moment' really is and how it can truly benefit and enrich one's life...Or I could have confuse some even more...I hope not ;)

Happy Mindfulness :D

Metta Jendar :)

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Guest Naomi Stardust
Kia Ora Naomi,

To observe but not to attach oneself to ones thoughts. can be very beneficial, not only for a writer, but for anyone who truly wants to understand themselves better...

By becoming the observer of ones thoughts instead of being dragged along with them, one remains constantly in the peace of the present moment...

:rolleyes: Are you familar with Thich Nhat Hanh's book "Present Moment Wonderful Moment"...He's a Vietnamese Buddhist monk...

Quote from book...

"Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four brand new hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion!"

"Opening the window, I look out onto the Dharmakaya, How wonderful is life, Attentive to each moment. my mind is clear like a calm river!"

By reciting these simple verses each day, one can train one's mind to focus on better things :)

It may be Buddhist philosophy that been taught for over 2500 years,[which can at times be somewhat off putting especially for those people who see Buddhism as just another religion] but it's a practical way for people to understand life better and get more out of life by learning to go with their natural flow...

Happy Mindfulness

Metta Jendar :)

Thich Nhat Hanh's book "Present Moment Wonderful Moment"

i am not familiar with this book, but tomorrow night i'm going to a poetry reading at spiritual books store, if it's there, i'll pick up a copy

also, i'd like to hear any comments you have on synchronicity

i've been noticing a lot of it recently

Happy Mindfulness

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Thich Nhat Hanh's book "Present Moment Wonderful Moment"

i am not familiar with this book, but tomorrow night i'm going to a poetry reading at spiritual books store, if it's there, i'll pick up a copy

also, i'd like to hear any comments you have on synchronicity

i've been noticing a lot of it recently

Happy Mindfulness

Kia Ora Naomi,

I had never given ‘synchronicity’ much thought, in fact I was not really familiar with the term until you mentioned it…It’s one of those words that I came across in the past but didn’t read much into it…

When discussing Buddhism I often say that Buddhism found me in my time of need, that is, I had come across the Buddha and his teachings quite some time ago but never really took it to heart, plus I had travelled in a number of Buddhist countries in my younger years and found the experience somewhat ‘enlightening’ … It’s as if Buddhism waits for us to experience other beliefs before we are capable of embracing it… For me this saying hold true ”When the student is ready the teacher will appear!”

Around ten years ago I was called out to do some work at a Chinese Buddhist temple The nuns at the temple would always greet me with a genuine smile[a smile full of loving kindness ‘Metta’] this would immediately put my mind at ease, I started to ask questions about Buddhism and they would not only have answers but would give me books and booklets on the Buddha’s teachings-the more I read the more I put into practice his teachings-the more I found peace within…

I guess synchronicity can play a part in the life of a Buddhist/follower of the Buddha’s teachings, but I’m unsure of how much of a part - that would depend on the individual’s mindset…

Carl Jung describes Synchronicity as the "temporally coincident occurrences of a causal events". Jung also spoke of synchronicity as being an "acausal connecting principle" (ie. a pattern of connection that is not explained by causality). Plainly put, it is the experience of having two (or more) things happen simultaneously in a manner that is meaningful to the person or people experiencing them, where that meaning suggests an underlying pattern. It differs from coincidence in that synchronicity implies not just a happenstance, but an underlying pattern or dynamic that is being expressed through meaningful relationships or events. It was a principle that Jung felt compassed his concepts of archetypes and the collective unconscious, in that it was descriptive of a governing dynamic that underlay the whole of human experience and history—social, emotional, psychological, and spiritual. Jung believed that many experiences perceived as coincidence were due not merely to chance, but instead, suggested the manifestation of parallel events or circumstances reflecting this governing dynamic.

Example of synchronicity. Quoted from the Wikipeadia

The French writer Émile Deschamps claims in his memoirs that in 1805, he was treated to some plum pudding by a stranger named Monsieur de Fortgibu. Ten years later, the writer encountered plum pudding on the menu of a Paris restaurant and wanted to order some, but the waiter told him that the last dish had already been served to another customer, who turned out to be de Fortgibu. Many years later, in 1832, Émile Deschamps was at a diner and was once again offered plum pudding. He recalled the earlier incident and told his friends that only de Fortgibu was missing to make the setting complete—and in the same instant, the now senile de Fortgibu entered the room.

