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21 hours ago, MarcieMarie12 said:

Yes, she is a great cook too. Though I do want to cook for her sometimes too! I am not as good as she is. I do think if we go to Renfest next year we do same thing--I can make a plan and stick to it, unlike my diet plan on the weekend. :) 

absolutely! as long as we don't drive all the way out there and find it closed. 

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Well we learned our lesson, after a hurricane or other major storm check and see if it closed...^_^

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In the end we still had a good time of it--ate Chinese in garb. Kendra could post a pic or two, she is a selfie queen!

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On 10/26/2016 at 5:20 PM, MarcieMarie12 said:

In the end we still had a good time of it--ate Chinese in garb. Kendra could post a pic or two, she is a selfie queen!

yum, good food, here is 2 of the 50 pictures I took the day the ren fest was closed :) 

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You look super cute.  That looks like a great deal of fun, a kind of extra Halloween with a theme.  Don't know if such a thing exists close to me.

 

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Charlize

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There is a Renaissance Fair one in in New Jersey, it is in May and June at Liberty Lake. Not sure if that is close to you.

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  • 3 weeks later...

This weekend was very interesting. It started Wednesday (ok not the weekend) dealing with utility companies, getting my name changed and getting them to stop service and start it at my new address. They had to get the name change request, fortunately e-mailing it worked.  I scanned that a while back for one of my credit cards, and still had it on my PC. I also forwarded my mail to my new address. Then on Thursday evening, got the keys to my new apartment (not far from my old one!!). Then I moved a few things as I moved more stuff into my new apartment--I needed a two bedroom as Jamie is now my roomate! :wub:

Well anyways, I guess the interesting part of it from my transition is that for three days I wore no make-up. Primarily because my make-up was being moved and I was just moving. So I went to a nearby fast food place, had no issues with anyone, actually small talked with a couple of the other customer (no wierd vibe), still gendered properly. I guess what I am saying is that after 8 months of hair removal, and hrt  I am comfortable about not wearing make up and still being out in public. I still will, but it is nice to feel like I have choice.

 

 

 

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That's a great place to be Marcie, sounds like you are doing well these days.

Best of luck with the rest of your move.

C -

 

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11 hours ago, MarcieMarie12 said:

guess what I am saying is that after 8 months of hair removal, and hrt  I am comfortable about not wearing make up and still being out in public.

I'm glad you brought up this point.  I was cleaning one of my cars to put away for the winter and went to fill the fuel tank.  While there I engaged in discussion with a couple people, with no make up, in jeans and sweatshirt. No issue and I felt fully comfortable in my identity.  I am so happy to be at this point in my life.

Jani

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  • 2 weeks later...

I just noticed it has been a year since living as the real me!!! (I know technically I wasn't out at work yet :P). Where I am at at this point is a good place. I'm in a relationship to another MTF, and we've moved in together. I've also am working or getting all the ducks lined up for GCS in July/August. Work is still work, surprisingly not much changed other than I socialize with the other girls in my office more--which is nice. Family has been the only down part to this transition. My dad has been the most accepting, we get together and have lunch on occasion. We talk about the family and other things. My brothers are busy, and in the few conversations uncomfortable. Not sure if they are upset with me or just unsure with how to proceed--but they don't misgender me or call me by my dead name. My mom, might finally be willing to talk to me, but as with my brothers has yet to use my new name. 

 

Passing has been easy for me. I lucked out in that department, voice, mannerisms, face and body hair all were good enough. Actually body hair gave up the ghost once HRT took effect (sparse peach hair).  I have no major issues in regards to complete strangers misgendering me. My friends of many years slip up from time to time. They are good with the name 90% of the time, but pronouns and other things gendered are hard for them (if it is off the cuff--it is a 50-50 chance they gender me correctly. I wince when they do that, but try to be nice when correcting them. 

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A year certainly makes a difference.  I am always amazed at how much folks want to start HRT right away before they deal with the much more difficult aspects of simply living as themselves in the world.  I'm sure for some it is important but even on HRT we still have a social adjustment to make which at least for me was the hardest part of transition.

Glad everything is going well for you Marcie.  I remember when you changed the name of this thread a good while back.  Things have certainly changed for you!

 

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Charlize

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29 minutes ago, Charlize said:

A year certainly makes a difference.  I am always amazed at how much folks want to start HRT right away before they deal with the much more difficult aspects of simply living as themselves in the world.  I'm sure for some it is important but even on HRT we still have a social adjustment to make which at least for me was the hardest part of transition.

Glad everything is going well for you Marcie.  I remember when you changed the name of this thread a good while back.  Things have certainly changed for you!

 

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Charlize

I thought a lot about that before HRT. Transition, HRT. Chick or the egg. Quite frankly it was because of posts on this site that convinced me that HRT was more important to me than social transition, at least in the beginning. Feeling like I should feel inside, the proper emotions and personality traits and quite frankly, most of my dysphoria is body so breast development was way up there (and atrophy for the other unmentionables).I think the hormones may have actually pushed me to my coming out of the closet to my family. I feel that being on hormones allowed me time to slow down and start learning. I can’t believe I’m ten days from six months on hormones! I’m certain that HRT before transition is the best course for me. I think they’ve helped me and will continue to help me with my transition…….

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My process worked for me--my MTF partner is on a similar route to yours. She's actually quite happy that I accept this (one of the things that made me realize I was Pan).  I had a wig and breast forms (still do), but have not used them since march of last year. The forms got uncomfortable because the real girls didn't like to be hidden, and I was happy to have long enough hair that I did not need the wig anymore.

