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Wandering helpless through Life’s endless maze

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Wandering helpless through Life’s endless maze,

my heart surrenders to heavy despair.

Life seems so irrevocably unfair

as it thrusts me into its blinding haze.

Its twists and turns cause a frightening daze

that sends me through darkness of no compare.

There is no light, no solitary flare

from within, to release me from this craze.

Yet, as I bow down hopeless at Death’s door,

I hear your soft whispering in the night.

You beckon me gently to come back and fight.

Soothing, you say I am alone no more.

A spark rekindles in my weary soul

as hope trickles in and you help make me whole.

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I hear you. It's not good to be alone.


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Beautiful you are a true wordsmith

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