My Life

[Guest With Faith Or Flames]

When I was a kid I always knew something wasn't quite right but didn't know what it was. I had a pretty normal childhood until about 11 years old. At that age I was molested by one of my cousins. From that point on everything went downhill. Although I supressed the memories of the incident for years. When I was 14 I realized I was bi.Also I had I started to cut myself. so my mom decided to send me to a therapist. It was with his help that I was able to recover the supressed memories and find the source of my depression. Middle school was very tough for me. I would isolate myself from others and I would rarely talk to my peers even though girls would hit on me a lot. At 16 I started to consider the possibility that I wasn't the gender I was really meant to be and along with my sexual orientation this conflicted with my religious upbringing and made my depression worse. I started to have suicidal thoughts and acted upon them. I survived about 20 suicide attempts over the years and was sent to two different mental health facilities. To this day I still have a therapist and I see a psychiatrist. I've been on antidepressants for 4 years but I've made a lot of progress. I am almost 19 now and hope to acomplish my goals in life without my depression having power over my life. Thankyou for taking the time to read this.

[Sally]

You are the only one who has the power over your depression - that's right, you have the power.

Depression is a mood or an attitude, you can consciously drive it away with a little bit of effort and positive thoughts .

It isn't easy but it can be done and the more you do it the easier it gets - I do it all of the time.

My deepest depressions now last a day or less and when I was younger one incident could set off a month long depression.

Try it - you are in control, even if you don't believe it!

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Deeedoo]

Your COUSINS did that to you?!! It's very strange to think of that, because most of my cousins are sweet little girls under the age of five. It's good that your mom sent you to a therapist. Hopefully you're not feeling bad about being bisexual and being born into the wrong gender anymore. Remember to jump every morning; it helps people feel better and start the day off happy.