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1 hour ago, MarcieMarie12 said:

  I had a wig and breast forms (still do), but have not used them since march of last year. The forms got uncomfortable because the real girls didn't like to be hidden, and I was happy to have long enough hair that I did not need the wig anymore.

Right?! I find myself not wearing the forms that often because my real breasts get a bit pissy about it. LOL. As for wigs, ugh, so hot and gives me headaches. Just letting the hair grown......

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Well had some interesting events, my dad is doing a better job of using pronouns and such. Was out at a trans event and a cis-bystander didn't realize I was trans until I came and talked to her about trans stuff and outed myself. Might be why non-of the chasers/admirers hit on me....:dunno:. I'm curious if that would happen at a straight bar with just me and a few friends (sans Jamie because well I am very much into PDA--:wub:.

Went to a local place for a concert, had a nice group of ladies and one guy join our table for a Carbon Leaf concert-it was only Jamie and I and an open seating-first come first serve. I am so seeing Carbon Leaf in concert again.

 

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Had the equivelent of a National Lampoons New Year's Vacation

We left on the 30th, intending to get there at noon, go to Pierce's BBQ near Williamsburg for lunch. Anyway, we get to fredricksburg and 95 is backed up due to 3 accidents, we detour through Fredricksburg and loose about an hour. A friend gets some much needed sleep-she'd only had 3 hours sleep in the last couple days. Jamie is driving, I am navigating. We get to Pierce's BBQ, and have a a great lunch. Not a great start to the weekend but Pierce's was delicious as always.

Anyways, that afternnon we were heading to Christmas Town at Busch gardens. Our misfortune continued and we watched in horror as our two friends in the car behind us gets rear ended by an SUV while we are stopped at a stop light. They get hit so hard they rear end our car. Our friends car care gets a bent axle, and a lot of body damage, the car I am in gets some damage to the bumper and hatchback. Luckily, no one got hurt, just shaken up a bit. We make it to Busch Gardens about an hour later than planned and miss one of the shows. It is also freezing cold. On the way back, we ges a speeding ticket and run over a curb on the way home.

The next day we go to First night, and even though it looked very interesting, not as good as I had hoped. The style of music was more folk/country, only a few of the performances were decent. The highlight, a decent steak and cheese and deep fried oreos....1f642.png

To cap the night off we had fireworks, or would have except the wind was blowing the fireworks towards the stadium the crowd was gathered in and the fire marshall cancelled the show.

The next morning, we leave. We got rear ended again on the way home, but nothing got damaged. Jamie (my girlfriend) and I broke out laughing. Sometimes things just go wrong, nothing you can do but laugh at the absurdity of it all.

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Yikes what a series of accidents and experiences.  I'm glad you and yours made it home in one piece and are able to laugh at it.  May the rest of your year go smoothly!

 

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Charlize

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Notice, passing wasn't my problem this trip!!! :D

I had BBQ at one of my favorite places, so at least some good came of it. Oh and my friends found a lost kitten outside and fed and saved it. Got it to a local vet.

 

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There are always good things happening. Sometimes it is difficult to see through the bad though. I glad you were all Ok Maricie (including the kitten :) )

Tracy x

 

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On ‎1‎/‎1‎/‎2017 at 8:06 PM, MarcieMarie12 said:

Notice, passing wasn't my problem this trip!!! :D

I had BBQ at one of my favorite places, so at least some good came of it. Oh and my friends found a lost kitten outside and fed and saved it. Got it to a local vet.

 

Thank you for saving the kitten! We have 4, all were sent to us for a reason.

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On ‎10‎/‎30‎/‎2016 at 9:27 AM, Charlize said:

You look super cute.  That looks like a great deal of fun, a kind of extra Halloween with a theme.  Don't know if such a thing exists close to me.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

Check Renaissance  Magazine, available at Books A Million or Barnes & Noble, they have listings internationally for Renfests whether Renaissance Guild or Society for Creative Anachronism

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It has been a while, but in reality being over a year in I think I've 95% socially transitioned. the remaining 5% is family. I did give one of my friends a nice big hug. His poor trolls could not hit very well, and we pretty much steamrolled the fort full of trolls. He looked a bit sad and I wanted to cheer him up. :D Never would have done that pre-transition, I may have wanted to, but I would have squashed that thought. 

Anyway, it is interesting now as the girls I get together with have changed with me. Especially those that started to transition the same time I did. Even though a lot of us started we are in many different stages, and not everyone is doing the same thing. 

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I went to my companies annual conference since coming out at work. I am learning that packing for a trip properly is a lot different than before. I forgot my make-up bag and all the make up. :banghead:

I ended up spending $42 for some make-up but it was definitely not a great way to start the conference. Part of the problem was I had to improvise some blush and eye shadow with a color corrector. It did not have the desired effect I was hoping for, a little on the light side. Que nervousness, and some FB messages to friends to get their opinions. If anything to calm my nerves because everyone said I looked great. 

The next day was the real test. I got up and got ready and then went to meet the members. They were great, friendly and it was nice to meet them as Marcie. One the last day, I even got to meet one of my long time clients (the CEO). When talking with one of the members, started rubbing my arm.....WHAT:o??? I only got sir'd once, and I call it a half sir. I was at our after party for the conference and ordered a Jack daniels on the rocks. Aparently girls don't do that in Texas, and girls definitely don't know the different kinds. the direct quote was "Yes sirmam.." Once again I am convinced people misgender cis girls too, especially when they do something unladlylike. Like order whiskey.......grrrrrrr.

 

 I have done this before pretransition, but this was the first time I ever felt 100% comfortable at the conference. I enjoyed the time there so much that I can't wait to go back next year!!!

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