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After my third meeting with my therapist, I told her some very horrific things that bullies have done to me. She even had to take a moment of silence to reflect on the pure emotions that were at stake. She said that I was intensely courageous to continue to get up each day. I must wear my battle wounds with pride.

Courage

Inside someone so small was a truth so big

that they could not understand and threatened

the fabric of their entire lives up to this moment.

A tiny boy's soul radiated with the purity that
only a girl could have. Her existence was his only

comfort and he hid her to keep her safe from them.

He knew that she was always there with him, and

he kept her alive. She told him that despite his pain,

she felt his pain as well and they need each other.

Soft skin was forcibly mangled, but she was strong

in their suffering. And each night, the fragile boy cried.

She reminded him that together, they will overcome it.

New wounds ripped open over previous cuts daily,

she can feel the blood oozing down their foreheads

and purple welts on their backs. She held him close.

Dangling arms torn out of their sockets, bruised bones

blue with repeated attacks laced with fear and ignorance.

He wanted to die but she refused as she was maimed too.

After the years pass, he cannot stand to hide her anymore.

Letting her out, he finally realizes that she took on his pain too.

Smiling through broken teeth, she says... "I am the real you!"

Through the sobs, he nods and accepts this truth happily.

The severely beaten woman embraces him as she set him free.

Scars remind this beautiful lady how much courage she has.

Lily Rose

There you have it! I hope you all like it!
*hugs*

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Guest DianeATL

Powerful

I am so sorry that you had to experience it to write about it but so happy that you are strong enough to push past it. Stay strong Lily Rose - what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

Hugs

Diane

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You have painted an emotion and vision filled portrait of what life is like to Trans Kids. This is why I always tell people to keep and honor their birth genders some where in their lives. For a long time one must fight and protect the other, but in time will receive the peace and love that is truly deserved. As Diane said, Powerful, and welcome to a fellowship of heros where you both can be loved.

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Thank you dear for sharing your pain and your triumph.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Guest LilyRose

Thank you very much ladies, I really appreciate the love and acceptance coming from your words. I am quickly growing a family and joining a band of heroes and warriors who fight along side me. Our fight will continue and we will be heard!

*hugs everyone*

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Guest Elizabeth1974

Wow the raw emotion you envoke as I read your work excellent. You allow us to share in the pain through your words keep writing, keep getting stronger, and stay safe and happy.

Hugs

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Guest Lacey Lynne

You're amongst friends and "family" now, girl. Bathe yourself in the wamrth and acceptance you have here. Great writing, by the way.

Peace & Joy :thumbsup: Lacey Lynne

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Guest Carla_Davis

Hi LilyRose,

I really enjoyed your poem.

Many of us can relate to it.

As you know, I have re-started seeing a therapist.

It also brought back very painful memories of my past and I also did a lot of crying.

I always feel better after purging my body of painful memories of my past.

Love, :wub:

MOM

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Guest Brenda Hailey

Amazing poem!

It stirred great emotion in me as I felt much of the pain.

I cant help but think how strong all these things actually made us without even realizing it.

I enjoyed reading your poem even though some of it hurt. :wub:

Brenda Hailey

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