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Guest Jennifer T

The Pill

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"The Pill"

The magic pill

It sits there still

Gleaming on the windowsill

Its brassy case

I see my face

Through liquid scarlet - deadly grace

It doesn't know

The pang and throe

That plunges to the depths below

Only it stares

With stoic airs

Its silent intent unawares

I contemplate

"Is it too late?"

My chest begins to palpitate

My hearts desire

(A burning fire)

That leaves me hanging from this wire

Where freedom calls

Beyond the walls

Mortal strength and effort falls

To depths serene

With ghostly sheen

A visage; a lovely field of green

Beckons to me

Oh can it be?

That now my heart is truly free!

It's lodged there still;

The magic pill,

Splintered 'neath the windowsill.

- Jennifer T, December 27, 2013

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Charlize

I enjoyed the poem dear. Perhaps it left me with a bit of wondering about the nature of, and your relationship with the pill. I presume that is intended and if so it worked well.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Guest Jennifer T

Thanks Charlie.

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Guest LilyRose

I will be starting "The Magic Pill" myself sometime in January. It's quite an intimidating feeling. What will happen? What if it doesn't work? You wrote a lovely poem describing the delicate balance of anticipation and concern. Thank you for sharing! :)

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Wonderful writing, as always, Jennifer. :friends:

:ThanxSmiley: for sharing with us.

Huggs, :wub:

Joann

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Guest Jennifer T

I will be starting "The Magic Pill" myself sometime in January. It's quite an intimidating feeling. What will happen? What if it doesn't work? You wrote a lovely poem describing the delicate balance of anticipation and concern. Thank you for sharing! :)

Lily, I wrote a pretty in depth response to you dissecting the meaning/intent of my poem. However, I suppose something in it wasn't suitable in some way, so it didn't show up. But I do want to reiterate one thing I said in it - it was interesting reading what you gleaned from my words. Thanks for responding.

Joanne, as always, thank you.

Peace.

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Guest Brenda Hailey

Sounds to me like its a good thing that pill wasnt taken...

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Guest April Kristie

I'll take the red one every time. Great Poem I enjoyed it thoroughly, even read it aloud to my SO, who pondered its meaning, being it was here at LP, was it E? To me it was!

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Guest Jennifer T

I'll take the red one every time. Great Poem I enjoyed it thoroughly, even read it aloud to my SO, who pondered its meaning, being it was here at LP, was it E? To me it was!

I am honored! Thank you!

The pill is metaphor. While it was specific for me, it was intended to represent the choice that any of us makes that leads us to our individual places that are our "fields of green".

(Mods, this is the best I can of to sum it up)

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Guest miss kindheart

I always love reading an uplifting poem Jennifer

:friends:

:ThanxSmiley:

:wub: vanna

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