Just had this "no dysphoria" moment

[Guest]

I was in the bathroom just after one of the millions baths I need to take. I was looking myself in the mirror and there she was, I was feeling complete for the first time. It's not an happy moment or a sad one. It just is, it's ... normal. It's just the first time I was in there and feeling absolutely no dysphoria. I'm not perfect, far from it, but now I feel I've done what I needed to do. I'm sure of it.

I was wondering if I would reach this, at the start of my transition it seemed like a fool's errand. But here I am, lol. I just smile to the mirror now, lol

I just wanted to share this moment, i'm pretty sure everybody but trans* would not care

[Guest Jamie61]

Aw. You know we care. I can only relate in that each step, has a lasting effect, which is as you describe. Just feels right, normal, ok to proceed now... People sometimes ask me about " the surgery ", and I always down play my answer, but part of me already knows I have to do something to feel right about it.

Congratulations Marie!

Jamie

[tracy_j]

It's nice to hear

Tracy x

[Jani]

This is nice to hear and we do care. It's never a minor thing to feel normal and comfortable in our own skin. Thanks for sharing.

Jani

[Guest LesleyAnne]

OMG! Yes we do care! And actually what you said about looking at yourself, and not feeling elated nor sad proves to me personally how I think I would feel....

NORMAL! Just Normal!

Thank you for sharing something that I think a lot of us here have imagined it would feel.....Thank You!

So, so glad you posted this

[Charlize]

It was an amazing moment when the mirror became my friend. We still argue from time to time but i understand that smile. Thanks for sharing it here. Keep smiling as you enjoy this journey.

Hugs,

Charlize

[AnnazMom]

I have been following your journey and that is excellent news! Normal is just that. I remember that feeling about 8 months in when the whole trans thing (with my daughter) was no longer an issue for me. I could get on with living without so much inward drama. Your smile is so genuine. You deserve continued happiness!

Congratulations on having that feeling so early! May it last forever

[Guest KerryUK]

I remember it too Soliloque,

I sometimes have to feel down there to remind myself that it is true and not a dream. To me, it just feels 'right'. When I'm undressed and I look down, I can no longer remember what it was like to have something there. So that relief doesn't go away.

Kerry

[Guest]

Yes, also for me that first moment. My girlfriends later have commented that that tremendous pain of healing down there is akin to birthing a child.

That made my recovery even more heartwarming. It does seem much more normal as we heal.

Soon there are even more neuances and an even better paradigm shift into a more complete "normal", it's a gift that keeps on giving. (for someone wired male, that must produce a nightmare from hell I suspect???) We are doubley blessed!

As a side note: we were solving a housing conflict for me, my District Manager was on the phone with someone in conversation; "I don't know. JodyAnn, are you still on hormones?" "Yes? I will be for the rest of my life!" Then she replied to the other person. "Good, we are going to make sure she takes them, so I can keep my sanity!" The three of us were roaring in laughter!

Now there is a validation GodShot and girl shot that I truly fit it,100% Girl! I don't much remember what it was like to be him. He was so lost and is now long gone. My new little badge of honor erases any genitalia clue to that history. Life just gets better and better.

Enjoy! Hug. JodyAnn

PS - I don't wear hoochie momma, but I do now enjoy fashions that flatter my flatness down there. That feels even more right. JA

[Guest sarajayne]

Great the mirror can be very reassuring just to see yourself how you have progressed into your true self.

Huggs Sarah

[VickySGV]

Actually,. I had it hit me on the first shower I took after my external plumbing and interior packing had come out (Day 7). Still swollen and bruised up beyond my belly button, but there was a person in the mirror I had wanted to meet and see for ages it seemed, and she had my face!! Too darn great.