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Today I want to live- new to me

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I had a revelation the other day- I am actually looking forward to living, instead of just plodding along, trudging the road of destiny. Didn't know where to post, so I wrote this. Enjoy.


I had a thought

That took my breath away

I thought I want to live a while

I'm puzzled and amazed

Today I want to live a while

Why is this new to me?

The man I was, ok with death

Was tired, worn and wild

The gal within, the vision seen,

Is pushing me to be

Around a while, and whole, complete

And then we'll get to see


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Thank you for sharing your poem.

I must admit that living as myself has made my life at 67 better than it has ever been.



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Life is for living

Be free, be you, be happy

C -

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Guest Charlotte J.

Love this. :)

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Guest Raya

Thank you for reading. ;)

It seems I need feedback to know if I'm just being "off" again. I get that sometimes. Now I'm not too scared to put it out there for others to see. You all are such a blessing to be around.

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Jaded, Worn, Tired, Let Down
Tomorrow will be another chore
Why can't I be happy, like I was before?
Cycling home from school, imagining myself in a gown?

Success, Triumph, Perseverance, Strong
Finishing last week was a chore
They should be part of me, why are they a bore?
I'm looking for something, what makes it all feel wrong?

Happiness, Acceptance, Pleasure, Thrill
For ages they felt like another chore
I've been reaching out to them, where's my core?
Now we're running to find them all, maybe without a kill?


You're not off, you are spot on. It describes exactly where I was a month ago.

My attempt at poetry is what bubbled to the surface after reading your work, it struck a chord :D

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Guest Raya

Thank you, selth, and welcome to

the playground, where it's true

we hope to see you here more

and read more words from you

I'd take the time to add some rhyme

but no, it would not do

the mods would sue, and I would too

To read this verse of goo

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