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Dancing Down The Wind

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Dancing Down the Wind

Watching faded leaves of past pain swirling

Carried away on the fresh breezes

As I dance in the sun of a bright new day

I seldom write poetry and even more seldom male it public. When I do it is free form. But somehow today as an anniversary approaches and the day matches my mood these words just came. A place I thought I'd never be - a dance in the sun after I thought my dancing was done and the sun gone. We often focus on the pain of our lives and the roller coaster of transition but perhaps not so often the exhilaration of the destination.


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Guest Kenna Dixon

Dancing Down The Wind... What a great title for a book!

Maybe I'll steal it.

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Nicely done, Johnny.

:ThanxSmiley: for sharing.

Huggs, :wub:


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Guest Brenda Hailey

Thank you for sharing Johnny.

Poetry does seem to just come when the time is right.

Some of us need a little stronger gusts than others :)

Brenda Hailey

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Guest Kalie Aowynn

Hey johnny sweetie, that is a very visual poem. It has an almost haunting feel blending over into the dawn of a new day. Wonderful!


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Thanks Johnny, You raised a tear of understanding.



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Guest Jennifer T

Simple, concise, elegant. Nicely done.


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Guest miss kindheart

Nice poem Johnny thannks

:wub: vanna

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