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Guest Plaid Chameleon

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Guest Plaid Chameleon

I noticed people were posting poetry. While most of what I write poetry wise is very depressing, I found one that was not meant to be, so I thought I would share it. The poem is about the place I grew up. I used to go spend hours on the beach at night, just slip out of my house and bring my ipod and think about life and other things. It kept me saine for many years, and I wrote this as a sort of testimant to that, and what it felt like to be there.

Sanctuary

Strange phantoms dance across a dying horizon
usher in dawn of dusk their paling screams bring silence.
Tiny punctures spread like darts across heavens gate.

Till death you hear them calling from plastic earpieces
memories that falter fast join as one upon a lucid rainbow.
The blessed retreat for sight of which they do not understand
A gold more fit for bronze yet lingers in their wake.

Bleeding outwards it runs swift across the tide
reflections that mirror only truth.
Alone you stare unblinking
counting seconds,
and for a moment time stands still.

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:welldone:

Thank you for sharing with us.

Huggs, :wub:

Joann

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Guest Brenda Hailey

Very nice poem.

You are lucky to have had such a place to go,and be. :)

May you find more of those moments in your journey.

Brenda Hailey

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Guest Motormouth18

Very nice/beatiful, both the poem and the beach. A sanctuary does wonders for people.

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Guest Plaid Chameleon

Thank you Brenda, Joann, Motermouth. I find that it's always good to have someplace to go to get away from the world.

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Charlize

Just remembering a place like that can sometimes help us get through hard moments. Thanks.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Guest Jennifer T

Sometimes, I live for those moments, Plaid Chameleon, where time stands still. I've written several poems that express this vey sentiment as well. Though they aren't beach related. :-)

Well done.

Peace.

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Plaid Chameleon

:friends:

Welcome to the poetry forum

I liked your poem :)

If you read through the poems you will see many poems that are depressing

the point its , if you are having troubles and wish to express your self with poetry it is ok

Writing about our troubles through poetry can help

So feel free to express your heart

:wub: vanna

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Guest Plaid Chameleon

Thanks, I just didn't want to upset anyone. I don't usually write poetry too often, but most of my best stuff is depressing.

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Guest Jennifer T

Plaid Chameleon, the poet ( and all artists) draws water from the depths of the full spectrum of the emotional well that exists within our heart. That well, combined with the poet's experiences provide the pallette from which we paint. The greatest works are usually written from the shear intensity of our emotions; the more intense, the more inspired. This applies to joy, elation, anger, depression, etc. All aspects must be embraced. This is humanity; this is what we are.

No need to apologize for what you write. Catharsis and healing, if not simply acceptance or resignation, often comes through theses expressions. This is poetry.

Peace

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