In his book Synchronicity (1952), Jung tells the following story as an example of a synchronistic event: "A young woman I was treating had, at a critical moment, a dream in which she was given a golden scarab. While she was telling me this dream, I sat with my back to the closed window. Suddenly I heard a noise behind me, like a gentle tapping. I turned round and saw a flying insect knocking against the window-pane from the outside. I opened the window and caught the creature in the air as it flew in. It was the nearest analogy to a golden scarab one finds in our latitudes, a scarabaeud beetle, the common rose-chafer (Cetonia aurata), which contrary to its usual habits had evidently felt the urge to get into a dark room at this particular moment. I must admit that nothing like it ever happened to me before or since." (The Collected Works of C.G. Jung, paragraph 843, Princeton University Press Edition)

Simultaneous discovery is the creation of the same new idea at causally disconnected places by two persons at approximately the same time. If, for example, an American and a British musician, having never had anything to do with one another, arrived at the same musical concept, chord sequence, feel or lyrics at the same time in different places, this would be an example of synchronicity. The wardrobe department for The Wizard of Oz unknowingly purchased a coat for character Professor Marvel from a second-hand store, which was later verified to be originally owned by L. Frank Baum, the author of the children's novel The Wonderful Wizard of Oz.

Jung wrote, after describing some examples, "When coincidences pile up in this way, one cannot help being impressed by them -- for the greater the number of terms in such a series, or the more unusual its character, the more improbable it becomes…

:rolleyes: I guess the technique of 'visualisation' can be seen in a similar sense-visualising what we want to happen in the near future... :rolleyes: perhaps that is more like a 'controlled' form of synchronism... B)

Happy Mindfulness

Metta Jendar :)

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Kia Ora,

My thanks to whichever moderator move this from the trans spiritual section...Believe it or not it was not my intention to make this a post on 'Buddhism'...However, even though the 'present moment' is incorparated into most psychotherapy work and the likes...'now' I think of it, when discussing/explaining the 'present moment' one must always refer to the source which just so happens to be Buddhism...My apologies for putting it in the wrong section...

Happy Mindfulness ^_^

Metta Jendar:)

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Guest Natalie92

Hello Jendar!

Thank you for making this post. I really need it with all the the stress I'm going through right now (I'm in my final year of High School, do marching band in the fall and play tennis in the Spring, along with all my homework, friendships, family problems, being transgender, worrying about getting into college, worrying about PAYING for college, etc.).

Do you have any extra advice to help me meditate? It'd be really appriciated by this 17 girl!

Love Natalie

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Kia Ora Naomi,

To observe but not to attach oneself to ones thoughts. can be very beneficial, not only for a writer, but for anyone who truly wants to understand themselves better...

By becoming the observer of ones thoughts instead of being dragged along with them, one remains constantly in the peace of the present moment...

:rolleyes: Are you familar with Thich Nhat Hanh's book "Present Moment Wonderful Moment"...He's a Vietnamese Buddhist monk...

Quote from book...

"Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four brand new hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion!"

"Opening the window, I look out onto the Dharmakaya, How wonderful is life, Attentive to each moment. my mind is clear like a calm river!"

By reciting these simple verses each day, one can train one's mind to focus on better things :)

It may be Buddhist philosophy that been taught for over 2500 years,[which can at times be somewhat off putting especially for those people who see Buddhism as just another religion] but it's a practical way for people to understand life better and get more out of life by learning to go with their natural flow...

Happy Mindfulness

Metta Jendar :)

Some of the verse that comes from the other side comes as a stray line, unconnected to what I might be doing. I have to listen, if briefly, to the passing thoughts as one may be one of those lines.  

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I love being in the here and now, and the full joy it brings. Mindful walking, mindful breathing, so peaceful.

