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I guess it's really been that long


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Guest Kayla Grace

I believe this month marks 365 days that I've been free of street drugs. I'll always feel a bit indebted to Marijuana, because I realized my identity while under the influence of it. But it showed me who and what I wanted to be. I'm contradicting myself, I know. There's not much else to say really. It's also been over a week since my last wine drink as well. I think we could classify it as moderation, now.

God Bless

Kayla <3

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Thank you for sharing this with us. You surely are an inspiration to many here. :)

MaryEllen

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Guest Kayla Grace

Aww, thanks Mary :)

I just prowl around and post on the topics that I have experience in, and try to help out others as best I can really :o

God Bless

Kayla <3

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That's good to hear Kayla :)

Luckily I was always determined never to buy drugs so although I skirted things a little I was never taken!

Smoking and alcohol were enough. Luckily also smoking went a good number of years back and the alcohol, except for some bad experiences, has never got too much.

I wonder how much richer I would be now though if I had abstained totally?

Tracy

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Congratulations on the street drug recovery Kayla As terrible as it was, my addiction to alcohol was instrumental in my finding out who and what I really was and am today as well. Big congratulations. I am so happy for you.

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Guest Kayla Grace

As terrible as it was, my addiction to alcohol was instrumental in my finding out who and what I really was and am today as well.

Right? Who could have predicted that addicts of Marijuana and Alcohol have turned us into the ladies we are today?

I personally have no regrets, and you shouldn't either. If it weren't for the issue in the first place, I might not have realized who I was, and was born to be. Maybe you wouldn't have either?

God Bless

Kayla <3

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Congrats Kayla. Like Vicky and you drugs, namely alcohol in my case, got me out the door as myself for the first time. A good case of dutch courage and my heel hit the pavement at a gay bar. I had fun at times but by the end that fun disappeared into isolation and a terrible addiction. It wasn't until i was sober for a time that honesty about who i am crept slowly in to my life. I doubt that could have happened without the support of other addicts who are also striving to find their path, once derailed by addictions.

A year is tremendous and a clear head can truly help us with facing what life brings.

Hugs,

Charlize

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Guest Chris546

Congrats Kayla!

I found myself hiding in the bottom of a bottle for many years before I put that behind me. All of my sobriety today still only comes one day at a time.

Clarissa Jo

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Guest Kayla Grace

If I'm being honest, it hasn't been that hard to stay away from drugs. The time had flown by, before I knew it a year went by. I think it was mostly because officers have to be drug free, and I didn't want something as silly as street drugs to ruin a good career.

God Bless

Kayla <3

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Hi Kayla,

I have always been a moderate drinker, and I still enjoy it. As for street drugs, I always have avoided them. I personally don't count marijuana as a street drug, since a pain management doctor in San Francisco recommended it for my knee pain, and inflammation (I have been diagnosed with Osteo Arthritis in both knees). It works. It really, really does, for me at least.

I also use it for religious purposes, it is a useful tool in achieving shamanic trance, and was traditionally used in Scandinavia by Seidkona like myself (look up the Oseberg ship burial for good archaeological evidence). Once again, like any medication, it can be abused, and I don't condone abuse.

I had really suppressed my feminine self for a few years after moving to California since my father would not have been accepting, and we were living together until he passed. After his passing, I realized in trance what I had been doing the past few years, and so yeah marijuana helped to bring down my "super macho Viking" shields until they collapsed into a heap. That was a very necessary step before coming out to everyone last year. In any case, I still drink alcoholic beverages, and smoke marijuana in moderation, but I am very careful to avoid driving under any influence, or doing anything that would be considered unhealthy, illegal, and / or excessive. :)

hugs,

Stephanie

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