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Today was a BIG day for me. My therapist had OFFICIALLY diagnosed that "there is no doubt in my mind that you have gender dysphoria and you truly are a woman in a man's body. The strongest case I ever worked with!" She will be transferring me from her to a real gender therapist in December who will guide me as I make my way through womanhood. Here's a poem laying my man self to rest and embracing my future!


At this point, it is not enough for me to

simply transition into the being that has

eluded me for all of my life. At age 27,

the shell of a man will depart from me
to join heroes who died at the same age.

Jim Morrison, the playboy poet, whose

gaze can melt icy hearts. Jimi Hendrix,

silky smooth guitarist breathed freedom.

Janis Joplin, guttural vocal cords blasting.

Kurt Cobain, articulate grunge pioneer.

May that sad side of me find peace after

trying his best to hide Lily from the world,

but now it is my time to emerge as I find

myself with the help of wonderful people

who accept and love me for who I am.

Being a woman is a spiritual act that is

calling me from within. I will never be a

supermodel but I will be cute regardless.

I will always be pure and true to my mother,

to my sisters, to future family, and to myself!

"Transitioning" is not powerful enough to

describe what is running inside my mind.

Every day of my life will bring me highs

and lows. In my lowest hours, I always

must remember that I will TRANS*cend!

How about you?

Lily Rose

I hope you like it! *hugs for my readers*

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Just a hint hon-- you will not really kill "him" off, the rest you will give "him" is in a hammock on a spring day sipping lemonade for the rest of your lives!! Its time he quit doing what you were meant to, but there is room for you to have a brotherly / sisterly love affair with each other, and you can be best friends of a sort. From here on out though "he" will not hold you back and will take his ease. Others may think you have killed him, but we know better. "He" will have a grin on from horizon to horizon as "he" watches you.

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Guest LilyRose

Hey Vicky

I guess that's what I mean when I said, "put him to rest". Like Jim, Jimi, Janis, Kurt, and so many others, they all live on despite their change in form. Seems like "he" will live on too, but in a much different way! *hugs* Thanks for reminding me that "he" will not die, just be far far away from me! Watching and truly being happy for me! :)

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Guest Sophie V

Lily, that is wonderful news, you have been waiting for this for so long.

I am so HAPPY for you, i can only begin to imagine how HAPPY you are.

Thank you for sharing all your poems and felling,

take care darling, chat again soon Xx xX

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Guest Succora


I love this post. Keep on the awesome work


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Guest Rebecca A

Be strong Lily, as you say she has always been there, but now it's time to let her out of the cage, it's 'her' turn to shine. :: hugs ::

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Congratulations on the great news, Girl. :friends:

Thank you for sharing your writing.

VickySGV has said it extremely well.

He will still be with you and you will still draw from his experiences.

However she will now be front and center.

The Peace and Happiness, I am experiencing, is truly priceless.

I wish the same for you on your Journey, Lily Rose.

Huggs, :wub:


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Guest Carla_Davis

Hi Lily,

I am very happy for you.

It is great that you can put your feelings into such Wonderful and Beautiful Words.

You WILL TRANS*cend!

I wish you Happiness "I will always be pure and true to my mother, to my sisters, to future family, and to myself"!

Love, :wub:


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Guest miss kindheart

Nice poem LilyRose :friends:

You go girl :thumbsup:

:wub: vanna

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