Learned to let it go, letting go of thoughts of the past, as well as worries for the future, frees the mind to enjoy all that is happening in the moment. Like playing music, live in the moment, become the music..inter - are

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      Tuesday night.  They had a quick supper together at a fast food place.  Bob went off to teach karate and Taylor locked herself inside her apartment and worked on her hiring plan.   First the web site problem.  The two guys who ran it were self-taught and knew little.  It currently had three pages, the Home page, the About page and the Contact page,  She asked them to work with Karen in terms of redesigning it and she needed three designs to show Gibbs tomorrow.  The problem was three fold: the two guys and Karen.  Millville was a small town and all three were relatives of members of the Board.  Millville, Millvale. She was doing it.  People here called it either way, sometimes in the space of a few seconds.  She thought it was Millville.  All three had complained about the work, because the two boys regarded it as done and untouchable, even though they actually had not worked on it at all for months.  Like a number of people, they showed up and collected generous pay checks and did nothing.  She had looked at a number of websites and she had been told the company wanted one both internal and external customers could log into.  Her chief difficulty at the moment there was that there was very little content.  She decided to send the three complainers out tomorrow to take numerous pictures of the thirty acres  Or was it forty?  No one seemed to care. She cared, because she needed to get it right.  She debated outsourcing the website to a company, but first she needed something to outsource, and before then she needed to decide whether to keep these people.  She didn't need to mess with them.  So she decided to recommend they hire an experienced website developer with management skills. Would such a person come to Millville?  The schools were good, because the company had poured money into them, and the streets were well paved.  The company had bought all the abandoned houses and maintained them, hoping someday they would be filled again. Millville was crime-free.  People did not lock their doors. Neighborly. Very conservative, but in a good way.  Hard working, ethical, honest. Maybe the Chinese money was corrupting the town?  Not sure.  So she thought they would hire someone, even if it were a remote position.  She would rather have them here, but she would take what she would get.  That would move the website out of her hair. Secondly, she needed an effective presenter.  She could not do all these presentations herself.  She had natural talent but a lot could be passed on. She needed another Mary and another Brenda, or their understudies, effective hardworking people.   Bob. Was he okay with this?  He said she was Management.  Was that a problem?  And she was now earning a ridiculous salary, which she put down to company dysfunction more than anything she had done.  Was that a problem? She was not sure.  He was highly competitive and he had that male ego.  She did not.  A feeling of guilt rose.   Her therapist had brought up her feelings of guilt about not making Dad's expectations, never being the man Dad wanted her to be.  She never could, and this physical evidence backed that up.  What would the doctor say?  She thought about it, and that her therapist said she needed to find a sexual assault survivor's group more than a transgender group right now. Was there one here?  She thought about serving in a women's shelter.  There was one here, oddly enough connected to the church they had visited.  That F on her drivers' license would help.  She was waiting until after she talked to the doctor again to move on that stuff.   Was Bob really buying 160 acres near the old air strip on speculation?  Much of the land around Millville had been for sale for a long time.  That land was being offered at a dollar an acre, the owners having inherited it and now living out of state. Common knowledge.  They would take the first offer, and it had been for sale since the airstrip closed twenty years ago. Airstrip.  That would help.  Not tonight. Focus, girl, she told herself, and read over her notes to do so, which were making less sense the further down she went. It was eleven, and she gave up and went to bed.
    • violet r
      .my name is violet. I'm new here and thus is my first try at forums. I'm 45 and just recently having came to terms of who I really am. Thought a lot of self discovery since I stopped drinking. Drinking was my coping mechanism to hide a lot of thing. There were plenty of signs though the years. As I look back. That i hid inside. Now really sure what made all of this bubble to the surface at this time in my life.  Mabye it was waiting for me to be open minded and ready to accept that I am trans. I have a very unhealthy environment at home that is anti trans. I really don't know what else to say but hi. I hope everyone here will be accepting of me and me work through my journey of finding the real me. I know that since I accepted it I have been much happier than I can remember. Being to real me makes me happy. I hate having to hide this all the the time at home. I work retail management and have no idea if I could even stay in this business if I am to fully come out. Wow that was scary saying all that. It's a first for me
    • Ivy
      It is a lifesaver for a lot of us.
    • Abigail Genevieve
      Thanks.  What I do as a man is what a woman would do if she were a man.  There is just something feminine about the way I act as a man.  It's not that being a woman is actually better, or something to aspire to, but it is just that I am one, while not being one.   If beating my head bloody to get rid off this stupid dysphoria would fix it I would find the nearest wall, but I know that if I did that, when I woke up, it would still be there.   If I did not have this struggle I would be someone else and I would be less of a person than I am.  They say an oak tree growing in an open field is far stronger than one in a forest.  The storms come and go and I stand.   This forum is the first time I have interacted with other people struggling with the same struggle and parallel struggles. It helps.
    • Ashley0616
      I'm sorry! :( Hopefully something better will come up
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